I'm in a very dark place

[Yeshua HaDerekh]

My thanks to Gurney and Yeshua!
Like I said, "I have nothing better to do."
Being eternally the foreigner is hard. Even when most people are kind and decent to you.

Where are you in Russia? Go to a Church when no one is there. Light a candle and stay quiet as long as you "need" to...you WILL feel it!

 

[Yeshua HaDerekh]

I've had a bad day and I'm now at the stage of asking of asking why I'm here .

I don't want to be, but I know I've no option but to be here.

Please pray for me till I emerge from this again

And Anhelyna, just always remember...if you were the ONLY person on Earth...Yeshua would still have died FOR YOU...AND ONLY YOU...that is how important YOU ARE! Remember, you are NEVER alone.

 

[Gxg (G²)]

God is faithful...

 

[Dorothea]

My prayers, Anhelyna. Like others here, I am just coming out of my desert as well. Had it for about a month. Thank God I'm finally out of it, and yes, we all know these times come and go, and we are to learn and grow from them. God be with you.

 

[ArmyMatt]

continued prayers!

 

[MarkRohfrietsch]

I want to thank all of you for your support . This is a tough week for me and it will continue yet for a while .

I've been really touched by the PMs from people who were willing to listen to me if I need to 'talk' - thank you for your understanding.

You have my prayers as well. You have always been kind to me, and everyone else; I pray that our Lord blesses you with an abundance of love, comfort and peace!

 

[rusmeister]

Where are you in Russia? Go to a Church when no one is there. Light a candle and stay quiet as long as you "need" to...you WILL feel it!

With four kids (three at home) and three jobs, I simply don't have that luxury.
Things like going where I want when I want, doing what I feel like doing are too limited to what I have to do to spontaneously run off somewhere on my own.

..Yeshua would still have died FOR YOU...

The name "Yeshua" may indeed be what Jesus was historically called in his own time, but it is neither English usage nor Orthodox practice. That's one of the things that makes you look like a "closet Jew" to other Orthodox. Accepting the conventions of speech of your neighbor (here, speaking with Orthodox English speakers) both makes it easier or them to understand you AND affirms your own attitude towards things. Why don't you just say "Jesus"?

 

[gurneyhalleck1]

I tend to agree. We don't say Adonai, Al Shaddai, Elohim, Yaweah, and a host of other more ethnically-precise terms when having these conversations. Jesus' name in Aramaic isn't really important to me. His name for our English conventional use is sufficient and the norm. I'm content with "Lord," "God" "Most-Holy Trinity" and "Jesus" as well....the conventions of our own language.

The name "Yeshua" may indeed be what Jesus was historically called in his own time, but it is neither English usage nor Orthodox practice. That's one of the things that makes you look like a "closet Jew" to other Orthodox. Accepting the conventions of speech of your neighbor (here, speaking with Orthodox English speakers) both makes it easier or them to understand you AND affirms your own attitude towards things. Why don't you just say "Jesus"?

 

[Yeshua HaDerekh]

With four kids (three at home) and three jobs, I simply don't have that luxury.
Things like going where I want when I want, doing what I feel like doing are too limited to what I have to do to spontaneously run off somewhere on my own.



The name "Yeshua" may indeed be what Jesus was historically called in his own time, but it is neither English usage nor Orthodox practice. That's one of the things that makes you look like a "closet Jew" to other Orthodox. Accepting the conventions of speech of your neighbor (here, speaking with Orthodox English speakers) both makes it easier or them to understand you AND affirms your own attitude towards things. Why don't you just say "Jesus"?

A "closet Jew"...just because I prefer to use His original name? Jews would not even talk about Him, maybe you mean a "Jewish CHRISTIAN"? Would you use that as a derogatory term? I use Jesus sometime and other times I don't. I really never thought about it. Orthodox practice is to call Him in what ever language those ethnic Orthodox choose to call him...in Russian, in Greek, in English...or in Hebrew. I have been in a parish that had Greeks, Ethiopians, Syrians, Russians and English members. Throughout the service, ALL the languages were used and The Lord's Prayer was said one by one by all members in their own language. So stop straining at a gnat while swallowing a camel.

 

[AndrewEOC]

Lord have mercy! I've been in a rut lately as well.

