I'm in a very dark place

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I've had a bad day and I'm now at the stage of asking of asking why I'm here .

I don't want to be, but I know I've no option but to be here.

Please pray for me till I emerge from this again
 
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Angela,

My prayers are with you. Life can get so intensely depressing and dark. Everywhere we turn there is ignorance, hatred, atheism, sin, cruelty, and chaos. There are days where they "Thy Kingdom Come!" part of the Our Father is prayed heavier than others! But in the midst of this tough world and all the lows we personally experience, is Christ Jesus, the holy Sacraments, our parishioners, the saints interceding for us, and our friends here online.

Much love to you, sister. Hang in there.

Most Holy Theotokos, the light of our darkened souls,
pray and intercede for our sister, Angela,
as despair attempts to enter her heart. Pray for her
to be courageous in your Son, for grace to outshine her
darkness,
for her guardian angel to protect,
and for hope to win out this day.
Pray that Angela might obtain the favor of
Your Son, and that she be made worthy to magnify
the Holy Name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

The Father is my Hope,
The Son is my Refuge,
The Holy Spirit is my Protector....
All-Holy Trinity Glory to Thee!

May the Most-Holy Trinity bless and radiate,
inebriate Angela's heart, members, and soul
with love

Amen
 
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I've had a bad day and I'm now at the stage of asking of asking why I'm here .

I don't want to be, but I know I've no option but to be here.

Please pray for me till I emerge from this again

This sounds like me. Welcome to the spiritual desert!
Lord, have mercy!
 
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I was thinking the same thing, Rus, only of myself. Today, heck, lately, I've just been so FED UP with the system. The reality is that the only thing left is a pay check. My class this year is so seriously immature, their parents so lacking in serious concern or love for their kids' futures, and I just see the whole thing going downhill. I question my purpose in education on now an hourly instead of daily basis.

I'm frustrated for my own children growing up in this mess. My wife is fed up with the b.s. she's seeing in the hospital already after not quite six months.

Society is going down the poop-shoot, and I'm just sick of watching it happen. I feel like year after year these kids know less and less common sense, all the while they possess less and less ability to be introspective or reflective or glean meaning out of anything. It's a world of self-seeking pleasure-hunting and numbing oneself. Frustrating stuff, man....

This sounds like me. Welcome to the spiritual desert!
Lord, have mercy!
 
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Thanks for all your prayers.

I know this time will pass , it's just a case of hanging on till it does , and that's the part that at present is very very hard.

Yes, it will pass, but it seems like it takes a lifetime before it passes. I went through a depression like this last summer through winter, and I hadn't been in depression that dark since I'd first become Orthodox. My thoughts and prayers are with you. The best thing to do is get those thoughts out of there as fast as possible, but that is very difficult to do. I did find that saying the Jesus prayer sometimes helped to get the thoughts out.
 
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