Woke up and cannot fall back asleep. Hopefully soon I will! Thanks everyone for the support. It is hard to be open about it because I just worry about like people thinking I am weak but hiding it doesn't help either. And I feel like I am some bad person to have a bad day.
But yesterday was a pretty good day for the most part. And counseling is helping but it is hard I mean, to break habits and patterns of thinking how I do about myself at times, after years of doing so. It's like I do so good and then I don't but my pastor says that it doesn't just happen over night.
I will beat myself up if I don't go to church one Sunday or something I mean, badly or if I do not like read the Bible much at times.
Anyways I am rambling here, I am sorry.
But yesterday was a pretty good day for the most part. And counseling is helping but it is hard I mean, to break habits and patterns of thinking how I do about myself at times, after years of doing so. It's like I do so good and then I don't but my pastor says that it doesn't just happen over night.
I will beat myself up if I don't go to church one Sunday or something I mean, badly or if I do not like read the Bible much at times.
Anyways I am rambling here, I am sorry.
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