 

[rusmeister]

A "closet Jew"...just because I prefer to use His original name? Jews would not even talk about Him, maybe you mean a "Jewish CHRISTIAN"? Would you use that as a derogatory term? I use Jesus sometime and other times I don't. I really never thought about it. Orthodox practice is to call Him in what ever language those ethnic Orthodox choose to call him...in Russian, in Greek, in English...or in Hebrew. I have been in a parish that had Greeks, Ethiopians, Syrians, Russians and English members. Throughout the service, ALL the languages were used and The Lord's Prayer was said one by one by all members in their own language. So stop straining at a gnat while swallowing a camel.

I don't think that's loving your neighbor, to deliberately communicate in terms apposite to their language. It's like walking into the room and speaking Chinese to everyone. You may be praising God in Chinese, but it does not edify people who don't speak the language. I could talk about Iisus Khristos, which is perfectly good Russian; to be more authentic I would simply type "Иисус Христос". But that would not be terribly considerate of my non-Russian speaking audience, and would both confuse people and distract from anything important I'm trying to say about our Lord.

It is divisive, not uniting, to insist on such usage here, and it requires discernment to recognizing that expressing that is NOT "straining at a gnat", a wholly inappropriate application of our Lord's words.

 

[Anhelyna]

Hmmm - as the OP here

OY Folks

Let's get back on track !

 

[Anhelyna]

OK - having said that [ and I really really do mean it ]

Thanks everyone - things are definitely starting to lift. I've even managed to Skype with my Confessor twice and you have no idea how that has helped .

I just seem to have so many of these Anniversary 'moments' and I have to say they don't get any easier . This one was really bad I'm still very emotional but improving - the black cloud has risen by about 2 feet

 

[Yeshua HaDerekh]

I don't think that's loving your neighbor, to deliberately communicate in terms apposite to their language. It's like walking into the room and speaking Chinese to everyone. You may be praising God in Chinese, but it does not edify people who don't speak the language. I could talk about Iisus Khristos, which is perfectly good Russian; to be more authentic I would simply type "Иисус Христос". But that would not be terribly considerate of my non-Russian speaking audience, and would both confuse people and distract from anything important I'm trying to say about our Lord.

It is divisive, not uniting, to insist on such usage here, and it requires discernment to recognizing that expressing that is NOT "straining at a gnat", a wholly inappropriate application of our Lord's words.

No it isnt, it means exactly what it means. If you didn't know you could ask instead of attacking me and saying I sound like a "closet Jew". You are making a big deal about me using Yeshua when you clearly know who I am talking about rather than the larger issue we are discussing. The closet Jew

 

[Yeshua HaDerekh]

OK - having said that [ and I really really do mean it ]

Thanks everyone - things are definitely starting to lift. I've even managed to Skype with my Confessor twice and you have no idea how that has helped .

I just seem to have so many of these Anniversary 'moments' and I have to say they don't get any easier . This one was really bad I'm still very emotional but improving - the black cloud has risen by about 2 feet

that's great!

 

[Tallguy88]

OK - having said that [ and I really really do mean it ]

Thanks everyone - things are definitely starting to lift. I've even managed to Skype with my Confessor twice and you have no idea how that has helped .

I just seem to have so many of these Anniversary 'moments' and I have to say they don't get any easier . This one was really bad I'm still very emotional but improving - the black cloud has risen by about 2 feet

I'm glad things are getting better!

 

[ArmyMatt]

OK - having said that [ and I really really do mean it ]

Thanks everyone - things are definitely starting to lift. I've even managed to Skype with my Confessor twice and you have no idea how that has helped .

I just seem to have so many of these Anniversary 'moments' and I have to say they don't get any easier . This one was really bad I'm still very emotional but improving - the black cloud has risen by about 2 feet

great to hear! glory to God and continued prayers!

 

[rusmeister]

Continued prayers.
Please pray for me!

 

[S.ilvio]

OK - having said that [ and I really really do mean it ]

Thanks everyone - things are definitely starting to lift. I've even managed to Skype with my Confessor twice and you have no idea how that has helped .

I just seem to have so many of these Anniversary 'moments' and I have to say they don't get any easier . This one was really bad I'm still very emotional but improving - the black cloud has risen by about 2 feet

Delighted to hear it...

 

[Gxg (G²)]

I just seem to have so many of these Anniversary 'moments' and I have to say they don't get any easier . This one was really bad I'm still very emotional but improving - the black cloud has risen by about 2 feet

Don't know if it'd help you...

But I was listening to a song recently from one of my favorite spoken word artists - and it really encouraged me to remember what it means to focus on the excellency of Christ in dark times. Praying it'd bless you, should you listen:

Timothy Brindle - The Excellency of Christ ​