Hello all.
I don't really need advice on WHAT to do(I'm going to see a counselor soon), but this is all very new to me, and I was hoping some of you might share or relate a bit...
I started noticing that I wasn't feeling right a few months ago - I've had some big things in my life lately. I first thought the Lord was trying to convict me of something, or that something was really wrong in my life. I had just gotten engaged, then got baptized, then my fiance moved away for school, I was looking for a church home. I began to seriously doubt all these things among many others. I have overanalyzed everything in my life, from the least to the greatest.
Recently i realized that this might be something more than just the passing doubts or anxiety. I'm not really 'sad' all the time, but I'm definitely not happy. I feel pretty flat, and if not flat, then just down. I also get very fidgety at times. The biggest thing is that I can't concentrate at all, and it's really affecting me at work. Sometimes I just start crying for no reason except maybe apathy. I've got a lot of the symptoms for depression, but I just really don't feel hopeless or suicidal. I've got Christ in my life, so I know I'll get through this, but I'm just getting very frustrated. I feel like I just can't get it together, and at the same time I feel guilty because I think i might be depressed, but I don't have the extreme 'sad' or 'hopeless' feelings.
Can anyone relate?...
I don't really need advice on WHAT to do(I'm going to see a counselor soon), but this is all very new to me, and I was hoping some of you might share or relate a bit...
I started noticing that I wasn't feeling right a few months ago - I've had some big things in my life lately. I first thought the Lord was trying to convict me of something, or that something was really wrong in my life. I had just gotten engaged, then got baptized, then my fiance moved away for school, I was looking for a church home. I began to seriously doubt all these things among many others. I have overanalyzed everything in my life, from the least to the greatest.
Recently i realized that this might be something more than just the passing doubts or anxiety. I'm not really 'sad' all the time, but I'm definitely not happy. I feel pretty flat, and if not flat, then just down. I also get very fidgety at times. The biggest thing is that I can't concentrate at all, and it's really affecting me at work. Sometimes I just start crying for no reason except maybe apathy. I've got a lot of the symptoms for depression, but I just really don't feel hopeless or suicidal. I've got Christ in my life, so I know I'll get through this, but I'm just getting very frustrated. I feel like I just can't get it together, and at the same time I feel guilty because I think i might be depressed, but I don't have the extreme 'sad' or 'hopeless' feelings.
Can anyone relate?...
! I felt quite depressed a year or so ago, the hopelessness, the crying at a drop of a hat, the sadness, all that stuff. Eventually that passed but I alway have a "yuck" spot way down inside of me! Can't really explain it?? I just have an emptiness, a little sadness, just a little unhappiness. I have a great life, family and I also have Christ in my life so what's the problem???? I have no clue but it is really bugging me too!!! I ask the Lord, why do I have this yuck feeling inside??? So far He hasn't told me anything 
. I have gone to councellors and dealt with a lot of hurts and junk from my childhood but it hasn't "fixed" this hole. If you find any answers....please let me know 
! Blessings and hugs to you 
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