(Yes, as always, I'm rambling.)
So apparently when you put someone on ignore, it takes any time they repped you off your list? That makes me feel a lot better... it was one of the things I was going to ask about... someone.. someone had repped me very unkindly, I thought.. In fact, had done so to tell me I was rude.. and I wanted to know how to get it to go away.. and, if that couldn't be done, to beg to repped until it got bumped off the page. Nice that's included in ignoring someone. Sorry I felt I had to, but nice that it's included.
This week.. two and a half days, I guess.. I had more trouble. The trouble I had at the start of last month never went away.. I'm just living with it.. but, hey, for a while this week, additional trouble came. Lovely. But hey, at least it got better.. but better to this. I don't like that this is "better" now. Sigh.
Anyway.. so again, I couldn't remember hardly anything.. and I was freaking out. (Seems this last time, I wasted no time in freaking out.) I posted a thread.. but not here as I guess I didn't have a tab open here and hadn't read the explanatory note yet. No, I posted it in the women's forum and if you happen to be of the female persuation (or, at least, icon), you can check it out if you want. Now, understandably, most that responded didn't have a clue what was going on.. and, equally understandably.. neither did I, not outside of what I was told (and at that point, I hadn't been told much.) So after the thank yous and things like that, this leaves me responding to things that I feel deserve particular response.. explaining, clarifying, and asking for some of those, too.. If something doesn't make sense to me, I do tend to ask questions. Of course, I broke up long things into bites I could deal with. All this, I feel, is part of me doing the best I can. I thought I offended someone.. but apparently she thought she offended me. I still don't know what happened, but apparently neither one of us is or was offended, so that's ok, I guess. That would have been all there was to it.. but that someone else, someone who didn't even post, decided to send me a rep telling me I was rude. There I was, going on about all I was really sure of was my name, doing the absolute best I could and trying to keep it together.. when someone goes out of her way to tell me I'm rude. I.. I recently PMed this person to try resolve this or at least get an understanding.. and as far as I can tell, that has been denied me. I mean.. my questions have gone unanswered. As far as I can tell, I just that I was rude and that's all there is to it... Which leaves me profoundly confused. I mean.. I just don't understand... Why would someone tell me that, especially when I was in such a state? How can there be no further explanation? (and if there can't, why say it at all?) I really, truly, don't understand.. and the person in question wasn't willing to help me understand, apparently.. so I guess I come here because I know I've been most open here.. and I don't have any other unkind rep messages that I see.
I... I don't see what telling someone they're rude does but hurt them.. and.. why would someone want to hurt anyone having such trouble. I mean.. I'd think that if someone says, "The only thing I'm sure I know is my name.. I feel so lost", you might be inclined to have compassion and give them the benefit of any doubt unless you had very good reason otherwise. I know I don't have the best social understanding but even besides that, would you really expect someone having severe memory trouble to have the best understanding? I.. I just don't get it. Possible explanations, anyone?
And then I'm wondering.. do I belong? This does seem to be sticking.. and I don't seem to be religious (anymore). Once I figure out what to change my icon to.. it'd be really interesting the next time I said something about having trouble outside of this forum, I think.. I wouldn't doubt there'd be people who'd suggest it was God's judgment upon me or impell me to come back to God, stuff like that. That'd be rich..
But yeah, I don't feel like I fit. Here's nice, sure.. but I can't comment on most of the topics.. and elsewhere here.. my lack of faith would be a reason to see me with distrust, I know that. And, oh yeah, apparently I'm rude.
I don't know where else to go. (Contact me if you have any suggestions.. seriously. Even if I stay here, that could be good.. and at least could prevent this from coming up in the future.) I... I need an online community in order to remain anything reasonably close to sane (being in absence of a physical one that covers the need.)
Sigh. I hope I didn't do anything wrong. I'm getting sick of being afraid to post.
So apparently when you put someone on ignore, it takes any time they repped you off your list? That makes me feel a lot better... it was one of the things I was going to ask about... someone.. someone had repped me very unkindly, I thought.. In fact, had done so to tell me I was rude.. and I wanted to know how to get it to go away.. and, if that couldn't be done, to beg to repped until it got bumped off the page. Nice that's included in ignoring someone. Sorry I felt I had to, but nice that it's included.
This week.. two and a half days, I guess.. I had more trouble. The trouble I had at the start of last month never went away.. I'm just living with it.. but, hey, for a while this week, additional trouble came. Lovely. But hey, at least it got better.. but better to this. I don't like that this is "better" now. Sigh.
Anyway.. so again, I couldn't remember hardly anything.. and I was freaking out. (Seems this last time, I wasted no time in freaking out.) I posted a thread.. but not here as I guess I didn't have a tab open here and hadn't read the explanatory note yet. No, I posted it in the women's forum and if you happen to be of the female persuation (or, at least, icon), you can check it out if you want. Now, understandably, most that responded didn't have a clue what was going on.. and, equally understandably.. neither did I, not outside of what I was told (and at that point, I hadn't been told much.) So after the thank yous and things like that, this leaves me responding to things that I feel deserve particular response.. explaining, clarifying, and asking for some of those, too.. If something doesn't make sense to me, I do tend to ask questions. Of course, I broke up long things into bites I could deal with. All this, I feel, is part of me doing the best I can. I thought I offended someone.. but apparently she thought she offended me. I still don't know what happened, but apparently neither one of us is or was offended, so that's ok, I guess. That would have been all there was to it.. but that someone else, someone who didn't even post, decided to send me a rep telling me I was rude. There I was, going on about all I was really sure of was my name, doing the absolute best I could and trying to keep it together.. when someone goes out of her way to tell me I'm rude. I.. I recently PMed this person to try resolve this or at least get an understanding.. and as far as I can tell, that has been denied me. I mean.. my questions have gone unanswered. As far as I can tell, I just that I was rude and that's all there is to it... Which leaves me profoundly confused. I mean.. I just don't understand... Why would someone tell me that, especially when I was in such a state? How can there be no further explanation? (and if there can't, why say it at all?) I really, truly, don't understand.. and the person in question wasn't willing to help me understand, apparently.. so I guess I come here because I know I've been most open here.. and I don't have any other unkind rep messages that I see.
I... I don't see what telling someone they're rude does but hurt them.. and.. why would someone want to hurt anyone having such trouble. I mean.. I'd think that if someone says, "The only thing I'm sure I know is my name.. I feel so lost", you might be inclined to have compassion and give them the benefit of any doubt unless you had very good reason otherwise. I know I don't have the best social understanding but even besides that, would you really expect someone having severe memory trouble to have the best understanding? I.. I just don't get it. Possible explanations, anyone?
And then I'm wondering.. do I belong? This does seem to be sticking.. and I don't seem to be religious (anymore). Once I figure out what to change my icon to.. it'd be really interesting the next time I said something about having trouble outside of this forum, I think.. I wouldn't doubt there'd be people who'd suggest it was God's judgment upon me or impell me to come back to God, stuff like that. That'd be rich..
But yeah, I don't feel like I fit. Here's nice, sure.. but I can't comment on most of the topics.. and elsewhere here.. my lack of faith would be a reason to see me with distrust, I know that. And, oh yeah, apparently I'm rude.
I don't know where else to go. (Contact me if you have any suggestions.. seriously. Even if I stay here, that could be good.. and at least could prevent this from coming up in the future.) I... I need an online community in order to remain anything reasonably close to sane (being in absence of a physical one that covers the need.)
Sigh. I hope I didn't do anything wrong. I'm getting sick of being afraid to post.