Wondering if he's dead

[dawnsday]

Six days of silence on my side of it while he’s swept up in the violence
fightin’ for a mission he believes in so much
and that’s enough for me
He’s my very own hero among men
He has become my dearest friend and today
I hung my head as for the first time i wondered if he might be dead
A news headline blaring a bombing declaring the insurgencies wrath
crashed into my lap
four dead at a bus station
five days into his new mission
a security operation
somewhere in the nation of Iraq
I fought back sobs at the thought of him under attack
Tears i shed silently, my mind stirs violently, hands shaking with anxiety
wringing my fingers, biting my nails chain, smoking the cancer that i said
“i swear, i’ll quit, before you come home”
fumbling open a new pack dismayed at the unknown
David where are you, i whisper under my breath at work, on the road, in my bed,
i say a prayer, ask he be blessed
God, please God, don’t let him be dead
Questions swarm me, is he cold, is he afraid, is he alone,
God, why did he have to go
has he needed to wash blood off his hands, has he hardened
has he lost what’s left of his innonence
it’s just too much for me to handle, this is not the plan,
this is not supposed to happen
to this man, this good man, innocent and free man,
there’s too much he can do here, he hasn’t finished his work here,
God it’s me do you hear, God, am i making this clear
keep him safe,
i wonder if he prays
does he feel his savior everyday, knelt and felt his presence stay close with him
and he goes on again
to finish off his mission

Seven days of silence on my side of it while he’s swept up in the violence
fightin for a mission he believes in so much
and that’s enough for me
i send an email, knowing very well there will be no reply
as i write happy thoughts i again try not to cry
Life is good, things are well, i hope you know i miss you like hell
there’s not much to say just thought you should know
i’m in love with you, marry me and come home
no
delete last sentence
just thought you should know, i’m praying for you and your safe trip home
here’s some new stories and my latest poems
i know you are out there doing your best
i’d say don’t be a hero, but i know you’ll do no less
here are some photos that i hope make you smile
i understand why i havent heard from you in awhile
but i just needed you to know i am thinking of you
luv you to death
you’re friend
signed with a kiss and then click send
and then again i hang my head
god let him be safe
don’t let him be dead
all he wants is a wife, and all he wants is a life
a nice car, a home and a child,
and if he was with me i would offer that to him and all of myself
but’s been over a week though it’s too soon to tell i don’t know if he’s well
i don’t know if he’s hurt and all i can think is this war is a curse
but he believes in it, and he lives in it everyday he stays there
honestly wanting to help this nation
and for that and who he is i deeply respect him his mission
and all he is doin’

Eight days of silence on my side of it while he’s swept up in the violence
fightin for a mission he believes in so much
and that’s enough for me
He’s my very own hero among men
He is my dearest friend and today again i wondered if
he might be dead
another news headline, this time three died, outside Bagdahd,
american soldiers, that’s all the article said
Five months passed since we last embraced
an affection i chase in my dreams,
as i sleep safely and the thought has crossed me
with all he’s seen are there more nightmares in his sleep
then deep sweet dreams
Selfishly i miss him i wish him home
for my own comfort for his touch to wrap me up
in the safety of the hope
that he could be the one thing
i find myself trusting will never leave and i will be sheltered
i cry tears for only him to be washed in reaching the distance,
i know he fights the emotions, giving all his resistance
again so he can complete his mission
but i will myself to be with him even if i can’t touch him or hold him
i pray for him, i ask everyone to pray for him when please pray for him
god take care of him, his body, his mind
and mostly his soul
if worse comes to worse, let him be with you when he goes
but no, just no, God, you have the power, i put all my faith in you to
Bring
him
home

nine days silence on my side of it while he is swept up in the violence
fighting for a mission he believes so much in
and that’s enough for me
My own hero among men, my dearest friend,
another day wondering as each day passes unknown if he’s alive or dead
all that i can do and all that is left is to pray
god, please, keep him safe

 

[ZiSunka]

Great!