You've now stumbled across the problem with the doctrines of grace. That's why I said in a PM that this doctrine is really intended for people who are already Christians, and it would likely trip you up at the moment.
Here's the problem: yes, God's grace is what moves us to repent. But we still have to repent. Once you've done it you will probably come to realize that it was God's work that was moving you to do it, but that realization doesn't take the place of actually doing it. It's like looking at what your feet are doing so much that you get tangled up and fall. For the moment you're best to forget that it's God grace that moves you, and just get on with it.
So is there something to do? Sort of. Realize that God loves you, and start living as his child. This is faith, and doing it is also repentance, because it's a basic change in direction. But I'm not sure you should think of it as a thing you do, exactly, because then you're just going to start worrying that you haven't repented enough. In this case repentance isn't a separate thing. The core meaning of repent is change direction. So it just describes the fact that you're now a follower of Christ and you weren't before. But there's not some separate repentance action you have to do that has to meet the grade.
And again, this doesn't mean you're going to become perfect follower of Christ, just that you've started the journey. Hence my advice is to forget about getting over conversion as some kind of hurdle and just start living as a Christian.
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