I fear failure more than anything. I fear failure so much that sometimes I don't even try. It is something that I have to face on a regular basis. As well as abondenment. I fear rejection to the point that sometimes I let other people control me. I don't say what I like or dislike in case a person will leave me. I know this contradicts everything I believe and everything that I teach my students. Sometimes I feel like I am lecturing myself in class not them! lol. I am learning to change but it is taking a long time to do so. Everyday I try to trust God more and me less so that if there is a negative consequence to who I am and what I say I can deal with it properly. Knowing God loves me regardless of what others think is something I am striving towards.
Blessings
