love has always been a misunderstood, foreign concept to me. my parents love me. my mum shows love all the time but honestly, i can't figure out why or how she can. i am a product of a young, mistake of a marriage and look and act like my father. i can't comprehend how she loves me but i know she does.
as for Christian love i love some of my fellow church pals and would do anything i could to help them.
i have a love and concern for my non-christian friends but don't feel confident to push the envelope, so to speak. it's frustrating because i know 'losing' a unequally yoked friendship would not necessarily be a BAD thing but i really have no other friends. on one hand, i want to be left alone and on the other, i know i probably need social interaction (outside of work) once in awhile. i work alot though and don't feel i have the time or the energy and i certainly don't have the money.
i don't really 'live.' i just exist. i don't really want to die or anything but i don't really see a point in my life either. sounds kinda depressing. i'm not wording my thoughts correctly. :-(
Hi there,
Yes there is a difference between existing and living.
You exist because God created you, it's irrelevant if your parent's marriage worked out or not. Your mum loves you because really that's what most mums do. I love my son, I never did marry his father, but I still love my son to bits, he has made some mistakes through his life, just as many of us do, I still love him. Just try and accept your mum's love without questioning it. It's a beautiful thing.
I don't think wanting to be alone is a sin. But I believe the reasons and the thoughts behind why you want to be alone could be the sin.
What is sin? don't forget it is anything that is against God and does not agree with God's Word. Hate, bitterness, resentment, ....not good, doesn't come from God.
Do you understand God's love for you? Have you grasped the whole reason why Jesus died on the cross for you? Jesus came to save us all from our sin and so we can know God, and have eternal life with Him and have a worthwhile life on earth serving God. He wants us to live abundantly John 10:10. I think as we really learn and know how much God loves us individually, that includes you Hoosiercanuck, dispite all our flaws then that love will permeate out into our lives. His Spirit will guide us and show us how to love.
Now I understand what you are saying about the whole evil thing, yeh it is really bad out there, and it's ugly stuff, people do some wicked things, don't forget we all have a sinful nature, that is just the world we live in and it is going to get worse.
But it doesn't mean we are to isolate ourselves and live as hermits, just waiting for the end of the world to come.
God has a plan for each and everyone of our lives. God has a purpose and a plan for you Hoosier.
Jeremiah 29:11
You do sound a little down and depressed, but nothing serious right? I kinda have been there myself, I assure you things can look up and be brighter. If we just start off by trusting God with our lives, trust in Jesus Christ to be our saviour, and we seek Him with our hearts and minds, slowly God's plan for us will emerge, God will reveal things to us and our lives will have more meaning.
Jesus took time alone, to replenish His spirit. I think it is ok to be a person who likes being alone sometimes. I like being alone, but I understand that it's not what God wants for me all the time.
For us to mature spiritually and develop a Godly character, we have to be willing to step out of our comfort zones.
And by the way for us to interact with others doesn't have to cost us a penny. We can invite someone over to our home, we can agree to meet at the park, we can chat on the 'phone.
So anyway, I am going to pray for you, and hope that you begin to see your life as a wonderful gift that God has bestowed upon you.
Love in Christ
1newcreation