Working My Program Works

[madison1101]

I have been so busy lately, and it is mostly good stuff. I have been attending my meetings, and enjoying some rewards. My son took me to the Baseball Hall of Fame over the weekend and we had a great time.

My pastor has been preaching from Mark 11, lately, and last week's sermon was on the need to forgive others. That fits right into my fourth step stuff with the resentments and bitterness that came to a head a few weeks ago with Mom and Daughter. This week the sermon was on the authority of Christ. That fits right into my 3rd step stuff of turning my will and life over to God.

I am sober. I am attending my meetings about five times a week. I am blessed beyond words.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[BlessEwe]

Sister! I am so proud of you!
I have been very busy trying to get ready for a big trip we are taking "Alaska". I have someone staying in my house which has motivated me to do a major deep clean.
I was offered a job yesterday with the company that I did my practicum hours. It is full time, at night so I am praying if this is what I should do. I have a family and of coarse my sobriety is the most important. The job will have to wait as well for me to get back, so if it doesn't work out this is ok.
This is exactly what i want to do, working with pregnant addicted women coming in off the street. Its a christian atmosphere too, verses secular. Not sure what to do.....

Now how are you feeling getting into the 4th step this time with your sponsor? Do you feel different this time? I think this was the step you always struggled with. How do you like your sponsor?

 

[madison1101]

Sister! I am so proud of you!
I have been very busy trying to get ready for a big trip we are taking "Alaska". I have someone staying in my house which has motivated me to do a major deep clean.
I was offered a job yesterday with the company that I did my practicum hours. It is full time, at night so I am praying if this is what I should do. I have a family and of coarse my sobriety is the most important. The job will have to wait as well for me to get back, so if it doesn't work out this is ok.
This is exactly what i want to do, working with pregnant addicted women coming in off the street. Its a christian atmosphere too, verses secular. Not sure what to do.....

Now how are you feeling getting into the 4th step this time with your sponsor? Do you feel different this time? I think this was the step you always struggled with. How do you like your sponsor?

Alaska? I would love to take an Alaskan cruise someday.

I am okay with the fourth step. I have done several, just not one on resentments. I never did my amends properly, because I never did the fourth step according to the resentments the way it says in the Big Book.

My sponsor is awesome. She is positive and upbeat, and always yelling at me because I tend to put myself down a lot. She likes me to stay focused on the positives of my life, and I am supposed to share something positive about myself when I share. She is also thoughtful. I had shared how my coffee maker broke, and I can't afford to replace it right away, and she gave me a small coffee maker she does not need.

The job with the pregnant teens sounds like such a ministry opportunity. Definitely pray about what the Lord would have you do.

I am struggling with the desire to discontinue my treatment group. I like the therapist and I get a lot out of the group, but I am so tired of being committed to going to it. I have been in either IOP or weekly groups since October, minus the time I was having surgery or the broken foot.

Have a nice weekend.
Trish

 

[BlessEwe]

I am struggling with the desire to discontinue my treatment group. I like the therapist and I get a lot out of the group, but I am so tired of being committed to going to it. I have been in either IOP or weekly groups since October, minus the time I was having surgery or the broken foot.

How does your sponsor feel about leaving this group? Your going to meetings and working the steps, do you feel this would be enough?

 

[madison1101]

How does your sponsor feel about leaving this group? Your going to meetings and working the steps, do you feel this would be enough?

I never thought to discuss my treatment group with my sponsor. My therapist is the one who insisted I get treatment, and when I left the first rehab program, outpatient as it was, he insisted I find another program right away. That was in the winter. Basically, I feel it is totally up to him whether I am in the group or not, since he insisted I be in the group in the first place. The treatment therapist is leaving the decision up to me. I am leaving it up to my private therapist. I guess I compartmentalize treatment and see it as separate from my 12 step program.

Thanks,
Trish

 

[Richard859]

This is exactly what i want to do, working with pregnant addicted women coming in off the street. Its a christian atmosphere too, verses secular. Not sure what to do.....

That's an interesting statement. I would ask is that the best way God can use you right now? That might clarify things a bit.

 

[BlessEwe]

This is exactly what i want to do, working with pregnant addicted women coming in off the street. Its a christian atmosphere too, verses secular. Not sure what to do.....

That's an interesting statement. I would ask is that the best way God can use you right now? That might clarify things a bit.

Yes, you are right! I meant it in the way you said it,

So I went on my interview and all went well, I really feel

God can use me

at home with my Tween and Teen. I am feeling the job will demand to much of my family. I know when it is time the right doors will open.

 

[madison1101]

I may have spoken too soon about working my program. I have not been to a meeting in almost a week, and did not attend my treatment group this week. Not for any other reason than I have been sick since Saturday. I barely made it to work this week. That was all I could do, except walk the pooch.

I am still focusing on my recovery, and keeping in mind my steps. I just have been too washed out to do much. I am hoping this infection clears up soon, as it has me miserable. I have had thoughts of drinking, but then, I am an alcoholic, and my mind will drift in that direction on occasion. The key thing is to not act on my thoughts. That is where the steps come in.

I need to call my treatment therapist and let him know I have not been there due to illness. I only attend once a week, and can attend any evening from Monday to Thursday. I thought I would make it tonight, but just too sick to do so.

Sorry to whine. But, I guess it is better to whine than to drink wine.

Trish