After much prayer and thought I have decided not to begin a relationship with the man I have been talking to. I feel very at peace about this decision but it is not easy and I think will only get more difficult. I want to remain friends (which really means taking a step backwards) but it will be hard. I really like him A LOT and that is very rare for me, I don't ever like guys. I like their attention and such but I have never truly liked someone for themselves. I don't get attached easily.
However I feel that I am not ready for a relationship right now. I think I have some issues I need to deal with first and I need to learn to rely on Christ first. It is something I would most definitely want to happen in the future. But I know that by letting it go now I'm taking a chance on the guy losing interest or changing his mind. Its all in God's hands though. I can't worry about that I just have to trust that God is leading me the right way and follow His guidance. I wish I had someone to talk to about this, to get counsel and advice.
However I feel that I am not ready for a relationship right now. I think I have some issues I need to deal with first and I need to learn to rely on Christ first. It is something I would most definitely want to happen in the future. But I know that by letting it go now I'm taking a chance on the guy losing interest or changing his mind. Its all in God's hands though. I can't worry about that I just have to trust that God is leading me the right way and follow His guidance. I wish I had someone to talk to about this, to get counsel and advice.
