I'll try an speak in a clear manner. I have obsessive compulsive disorder (a mental disorder which makes people repeat behaviour or actions to relieve anxiety for a brief moment) and I struggle to seperate this behaviour from normal Christian behaviour.
I tend to pray before and after a meal and I try and think of people who are hungry in the world so I don't take for granted what i'm eating. I pray whatever I eat even if it is a piece of fruit or sweet. Is this excessive? I feel anxious if I don't and I don't want to fall into the trap of taking food for granted.
Another point is I pray everyday to say thanks for being saved from my sins and I try to visualise the last moments of Christ before his crucifixion from his betrayal and arrest in gethsemane to his crucifiction. I do this everyday and this sometimes takes an hour or so at a time, at its longest two hours (which isn't that common) if I struggle to think clear. I started off doing this to get a clear view of what he went through for me, so when I said thanks I had a good idea of what had been done for me. Is this wrong?
Jesus says : "And when you pray, do not use vain repetitions as the heathen do. For they think that they will be heard for their many words. Therefore do not be like them. For your Father knows the things you have need of before you ask him." (Matthew 6:7)
Then he goes on to quote the lords prayer and says this "in this manner pray" Is it enough just to pray the lords prayer everyday? I'll feel like it's not enough.
I need some strong advice, I don't mean to go behind God and Jesus' back by asking this advice I feel like I am in a way but it's not the case.
Any feedback appreciated, God bless x
I tend to pray before and after a meal and I try and think of people who are hungry in the world so I don't take for granted what i'm eating. I pray whatever I eat even if it is a piece of fruit or sweet. Is this excessive? I feel anxious if I don't and I don't want to fall into the trap of taking food for granted.
Another point is I pray everyday to say thanks for being saved from my sins and I try to visualise the last moments of Christ before his crucifixion from his betrayal and arrest in gethsemane to his crucifiction. I do this everyday and this sometimes takes an hour or so at a time, at its longest two hours (which isn't that common) if I struggle to think clear. I started off doing this to get a clear view of what he went through for me, so when I said thanks I had a good idea of what had been done for me. Is this wrong?
Jesus says : "And when you pray, do not use vain repetitions as the heathen do. For they think that they will be heard for their many words. Therefore do not be like them. For your Father knows the things you have need of before you ask him." (Matthew 6:7)
Then he goes on to quote the lords prayer and says this "in this manner pray" Is it enough just to pray the lords prayer everyday? I'll feel like it's not enough.
I need some strong advice, I don't mean to go behind God and Jesus' back by asking this advice I feel like I am in a way but it's not the case.
Any feedback appreciated, God bless x