You Have This As Well?

[Bridgida]

Apart from hearing voices, which in my case are under controll.
When I am off from work, I am scared. I have to go out or phone to pay some bills or to better organise my bills, which for me are of course a struggle. It scares me.
Today the weather was nice but cold, I did the laundry and that was it. Nothing else. I am at home, have the candles on, had a 1 hour long bath and the fear is diminished, but I still have to go through some letters.
Do you have this as well, that these sort of tasks are difficult for you? That you are more often frightened and frightened again. What a perverse illness. And it looks like agrophobia, manic what ever. I think too much, I feel to much.
So I am happy to get back to work which after years of struggeling I found a manage-able job.
The next problem is that they are looking for office people as one is going and I said why not try me, but you have to teach me. So I am [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ting myself as I know nothing, apart from computer work. I can't relay on a brain that is learning easely. Tomorrow I check out a private college. But this costs, I haven't told my partner that I might do this college and that I would pay £300 for 3 month. So I wonder if I could get help with some school grants. This thinking makes me actually self secure, that another problem is that I have a boyfriend who is totally against it that I spend money for myself even so I earn it, even so is not much.
So do you have this over protection, fear and feelings, that is messing up your days. I always think I do this or that on my days off and then I have to recuperate from work, or I am too scared.
Is this part of the illness?

 

[Solomons Porch]

Apart from hearing voices, which in my case are under controll.
When I am off from work, I am scared. I have to go out or phone to pay some bills or to better organise my bills, which for me are of course a struggle. It scares me.
Today the weather was nice but cold, I did the laundry and that was it. Nothing else. I am at home, have the candles on, had a 1 hour long bath and the fear is diminished, but I still have to go through some letters.
Do you have this as well, that these sort of tasks are difficult for you? That you are more often frightened and frightened again. What a perverse illness. And it looks like agrophobia, manic what ever. I think too much, I feel to much.
So I am happy to get back to work which after years of struggeling I found a manage-able job.
The next problem is that they are looking for office people as one is going and I said why not try me, but you have to teach me. So I am [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ting myself as I know nothing, apart from computer work. I can't relay on a brain that is learning easely. Tomorrow I check out a private college. But this costs, I haven't told my partner that I might do this college and that I would pay £300 for 3 month. So I wonder if I could get help with some school grants. This thinking makes me actually self secure, that another problem is that I have a boyfriend who is totally against it that I spend money for myself even so I earn it, even so is not much.
So do you have this over protection, fear and feelings, that is messing up your days. I always think I do this or that on my days off and then I have to recuperate from work, or I am too scared.
Is this part of the illness?

Hey Bridgida......
May I ask, what were you diagnosed with? And did they put you on certain meds and if so what? And if taking those meds has it helped even in the slightest bit??

Not trying to be nosey, seeing if I can help you out

 

[Bridgida]

I have Paranoid Schizophrenia.
I have problems sometimes with fear and feeling too much. Not today though. But as articles are always about the voices, is there anything else?