Post here when you feel like cutting (2)

[Criada]

I have a strong desire to right now.

Sorry, only just saw this. Are you ok?
Praying for you.

 

[Criada]

I wish this MONSTER urge would GO AWAY. I tried writing it down, and still freaked out The worst part is it has been three years TODAY since I messed up.

Praying for you, sweetie
Three years is awesome - you can get through this - hang in there and try to stay around people

 

[BeatrixRose]

Part of me is revelling in this feeling; <edit> But then feeling like that makes me sad. And when I'm sad at myself I get angry at myself. And hate. And the self-hate causes me to cut.

So the cycle continues. The instant something makes me feel bad it's impossible to leave.

I hope we all manage to break the cycle one day. I will be praying for all of you. Don't want time praying for me - please focus on yourselves <3 Because you're all beautiful.

 

[Criada]

I can relate to that feeling
Praying that you can break the cycle sweetie
And yes, you are worth praying for - you are very precious

 

[Going Merry]

Saw a picture and although I haven't harmed my self in months or thought about it. All those old feelings came rushing back to me when I saw it. I am really disappointed.

 

[Criada]

Saw a picture and although I haven't harmed my self in months or thought about it. All those old feelings came rushing back to me when I saw it. I am really disappointed.

I'm sorry you were triggered that way. I think in some circumstances those feelings will always come back - but the important thing is what we do with them. If you had those feelings again and made it through, that's an achievement sweetie - because now you know that even if you feel that way you don't have to act on it.
Praying for you

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

Saw a picture and although I haven't harmed my self in months or thought about it. All those old feelings came rushing back to me when I saw it. I am really disappointed.

That happens sometimes, but you took the victory and didn't act on it. Give yourself some kudos and take pride in the fact you overcame the thoughts.

 

[somescarsneverheal]

I havent gave in in almost a year but this time last year something happend to me and the memories are causing me to struggle

 

[Criada]

I havent gave in in almost a year but this time last year something happend to me and the memories are causing me to struggle

Praying for you, sweetie - you can get through
And well done on a year!! That's awesome.

 

[Criada]

nm

 

[Ninja Cat]

feeling like i need to

 

[chaoticfirefly]

It's so tempting right now, with the way things are going but I keep telling myself it's not worth shedding skin over and that I did more good than mistakes recently. But it calls all the same. I'm just glad I've been staying over at mom and dads, where I didn't have access to the razors.

 

[SerialSinner1984]

feel like cutting myself

 

[LittleH]

I'm feeling so triggered right now and that this is my only option.

 

[Darling Deedee]

So overwhelmed. School, work, assignments. Just exhausted. Class was so triggering - a whole three hours on domestic violence. I couldn't concentrate. I haven't cut in years but I want to tonight. My strength is failing.

 

[JohnLocke]

I'm so drugged up, prescriptions even, but it's all so dull at best. I don't dream anymore. I don't even get angry anymore. I'm just there. Sometimes I remember to eat, usually I don't. I've lost my friends ages ago. Amazing how quickly people desert you when you go in hospital.

I was a good friend<staff edit>. I always listened to their<staff edit>. I held them while they cried, held their hair when they puked, drove them home from the places they knew they should never have gone. All these things I did, never asking for a <staff edit> thing in return. But now. Now I'm out and try to rebuild my life and not a <staff edit> one will speak to me.

What's the point? I am the one to be abused

 

[graciesings]

I feel awful. I found a trigger last night and it affected me more than I expected.

I don't want to fall back to cuttting but resisting an urge this strong is just exhausting.

I will do it after I get my room clean. We'll see which wins, my hate for cleaning or my urge to cut.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

You're doing the right thing by fighting it. I pray that cleaning wins.

 

[graciesings]

I lost. My room is a wreck<staff edit>.

 

[pillywiggin]

Trying really hard not to cut...Praying, pacing, I would go out walking, but my ankle isn't healed enough yet...It has been months, and I don't want to blow it now. I can't hate myself this much, because Jesus loves me...Just praying and trying to distract myself so I don't cut. Or eat...