Giving Up

[els_bells]

I'm giving up on counselling. i can't do it anymore. I just cant see any progress, I can't see anything getting any better. I've talked and talked about this stuff and reached no conclusions, there is no point in talking anymore.
I've been away for a while, I thought it might help me get my head straight but I've come back more confused than ever.
I'm going to cope on my own, it's the only way. If i don't let people in then they can't hurt me. I'm going to fight this on my own, I wonder if I'll ever win.

 

[always_hope]

With Christ you can win. I think counselling is fine but I have experienced what you are feeling. Best wishes for whatever you decide.


Love,
Hope

 

[Cerulean_Butterfly]

Hun, don't give up. It will work... give it time. I can see why you're a little impatient with the healing process... but it will get better. Please don't give up. And please don't stop letting people into your life. Not everyone will hurt you. Beleive it or not, there are some good people in this world. You'll find them, I promise.

-Jo.

 

[Cat59]

I'm giving up on counselling. i can't do it anymore. I just cant see any progress, I can't see anything getting any better. I've talked and talked about this stuff and reached no conclusions, there is no point in talking anymore.
I've been away for a while, I thought it might help me get my head straight but I've come back more confused than ever.
I'm going to cope on my own, it's the only way. If i don't let people in then they can't hurt me. I'm going to fight this on my own, I wonder if I'll ever win.

Have you told the counsellor this?

Perhaps if you did, she or he could use another approach..
for you..

 

[Mr.Cheese]

The group you were meeting with are in way over their heads.

 

[els_bells]

I don't know who I am. All my life I've made decisions etc. in order to prove things to people or done what was expected of me, I've tried to be this person that I think others want me to be but I'm not. I don't know who the real me is. I'm completely lost.
Now I'm doing much better in not self harming but I'm so scared. Self harm is the one thing that identifies me, without it I'm just going to be more of a nothing than i am now. I don't want to stop, I don't want to lose that identity.

 

[Bevlina]

Always, but always, be yourself. Never pretend. Just always be you. I think this is what is confusing you. Trying to be somone you aren't. This is unhealthy. At all times, we must just be ourselves. Have you ever heard of the Desiderata Ellie?
I'll post it for you.

 

[Bevlina]

The Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,

and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others,

even to the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter,

for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble,

it's a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery.

But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;

many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.

Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love;

for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,

it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,

gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.

But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.

Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars;

you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,

no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be.

And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life,

keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

​

 

[els_bells]

It's all a bit crazy here. Today i took my mum to hospital for her operation tomorrow. It was so horrible leaving her there, i wish i could have stayed. I really hope that everything goes well, that there are no complications like last time.
I've come to a few decisions about my life etc. I'm not going to any counselling anymore. In fact I've stopped trying to stop self harm. I know that ultimately it is not the best way to cope but for now I've got it under control. I've got exams coming up and i just know that I can't get through them trying to battle with not self harming.
I don't think I'm a christian anymore, I no longer have a relationship with God. I don't know what i'm thinking about faith etc. but I'm pretty confused.

 

[_sunshinegirl]

don't give up, just look towards christ.
in him will all your answers be found, i promise!