What a wonderful testimony Pete! I am so glad that you seeked the Lord! He is so there for you and your wife. I recommended a book on another thread called "safe in the arms of God" by John MacAurthur. I don't agree with all of his doctrine however his scriptures that are give are wondful and it is packed with meat that we need! Blessings to you. I hope you get this book, it might even change your wifes mind.pete56 said:It seems to me, looking back, that it was me that was lost and then God came in and found me.
But I am getting ahead of myself. My son, our second child, was born with a very serious heart condition that was not diagnosed before he was born, in March 1988. He died two days later and both my wife and me were devastated by the loss.
It seemed at the time (I was not a Christian) that life was not worth living and there was nowhere to turn for help. I turned to drink! It didn't help. Then one evening about a year later as I contemplated what was left of my life and my marriage and family, I felt a pressence. It was as if I was in a deep dark pit and someone had lifted off the roof and let in some light. I felt this pressence surround me and giving me hope.
That night I didn't need a drink to sleep, and I started to look for ways to help those around me.
That weekend (isn't God great?) a couple of local Christians knocked on our door and invited us to attend the local church. I thought "Okay, I can ask them why we had to lose our son?" So I went (Sue my wife didn't, and still doesn't, feel the need, but I keep praying), and I heard a sermon on the importance of the Bible. Not exactly what I thought I was looking for! But just before I tuned out the vicar said something like this:
"Many people say to me that the Bible is irrelevant and contradicts itself!
I always reply Well have you actually read it?"
That got my attention - I have always prided myself in reading the instructions before trying to start something. And here was God saying Well read the book!
Well to cut it short, I did read the book (well parts of it) and I discovered that the presence that lifted me out of that pit was the Holy Spirit, and that I was not the only one who had given his son - God had been there before me, and He knew how I felt.
I still don't have an answer as to why, but I don't feel "lost" any more.
This was not the end of my grief but it was the beginning of a new life.
Many other things have affected and afflicted me since that spring in 1989, the birth of our second daughter (third child) in 1990, the death of my parents in 1998, the near break up of our marriage in 2000. But through it all God has walked by my side and held me in the dark times. I am far from a perfect child of God but I thank Him that He is a perfect Father!
Yours in Him
Pete
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