Working out my issue

[AWorkInProgress]

I am struggling this morning, more or less I need to type this to get it out of my system. Please forgive me I do get ugly in my thoughts.

I see the stage, their worship team. I know it has nothing to do with them, but my worship team was taken away from me. Things have changed so much, I don't think I could do that line of service again. I used to be part of a team, today I am a part of nothing. How do I accept the end of a time? How do I let go of feeling important to others? How do I surrender it all and hand over my broken pieces? It is so hard to move forward when everything angers me.

Inferiority complex, it would explain my anti social tendencies.

 

[ripple the car]

Have you talked with the Pastor about what happened, and why?

 

[AWorkInProgress]

Have you talked with the Pastor about what happened, and why?

Hey Gracia! Thanks for caring.

I was part of a small church for many years, even got married in it. It fell apart and the property got handed over to people who ran it as a family business instead a house of God. My family and I been working out the pain of the loss, and it hasn't been easy.

Over the last two years we done church from home, to a home church group. Our leaders of the group had to step down for their own reasons. So my wife and I are looking at going back to a more traditional church. We finally made it last Sunday, but it is bringing up some wounds. This is just me working out my emotions and by God's grace this will be our new church.

 

[ripple the car]

Hey Gracia! Thanks for caring.

I was part of a small church for many years, even got married in it. It fell apart and the property got handed over to people who ran it as a family business instead a house of God. My family and I been working out the pain of the loss, and it hasn't been easy.

Over the last two years we done church from home, to a home church group. Our leaders of the group had to step down for their own reasons. So my wife and I are looking at going back to a more traditional church. We finally made it last Sunday, but it is bringing up some wounds. This is just me working out my emotions and by God's grace this will be our new church.

Moves like that can be tough. Take it slow. It's tough to be uprooted and start over. God bless you, be gentle on yourself, and let us know how things go!

What is your new church like?

 

[AWorkInProgress]

It is pretty big, but kinda hidden. We passed it many times, but we never really recognized it. They been in the area for over 30 years, and their statement of faith in line with ours.

Worship was pretty nice how they took hymnals and modernized them. It was a little tough at first during worship, then we got the hang of it. Pretty humble worship in my opinion. Nothing fancy.

My walked away with a lot from the sermon. We met one of the leaders of the home groups they have. We are going to give them a try this Thursday.

Trinity Bible Church: Phoenix, AZ

My wife and I were big on volunteering. I think this time I am not going to be in a rush to do so. My focus will be to become consistent in going.

Thanks for your prayers. I hope all is well with you too!

 

[yeshuaslavejeff]

In reading the New Testament, I don't see any, or hardly any, 'volunteers'.

They all are referred to as bond-slaves, or slaves, in Christ,

laying down their lives for one another.

 

[carp614]

I think what you are doing is wonderful.

It can be really tough to do, because you don't know in advance what issues it will trigger, that you then have to go and deal with. Some of those surprises can be acutely painful and surprising, like learning that something you thought you had dealt with is still a problem. It can feel like starting over because it really is.

If it helps, I agree with your thoughts about taking it slow. Get to know the pastor if you can, take time to do your wrestling and get adjusted. If you really have a heart to serve, the Lord will call you to do so in the best way he can see. You can work on being ready to accept any call from the Lord to serve in this new church and God will use it to help you in your walk.

I heard this from a pastor this morning, maybe it will help you,
"I want God to change my trials, but God wants my trials to change me." Pastor Mike Winger. You can look him up on You Tube.

 

[Of the Kingdom]

I see they have two series of "equip" classes. The second series are designed for those who seek a leadership position. If you have the opportunity to take one or both of these, I think it will help you understand more about this church group, as well as encouraging you in the faith.

I once decided not to be in a church choir, partly because I felt I was doing more good by singing in the audience, greeting people and praying. I hope you will find an air of informality that will allow you to serve in flexible ways, and that your musical talent will also be recognized and used.

May God bless you as you seek to honor Him.