Well, I don't really know why I am posting this. I guess just to get it off my chest in a way. I have been a Christian for 4 years or so now. I am 20 years old. The more I look around, the more I realize that there is something wrong. A lot of stuff in my life is just too messed up, and everything I see is violence, rage, disease, death, destruction, and hatred. I see this world falling apart, and I saw something the other night that put the icing on the cake. A baby, deformed so bad, you couldn't even begin to imagine. Absolutely horrible. Why? No answer. Same old garbage. I know you hear this all the time, but honestly, if God is ALL POWERFUL, he would stop it. Think about it. I don't want to hear the whole "it's Satan's fault" line. God gave Satan power, and he doesn't/can't stop Satan's evil? The fact alone that he allows this, is enough for me. I will not try anymore, I want nothing to do with Christianity. I am tired of trying to live a clean life. I am tired of trying not to sin, when all I see is nothing. I don't want to live this way anymore. I don't even know if God is there, the Bible is FULL of contradictions anyway and everyone has a different god or way that is the only true god/way. I'll take my chances. It's entirely possible that he just doesn't exist...which seems to be more plausible. However, if he does exist, I would rather go to Hell, then follow his way. Tell me how I should be so afraid, tell me how I don't know what I am getting/have gotten myself into. I have heard it all before, I assure you. I am NOT afraid, and this decision is my own. God continues to allow this all to happen, and good people suffer and die, while rapists and pedophiles walk the streets. No thanks. I have officially given up on God. He gave up on this world long ago. If he was ever there in the first place. Well, there you have it. It's off my chest. Thanks for reading this.
Tom
I am roughly your age, and like yourself, I have found out that the world is a rough place. Something happened to me the other night, though.
For awhile, I had been backsliding in my walk with Christ. I stopped acting like a Christian and conformed to how the world around me wanted me to act. In the end, I found myself alone and very depressed. Periodically throughout my life, I have felt great depression. Recently, the rage I had felt against myself had multiplied. One night I started stabbing myself with my pencil, and the other night I tried to staple my arm. I would take my computer mouse and rap it around my neck to see how it felt. Once, when I was younger, I opened the lid to my lava lamp and contemplated drinking it.
Why did I have so many problems? I had suffered greatly at school when I was 12 or 14 or so.(I was baptized when I was ~16)..--I was mocked(people called me gay which I am not), they towel whipped me, and called me ugly. Ontop of that, I talked to no one outside of school(for the most part) and was an only child. I was very upset at this time because I endured so much, and was a very angry young man. The reason I acted this way was that I had been living for worldy possesions and through the world's ideals.
Anyway, the other night I laid in my bedroom dorm very depressed. Finally, I asked God to heal me of this demon(depression I had felt recently), and instantly I felt no depression. I casted my worries upon God.
Now, why should you confess Jesus as the savior of mankind? It is important to realize that this world is inheritly unfair; it is impossible for everyone to have every lust they desire. It is nearly impossible in this world for everyone to have enough to be content with; what are the odds of a blind, deaf man becoming king? What are the odds of me becoming a supermoder?(low!)
This world is so short, Jesus said that we are something that appears for a short time and then vanishes. Jesus also said that our treasures on earth will ultimately be destroyed. In the end, when I stand infront of God, it will not matter if I was rich or if I was a supermodel.
In God, however, all men are judged based on their works. I urge you to read the book of Matthew so you can see the eternal blessings and miracles promised by and done by Jesus.
The book of Hebrews can be a spiritually reviving read for any Christian who needs a reason behind life.
Remember, Jesus said that everything you gain in this world will be lost with this world. Instead, through our works and obedience to Jesus, we can build treasure for ourselves in heaven. Our time on earth is truly short, and our eternity is more important than earthly lusts we will seek after.
Jesus said that those who are last in earth are first in heaven, and many people suffer greatly here on earth. This world is imperfect and injust; it is best to put your faith in God who is absolutely true and will bless those who suffer.
God had two options. He could stop the suffering, or He could share in our suffering out of love for us and then stop it. 
