- Nov 7, 2004
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When i was 7 my troubles started, i was moved over 200miles away from all my friends and was expected to get on with life and make new friends, I am ginger and wear glasses which is not a good combination at that age. I was bullied because of this. there was one day i started scratching my arm when i got really upset and i felt better after. So i started to SI, for 4 years ish i cut without a single person finding out and then it got risky, someone asked what one of my cuts was from. From that day forth i vowed never to cut again. I screwed up a few times but i successfully stayed clean for 2 years.
Two and a half years ago i started cutting again, did some stuff i really shouldn't have done, felt really guilty so cutting seemed to be the solution. I had never learnt how to deal with anger, hurt, pain etc etc. In my family we bottle things up so i did that until i exploded on a cutting spree. Think my record was about 15 cuts in one night. Have been cutting regularly ever since.
Last year i didn't eat a single thing for 2.5 months. I lost one hell of a lot of weight and i became happier. Then i snapped out of it and thought that i wouldn't get away with not eating for very much longer so i "recovered" Last september ana came back, with mia to back her up. I started taking slimming pills and went down from 154lbs to 112 in about 2 months. I am currently on 133 and am planning on loosing more if i can get away with it.
I am a compulsive excerciser that either binges or starves, i don't ever eat normally.
Anyone else fancy sharing their story?
When i was 7 my troubles started, i was moved over 200miles away from all my friends and was expected to get on with life and make new friends, I am ginger and wear glasses which is not a good combination at that age. I was bullied because of this. there was one day i started scratching my arm when i got really upset and i felt better after. So i started to SI, for 4 years ish i cut without a single person finding out and then it got risky, someone asked what one of my cuts was from. From that day forth i vowed never to cut again. I screwed up a few times but i successfully stayed clean for 2 years.
Two and a half years ago i started cutting again, did some stuff i really shouldn't have done, felt really guilty so cutting seemed to be the solution. I had never learnt how to deal with anger, hurt, pain etc etc. In my family we bottle things up so i did that until i exploded on a cutting spree. Think my record was about 15 cuts in one night. Have been cutting regularly ever since.
Last year i didn't eat a single thing for 2.5 months. I lost one hell of a lot of weight and i became happier. Then i snapped out of it and thought that i wouldn't get away with not eating for very much longer so i "recovered" Last september ana came back, with mia to back her up. I started taking slimming pills and went down from 154lbs to 112 in about 2 months. I am currently on 133 and am planning on loosing more if i can get away with it.
I am a compulsive excerciser that either binges or starves, i don't ever eat normally.
Anyone else fancy sharing their story?