I'm not too sure about the new blogs right now. I liked having 3 years of thoughts in one place and I don't have that kind of time to re-add them.
However, I am looking at this as a positive change. It's all about perspectives. I added one blog from the original Manifest Destiny for a reason. It's where my heart is right now.
I'm on a train bound for healing right now. I don't know how fast the train is and I don't know when I'll get there. But I have to believe I'll get there.
I finally found freedom though. I'm no longer physically trapped in the lies of yesterday. However, I still have a lot of cognitive distortions. I'm stuck in the should've, could've, would've stage. I knew better but I foolishly thought I could be patient enough or love him enough. Yet it wasn't up to me. He never wanted to change. I was truly never loved by him. It was always the image. I want more then that. I need more then that.
24 hours ago things dramatically changed. I said goodbye to J. I love him but he's not ready and although he doesn't get it yet I think one day he will. I can't be stuck in that cycle right now. I need commitment from a man if I'm going to be involved with a man.
All I hope is that this blog has more blessings and happy posts then the previous one.
However, I am looking at this as a positive change. It's all about perspectives. I added one blog from the original Manifest Destiny for a reason. It's where my heart is right now.
I'm on a train bound for healing right now. I don't know how fast the train is and I don't know when I'll get there. But I have to believe I'll get there.
I finally found freedom though. I'm no longer physically trapped in the lies of yesterday. However, I still have a lot of cognitive distortions. I'm stuck in the should've, could've, would've stage. I knew better but I foolishly thought I could be patient enough or love him enough. Yet it wasn't up to me. He never wanted to change. I was truly never loved by him. It was always the image. I want more then that. I need more then that.
24 hours ago things dramatically changed. I said goodbye to J. I love him but he's not ready and although he doesn't get it yet I think one day he will. I can't be stuck in that cycle right now. I need commitment from a man if I'm going to be involved with a man.
All I hope is that this blog has more blessings and happy posts then the previous one.
