I am really, really tired of uni. It's dragging me down, my moods down, everything down.
Yesterday was an awful day.
It started out with me waking up cranky... and finding out that my new hamster was dead. I thought she was the day before but it turns out that she was for sure yesterday. I don't know what killed her, because it certainly wasn't old age... same symptoms as my last (older) hamster, who just died a few weeks ago. So I'm guessing a bacterial infection? and that I suck because I didn't Clorox the cage.
Then I had an quiz/exam in my first class (I think I did okay on it, but it was still uber stressful). A break in which I ate lunch (10:30ish) then my favorite class, Medicine & Society. I actively participated in the discussion, enjoyed taking notes, and since I sit with two friends and we always have fun, we had fun (hehe). So that was good.
Then on to my next class, Lifecycle Nutrition. The professor for this course is new - her first time teaching - she's only got a Master's degree. There is a lot of reading to do for this class, and she asked on Tuesday if anyone had done the reading assigned. I raised my hand, but she completely ignored me... so I let it pass. I had pushed all of Monday - about two hours all told - to finish the reading due Tuesday (and - according to the syllabus, Thursday as well) - and apparently I was the only one in the class who did so. And she ignored the fact that I did and just said, "Okay, so no one did the readings..." And then on Thursday - which, according to the syllabus, we were supposed to be continuing on in chapter 4 - she asked again, and again I raised my hand, and again she ignored me. And it turned out that we were supposed to have chapter 5 read by yesterday as well, although the syllabus says nothing of the sort. And chapter 6 is due on Tuesday, since we have a speaker coming in to talk about lactation (which is what the chapter covers)... and we have an exam on Thursday, some of the stuff on which is stuff that she - the professor!!!! - had to look up. She's not giving us a study guide, since it's a 3000 (junior) level course... we "shouldn't need to be babied" like that. Shyte. Shyte shyte shyte.
And, to make matters worse, she talked about EDs. She had one 20 years ago and was talking about what she did, how she looked, etc., etc. It was triggering! and I didn't know what to do because I couldn't very well tell her to shut up or anything... and I couldn't leave the class... and it is really quite hard not to listen to her - or anyone - talk about something that is relevant to my own life. I just didn't know that I was so easily triggered...
Then I ended up leaving my sweatshirt in that classroom and didn't have time to go back and get it since I had my last class right after that and had to whiz to it... so I left it there. My last class, psych assessment, was (and is) horribly boring, and I feel like a kindergartener in it because she gives us candy if we do well, makes us do group work, etc., etc.
So, all told, I came home and hid in my room and cried for a little while, until Jarrod came downstairs to comfort me. Thankfully he was there and listened... thank God for him!! He is such a blessing.
And on top of those two chapters and the exam coming up for Lifecycle, I also have an abstract assignment that I need to get working on (for LN also), a paper due for M&S, a group project to work on for NC&E... and I have to change my tutoring hours because I overlap with other tutors, and my supervisor got an email that I need to go see her about... and I can't help but think that it's bad news.
This is too much. It really is. I just want to give up, drop out, do something to get away from all of my classes. This is driving me crazy. Oh!! and because no one except me is doing the reading for LN, she is going to have pop quizzes from now on. JUST WHAT I NEED.
I am so upset!!!! Help, someone, please, get me out of here!
Yesterday was an awful day.
It started out with me waking up cranky... and finding out that my new hamster was dead. I thought she was the day before but it turns out that she was for sure yesterday. I don't know what killed her, because it certainly wasn't old age... same symptoms as my last (older) hamster, who just died a few weeks ago. So I'm guessing a bacterial infection? and that I suck because I didn't Clorox the cage.
Then I had an quiz/exam in my first class (I think I did okay on it, but it was still uber stressful). A break in which I ate lunch (10:30ish) then my favorite class, Medicine & Society. I actively participated in the discussion, enjoyed taking notes, and since I sit with two friends and we always have fun, we had fun (hehe). So that was good.
Then on to my next class, Lifecycle Nutrition. The professor for this course is new - her first time teaching - she's only got a Master's degree. There is a lot of reading to do for this class, and she asked on Tuesday if anyone had done the reading assigned. I raised my hand, but she completely ignored me... so I let it pass. I had pushed all of Monday - about two hours all told - to finish the reading due Tuesday (and - according to the syllabus, Thursday as well) - and apparently I was the only one in the class who did so. And she ignored the fact that I did and just said, "Okay, so no one did the readings..." And then on Thursday - which, according to the syllabus, we were supposed to be continuing on in chapter 4 - she asked again, and again I raised my hand, and again she ignored me. And it turned out that we were supposed to have chapter 5 read by yesterday as well, although the syllabus says nothing of the sort. And chapter 6 is due on Tuesday, since we have a speaker coming in to talk about lactation (which is what the chapter covers)... and we have an exam on Thursday, some of the stuff on which is stuff that she - the professor!!!! - had to look up. She's not giving us a study guide, since it's a 3000 (junior) level course... we "shouldn't need to be babied" like that. Shyte. Shyte shyte shyte.
And, to make matters worse, she talked about EDs. She had one 20 years ago and was talking about what she did, how she looked, etc., etc. It was triggering! and I didn't know what to do because I couldn't very well tell her to shut up or anything... and I couldn't leave the class... and it is really quite hard not to listen to her - or anyone - talk about something that is relevant to my own life. I just didn't know that I was so easily triggered...
Then I ended up leaving my sweatshirt in that classroom and didn't have time to go back and get it since I had my last class right after that and had to whiz to it... so I left it there. My last class, psych assessment, was (and is) horribly boring, and I feel like a kindergartener in it because she gives us candy if we do well, makes us do group work, etc., etc.
So, all told, I came home and hid in my room and cried for a little while, until Jarrod came downstairs to comfort me. Thankfully he was there and listened... thank God for him!! He is such a blessing.
And on top of those two chapters and the exam coming up for Lifecycle, I also have an abstract assignment that I need to get working on (for LN also), a paper due for M&S, a group project to work on for NC&E... and I have to change my tutoring hours because I overlap with other tutors, and my supervisor got an email that I need to go see her about... and I can't help but think that it's bad news.
This is too much. It really is. I just want to give up, drop out, do something to get away from all of my classes. This is driving me crazy. Oh!! and because no one except me is doing the reading for LN, she is going to have pop quizzes from now on. JUST WHAT I NEED.
I am so upset!!!! Help, someone, please, get me out of here!
