Thanks for your time and response, insightful... How does one know if their a "true mystic"? My voices also accompanied signs and wonders, see this thread: and maybe you can tell me whether I'm a "true mystic" or not please?
http://www.christianforums.com/thre...periencing-part-of-a-pm-conversation.7843548/
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So as near as I can tell, you are a full blown mystic.
Let me define my use of the term.
Mystic to me means, all the bad guys and all the good guys can talk to you.
The bad guys are Slamming you, Yet God is there also.
Your life is a mix of bad and evil, which you are experiencing on a supernatural level and you are also exceedingly sane.
You are vastly hated and feared by the bad guys. God though has not let you be defeated, and also God has not yet appeared to you, but rather He, and an angel in one of your encounters, have taken care of you, but you are also allowed to battle demons, similar to Padre Pio, and a friend of mine.
"One day, a secret mystic sits across from me. Good Mystics are always a comfort.
The battle raged last night. I refused to listen. God had me lied to. I was not what I was to Him. For seven years, God allowed me to be lied to.
I will never listen to God nor feelings nor voices ever again. Just like in second, 2Kings, I had been lied to like those false prophets.
The night before, I had called up a perfect mystic of God. I was double checking on my message from God about someone else. The perfect mystic told me that I was wrong. God had given him an opposite answer than mine.
Religiously, this man was more perfect than I was. I then knew that God did not actually lie, but had me lied to and for seven years.
Somehow listening to no one ever again, I made it to my required doctor visit. I was in a full and long series of Psychiatric visits, to clear me, or convict me of mental illness on another issue, but I was getting a full Psychiatric exam to cover my entire life.
I fully expected them to arrest me and lock me up the first few weeks.
I will tell about the secret mystic later.
This day, totally destroyed but realizing God has the right to punish me, somehow I made it to the Ph.D.'s office.
Finally she opens the door, she is all a Twitter. She wants to tell me something. I am so upset over what happened, that I had to talk first, just to calm myself.
Finally calm enough, I tell her: "Okay. What did you want to tell me?"
"Last week when you left my office, my next patient comes in. She tells me how that each week when she comes into the office there is a certain healing energy. This week though, she said it is off the charts. I told her that is because I have a very special *** who was here before you. She tells me, whenever ** has an appointment I want the next one. Isn't it great,she says, that you are getting confirmations on who you are.
I then said: I have been lied to! A false mystic lied to me. "Don't you know how to tell?" No, I told her I do not.
I was not lied to like those false prophets in 2 Kings, rather I was lied to by a false mystic.
I then realized, that war that took place last night then, involved me. I was being defended.
Yes I started listening again to God, and there is more....."
I have for years felt a presence. That presence is always on my right hand side. When that presence is with me, people react differently towards me, but not to me, it is the presence they react to.
"I asked that secret mystic of God one day, do you sense anything when I come into the room. She says yes, and briefly I saw what she saw, and I felt horrible. I was never supposed to know anything about what or who that was, but she slipped and I saw what she saw. It was white with gold. White center, gold on the edges, all energy of course, all aura probably, if I ever knew what auras are, and I do not.
That was my first clue, that the woman before me was a mystic of God. I only see what other Mystics of God see. "
Seeing and feeling what other Mystics of God see, is a result of having The Virgin Mary give me a gift one day, but it took many days for me to get all parts of that gift.
"Well years and years after, that presence was felt, and even more years after people opened doors for me when the presence was with me, or ignored me as though I did not exist when that presence was not with me, one day, years again later, after I saw what I was never supposed to see, White with Gold on the outside edges was with me. I did not notice for some reason.
Earlier, months earlier in a series of day time visions, I am being asked to do something by God. I see Jesus, Mary with Him, this woman before me, God The Fathers emotions for this woman, The Holy Spirit Covering all of us and a door opening made of stone and with some damage.
I did not want to do this again. I did though. I guessed what it would take to repair that damage. I then did that. Instantly the next time, I saw more and clearer what that damage was. The door way by the way is an entrance to heaven. She leads others to God.
Part of it would not repair and it is now, but she had to do something, and I was not going to be released from that assignment until I did that..... The day came to finish my part, and I was exceedingly sick, so I did not think I could make my 5:00 PM scheduled meeting with her at the Roman Catholic Church near her work. So, I called and cancelled.
Yes, just before 5:00 PM, I started to get better rapidly, made my appointment and called her to see if she was still available. She was not, and I knew I had just failed a faith test, maybe.
One day later, it will take me three and a half hours just to be able to talk to her again.
Even though, I can block feelings from everyone, I asked her for an intimacy that I give and have with many people, I gave her then a motherly type of contact. THE LOVE OF JESUS CAME OUT OF HER.
I was so stunned I could not say anything. First off I was giving not receiving... However what came out of her was THE LOVE OF JESUS and no part of her what so ever. The strength was overpowering and I could not talk for a good twenty minutes. More later on this, maybe...
After, I finished my work with her for God, introducing her to what God wanted her to know, and in her case what The Virgin Mary wanted her to know and do, I was totally done with this girl forever I thought.
That day, when I am not startled or thinking and White with Gold is with me it came. It is there and I think nothing of it, even though never before have I had White with Gold near me before.
As the day progresses, I am sitting with two of my favorite girl friends, one of them is the one with so much LOVE OF JESUS IN HER. I watch, White with Gold leaves my side and enters her, It is Jesus. Jesus entered her. My side was cold where White with Gold was. It bothered me. He had been with me all morning, and I was used to His warmth. My arm was cold enough that eventually I spoke about what I was seeing and what you may be experiencing.
"Jesus left me. He entered you. He eventually came out. He is on your right side now touching you shoulder to shoulder. Mary is on your left side. Never have I seen them this close to you before....." "
By then everyone was used to me, the crazy person, or the true mystic and just listened and waited till I got over another day time vision with her, but outing to me finally what that presence was for all those years.
It is Jesus, the Son of God. Doors were opened for Him. He was that healing energy. He is and was White with Gold, but. But, in His Full Essence, rather than personably, and when acting as God, He is pure White, with a royal blue strip on His left side, exactly the same as God The Father and God The Holy Spirit, plus in that mode, no room lights, no sunlight can be seen, no people can be seen, even though all of them are present, as They are All That Bright. Much Much Much More, and then some, than even the sun, when it shines on us.
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LOVE,