Your Prayers are Appreciated

[jamesup7777]

Hi
I would like to thank all of you on the forum. Thank you for your prayers and caring for others/me. Many of you will be blessed in heaven more ways than you will ever know.

As for me, I feel like my days are about over. I have an empty job, life, no friends, zero self esteem, no dreams, no goals, just a recluse. I have a great family, but they can only do so much.

I have been desperately praying to God to send just a little bit of encouragement, but it seems like it isn't coming.

I have seen many tough things people are going through and my heart goes out to all of you. It would seem I am my own worst enemy. Satan doesn't have to do anything.

I just pray that the Lord would send just a tiny ray of light...just a little encouragement to continue on. I'm just tired of being a walking dead man.

I am tired of this empty life.
I have prayed the sinners prayer one million times. I have tried to obey the Lord, but ultimately keep failing. I see no color in this dark place. I simply don't want to wake up to another tomorrow that I will surely waste.

Thank all of you for your unselfish posts and prayers.

I hate looking up there and counting all my "I's" I don't want to come across so selfish, but it's just that desperate right now.

God Bless you and this forum.
Jim

 

[Jeshu]

Sorry to hear that you are hurting so much, I've been there, so I know what it is like - the pits.:o

To keep praying the same things will not help, desperation doesn't help either, but faith in God's love brings hope and improvement.

The best thing is to add positives to the negatives. Thank God for His love, thank God for a great family, thank God that bad life teaches you that life without love is not worth living. Ask Him to make you stronger than pain can bring to bear.

I battled depression for many years and found that focusing on God's love - having faith in His goodwill - works the best in overcoming the worst of depression.

Are you on any medications? They can help a great deal as well, I know a lot of people who have found relief through medications.

Battle those feelings of lovelessness, guilt, shame, fear, loneliness, despair, hopelessness and low-self-esteem - faith in God's loving truth can set you free from the powers of these forces, that in it self will make depression so much easier to fight.

Be of good courage the depression wont last, there will come an end to it, but faith in God's loving truth reaps eternal life.

 

[Criada]

Praying that you will see God's blessing today, brother, in the everyday miracles of life.
Depression is horrible - and inside it everything seems so dark, but God's promises are still there and outside the dark bubble there is still light, and you will see it again

 

[jamesup7777]

Thank you so much for your kind words and prayers Jeshu and Criada.
God Bless you.

 

[DaisyMae]

Continued prayers, my friend.

 

[Chococat]

Praying that God will send you His joy and peace.

 

[Criada]

Continuing to pray for you, brother

 

[miss-a]

James, I'm sorry you are struggling. I have been there, but things are better now. It is a matter of holding on and fighting. I think coming here to this forum is one way you are doing that, and that is very good. There are very faith, wonderful prayer warriors and encouragers on this forum. So do keep coming back. This season of your life will pass and one day you will be the person telling others of how you once wanted to give up, but you didn't and God came through for you. He will. It's just who He is. I can't say when. It was a long struggle for me, but like all trials, it finally came to an end. The key is to stay in His Word--it is alive and active and will strengthen you--stay around positive people who love Jesus and act like it, even if online is the only place you can find them, remember daily the things you are grateful for, like your family, and thank God for them, and stay in conversation with God about everything you are feeling and thinking. Seeking to know Him more is vital.

These links will help and encourage you.

Redeemed and Summoned by Name: Bible Verses for Panic, Depression, Anxiety

How Winners Think | Gateway Church

Videos | Gateway Church

Prayers for you,
a

 

[jamesup7777]

Thank all of you for your concern and prayers. It is hard to see them in this immense darkness, but thank you again for your caring. May God richly bless you all.

 

[Krissy Cakes]

Prayers for you brother.

God Bless you!

 

[jamesup7777]

After all your gracious and selfless prayers nothing has changed since I first posted this. I guess I am the one that needs to change, but its not happening. Thanks again for your prayers.

 

[Jeshu]

After all your gracious and selfless prayers nothing has changed since I first posted this. I guess I am the one that needs to change, but its not happening. Thanks again for your prayers.

I'm sorry to hear you are still battling depression, from experience I know that this is a real and long battle. Change doesn't come just like that, it needs work.


Fighting depression is the battle of our life, it took me more than a year of fighting depression before solid change came about and three years before I was able to walk away from being constantly depressed. Please don't give up adding positives over against the negatives. And please remember just as it took time for the negativity of depression to come into power over your life, so it takes time for the positives to out grow the negatives.

Pleas consider this: Faith in God's love brings about hope for better. Hope for better brings about determination to fight the negativity. Determination in fighting negativity brings about thankfulness that the hopelessness and despair of the negativity has been overcome. Thankfulness that the hopelessness and despair has been overcome brings about joy for deliverance. Joy for deliverance brings about more faith in God's love - and so bit by bit and step by step the power of depression is beaten back - for depression can't beat God's love.

So yes prayers are important, but the Bible says pray and work! So please pray for faith in God's promises and work placing the positives of these promises up against the depression and begin to experience the power of the Gospel in your depressed life.

Give it time brother, give the positives time to beat the negatives and take small steps at the time.

 

[jamesup7777]

Thanks for your tremendous response Jeshu. I appreciate the time you took to write it. I agree with you that prayers are wonderful, but we also need to do some work--Not just lay back and expect something to happen. I will try and take your advice and focus on God and His love. I have never truly been able to see it with my darkened mind. I pray that I can one day. God Bless you.

 

[Jeshu]

Thanks for your tremendous response Jeshu. I appreciate the time you took to write it. I agree with you that prayers are wonderful, but we also need to do some work--Not just lay back and expect something to happen. I will try and take your advice and focus on God and His love. I have never truly been able to see it with my darkened mind. I pray that I can one day. God Bless you.

Yes it is hard to see God's love with our by depression darkened minds - that is why we need faith. Ask God for faith my brother, ask Him for faith in His love!

When I started to battle my depression with faith in God's love I couldn't see God's love either, I was suicidally depressed and in a really bad way. So I asked God for faith, for I knew from the Bible that faith was a gift of God.

I must admit that my faith was very small to start off with. Sometimes for a few minutes I would experience faith in God's love but I noticed straight away that when I had faith in God's love I would have hope for better. So I asked for more faith and consequently experienced more times of hope. To hope for better is something so sweet when hopelessness has been ruling your life that I wanted more of these times, so I sought after more faith in His love.

After a few months I began to ignore what I was feeling (and hearing) in my depression and grew faith in what I KNEW to be true - I was convinced that faith in God's love brings hope for better around and hope for better brings determination to fight the battle. And so moments of thankfulness and joy entered my heart again. Sparsely at first but it grew over time into a mighty force.

I have been building with God's promises for about 6 or 7 years now and have come a long way away from my suicidal depression. I'm even working as a volunteer for 2 days a week, life has grown to be so much better than it used to be. God's promises are great and so incredible powerful against - guilt, shame, hopelessness, fear, loneliness and despair!

I do have a depressive illness so depression comes still around as well, but I have (and still am) learning to ignore its power over me. Faith in God's love has brought me so much benefit that I don't doubt Him any more, I have learned to trust God completely and not to doubt Him any more. (For when I doubted God all the benefits of faith were lost to me as well.:o)

So please be of good courage my dear struggling friend and brother - God can make us stronger than depression can bring to bear. He is faithful and true - that is my testimony of Him.