I know this is my third post on this topic, but i am really struggling with doubts. I have even began to question myself if I was an atheist which is something I do not want to be. Why can't I just believe. People make it sound so easy. For me it has not been that easy. What is wrong with me.I have come to the point where I try to avoid thinking about my doubts or about the Crucifixion and resurrection. Please help. I'm about to the point of tears or just giving up or something.
Modern people are confused by their education and the day to day plague of the so called science. They demand everything to be evidenced for them to believe. They try equate everything as some sort of science. This is however not what this reality is.
To start breaking this confusion, you need to first know the nature of what history is. The exclusive way for humans to get to know history is for someone (a witness) to write it down, then for others to read with faith. You can anytime reject any parts of any written history, especially those written 2000 years ago. This is so because history by nature demands faith to believe.
This process is called human witnessing. Human witnessing demands faith to believe, however it's the only way for humans to record historical events and figures. Nowadays we have video and photos to enhance our witnessing but not in ancient times.
If you are comparing any history book older than 2000 years with the Bible, the Bible is in a more accurate form. If you apply the same criticisms to the Bible to other history books, you will see that the same reason you choose to reject the Bible will invalidate 99% human history at the same time.
The believability of history over the Bible doesn't come in the way how they are recorded, as the same methodology (i.e., human witnessing) is employed. The difference lies in the supernatural encounters described. They are less believable because we cannot speculate what is said directly. It's less believable by no means says that they are not true.
To put it another way, even when those supernatural encounters are true, the only way for such a truth to be conveyed among humans is through human witnessing. That is, even when they are true, the only way to record such a truth is to assign some humans to write them down for later humans to read and believe with faith.
An analogy is that, flat earth is actually more believable to ancient humans, such as those in stone age, than a round earth suspended on nothing. The existence of black holes will be myth to those living in stone age. It however by no means says that the round earth and black holes are not truths. They are less believable to humans in stone age because humans in stone age cannot speculate what today's science can confirm.
Spiritual truths relative to today's humans could well be scientific truths relative to humans in stone age.