I've been on my own for almost 4 years now. 500+ miles away from family. Some fleeting friends, but no steady support network. I've tried, but haven't found anyone trustworthy.
I home school my kids. They're blessings to me and others. My youngest has special needs and it takes a lot of work to care for her. Her siblings feel the burden and get less attention than I'd like to give them sometimes.
I'm working to create beauty, joy, and healing as I can. Many successes, but it feels like more failures. Sins galore. Shame and doubt. I just feel tired... (not physically)
Other things I can't talk about here. Majorly triggering events in my life that have unearthed unresolved trauma. Fights with neighbors and the landlords. No church home. Cold and lonely. Stalkers and weirdness.
I miss something I've never had in this life. Warmth, security, true friendship. Steadiness and predictable love. I am working to create it myself. Where am I going wrong?
We're in a war. I know my Father has my back. Yet I don't feel His protective embrace. I hope you'll be a prayer warrior in my corner.
I home school my kids. They're blessings to me and others. My youngest has special needs and it takes a lot of work to care for her. Her siblings feel the burden and get less attention than I'd like to give them sometimes.
I'm working to create beauty, joy, and healing as I can. Many successes, but it feels like more failures. Sins galore. Shame and doubt. I just feel tired... (not physically)
Other things I can't talk about here. Majorly triggering events in my life that have unearthed unresolved trauma. Fights with neighbors and the landlords. No church home. Cold and lonely. Stalkers and weirdness.
I miss something I've never had in this life. Warmth, security, true friendship. Steadiness and predictable love. I am working to create it myself. Where am I going wrong?
We're in a war. I know my Father has my back. Yet I don't feel His protective embrace. I hope you'll be a prayer warrior in my corner.
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