In existentialistic philosophy, and maybe in other philosophy too, there is often the idea of a concept, of a plan that man makes, and that this is really life.
I wanted to ask how christian beliefs fit in there. I mean I would say that for a christian, life is done with God, and making a concept is something you do with God too.
However, there is a certain pleasure associated with making your own concept. This doesn't mean it would be against God. It doesn't require me to abandon faith. But it's a bit like in youth - you try to prove yourself, you try to make your life your own. And people draw a lot of comfort from seeing things like that and following them through.
The thing is, I am currently 34 years old. I had been secluded from life for 12 years because I got sick with schizophrenia and, if you can believe me, I had trouble with the devil. I was generally pretty whacked out and had very odd beliefs and had lot's fear, many recurring nightmares, a general feeling of being battered and oppressed. I couldn't work anymore and I couldn't go studying at college as I had originally wanted.
But after many years of living alone and later on living with my parents again, I'm now in the position of making a new start. That is, I can't start a career or something, still can't reliably go to work and all that. But we're planning that in a year or so I will have my own appartment again.
But I'm not sure what I should aim for. I had this spiritual dream in spring that really soothed me, I saw myself in old and worn clothing that appeared really youthfully eccentric and beautiful to me, and it was like God said, pursue an alternative lifestyle, allow your eccentricities when they don't harm anyone, and allow yourself to see freedom in a life with Jesus. This really really really appealed to me and made me see life with God in a much better way than I had previously conceived.
And so I sit here making a concept. I think the dream that I had could be something like a dream for my life, and it wouldn't be a vain imagination that cannot work. I mean, my financial independence is pretty secure here in Germany as I am getting an Aid Grant because of my illness, and I also have some savings. And, I must add, when I had this dream I also had the impression from God that I should learn to live frugally when it comes to money and expensive things. I returned to my once-favourite hobby of writing poetry, and I began getting interested in pantomime and action art. I've also been reading books again about people who live on the road, and saw movies of old hippies. My concept is that I would be something like an old hippie, only without the drugs, without the other religions and without the fornication. Basically a christian life with God, but done in a more eccentric way than it is usually done with work and career and family and all that.
Can you give me any good input on this philosophy? And on living your dreams and all that? I've met some people who did this follow your dreams thing, and they appeared much happier and more fulfilled and peaceful to me. It's like everyone should have dreams like that, and that for christianity this is not a mindless rebellion against the good order of life, like people in earlier times maybe would have said, but that it is a really good and valid way of living that can make you really happy - and happiness is not excluded from living the faith.
I wanted to ask how christian beliefs fit in there. I mean I would say that for a christian, life is done with God, and making a concept is something you do with God too.
However, there is a certain pleasure associated with making your own concept. This doesn't mean it would be against God. It doesn't require me to abandon faith. But it's a bit like in youth - you try to prove yourself, you try to make your life your own. And people draw a lot of comfort from seeing things like that and following them through.
The thing is, I am currently 34 years old. I had been secluded from life for 12 years because I got sick with schizophrenia and, if you can believe me, I had trouble with the devil. I was generally pretty whacked out and had very odd beliefs and had lot's fear, many recurring nightmares, a general feeling of being battered and oppressed. I couldn't work anymore and I couldn't go studying at college as I had originally wanted.
But after many years of living alone and later on living with my parents again, I'm now in the position of making a new start. That is, I can't start a career or something, still can't reliably go to work and all that. But we're planning that in a year or so I will have my own appartment again.
But I'm not sure what I should aim for. I had this spiritual dream in spring that really soothed me, I saw myself in old and worn clothing that appeared really youthfully eccentric and beautiful to me, and it was like God said, pursue an alternative lifestyle, allow your eccentricities when they don't harm anyone, and allow yourself to see freedom in a life with Jesus. This really really really appealed to me and made me see life with God in a much better way than I had previously conceived.
And so I sit here making a concept. I think the dream that I had could be something like a dream for my life, and it wouldn't be a vain imagination that cannot work. I mean, my financial independence is pretty secure here in Germany as I am getting an Aid Grant because of my illness, and I also have some savings. And, I must add, when I had this dream I also had the impression from God that I should learn to live frugally when it comes to money and expensive things. I returned to my once-favourite hobby of writing poetry, and I began getting interested in pantomime and action art. I've also been reading books again about people who live on the road, and saw movies of old hippies. My concept is that I would be something like an old hippie, only without the drugs, without the other religions and without the fornication. Basically a christian life with God, but done in a more eccentric way than it is usually done with work and career and family and all that.
Can you give me any good input on this philosophy? And on living your dreams and all that? I've met some people who did this follow your dreams thing, and they appeared much happier and more fulfilled and peaceful to me. It's like everyone should have dreams like that, and that for christianity this is not a mindless rebellion against the good order of life, like people in earlier times maybe would have said, but that it is a really good and valid way of living that can make you really happy - and happiness is not excluded from living the faith.