Well, I'm back again, after awhile without posting. I'm getting bad with keeping up with my blog here; my "real life" journal and LiveJournal take up more of my time, as well as just keeping up with posts on here. However, I will update once in awhile, honest.
Today has gone alright I suppose, so far. My best friend came over for breakfast at 7:30 and we had a good time together, chatting and laughing and lounging around in our sweatpants and baggy sweatshirts. (It's the weekend!!) I miss the days when we were little and carefree.... I was writing a poem about that and I really do miss those days. It is a little sad to realise that days like those aren't going to return. We're grown up now. I'm married, she's dating for the first time, we're both in college, I'll be graduating in a year... no more are the little girls who played flashlight tag and giggled at night and made up stories and played them out. They are in us somewhere, buried, but I doubt that they will resurface. We still giggle, we still have fun, we still have fits of laughter for no reason at all... but nevertheless, we are grown up. As an example - before she came this morning, I was doing finances. Fun. Working with numbers, figuring out how much we've spent and how much we've earned over the past month. I hate that..... it's a duty that I will do, it's just frustrating, aggravating, annoying. It's something that no little girl would have to do (or need to do, haha).
So I am grown up. What a weird feeling. J refers to me as a woman, and I certainly don't feel like one. I still feel like a little girl. Even though I'm not a virgin anymore... even though I live with a man... even though I'm doing finances, laundry, shopping, and have a checkbook and debit card - all things I didn't have prior to marriage - I still don't feel grown up. I guess I don't have to. I'm growing older and in doing so am getting more responsibilities, but I don't have to feel all stodgy and grown up, now, do I?
Anyway. Enough on that. I don't have to feel that way. I'm not that old, haha.
I'm just feeling nostalgic and a little sad right now, I guess. Oh well.....
Today has gone alright I suppose, so far. My best friend came over for breakfast at 7:30 and we had a good time together, chatting and laughing and lounging around in our sweatpants and baggy sweatshirts. (It's the weekend!!) I miss the days when we were little and carefree.... I was writing a poem about that and I really do miss those days. It is a little sad to realise that days like those aren't going to return. We're grown up now. I'm married, she's dating for the first time, we're both in college, I'll be graduating in a year... no more are the little girls who played flashlight tag and giggled at night and made up stories and played them out. They are in us somewhere, buried, but I doubt that they will resurface. We still giggle, we still have fun, we still have fits of laughter for no reason at all... but nevertheless, we are grown up. As an example - before she came this morning, I was doing finances. Fun. Working with numbers, figuring out how much we've spent and how much we've earned over the past month. I hate that..... it's a duty that I will do, it's just frustrating, aggravating, annoying. It's something that no little girl would have to do (or need to do, haha).
So I am grown up. What a weird feeling. J refers to me as a woman, and I certainly don't feel like one. I still feel like a little girl. Even though I'm not a virgin anymore... even though I live with a man... even though I'm doing finances, laundry, shopping, and have a checkbook and debit card - all things I didn't have prior to marriage - I still don't feel grown up. I guess I don't have to. I'm growing older and in doing so am getting more responsibilities, but I don't have to feel all stodgy and grown up, now, do I?
Anyway. Enough on that. I don't have to feel that way. I'm not that old, haha.
I'm just feeling nostalgic and a little sad right now, I guess. Oh well.....
