Why Me?

[Krysstian]

I know this thought may have crossed your mind every time you think about the horror you’ve endured. Wondering why someone could be so evil to destroy your heart and to misuse your body. Every second of pain you feel creates an eternity of hatred towards the man who took advantage of what is precious to you. You may feel empty, unloved, or oppressed. You may feel so horrible to the point you never knew you could be in this amount of sorrowfulness. Just imagine, how many children, young girl, and women feel?

When it happened to me I never knew that I would witness so much torment. I was at the ages of 5,6,9, 12, 15, 17 and 19. When it happened I asked God, WHYYY? WHYYY did this happended to me? I went through the point of blaming myself and hating myself to let this happened.

I’m 21 now and God answered me. He wanted me to reveal it to others. You may not believe this but its only for those who do believe. I know a simple “They were just bad people” is not good enough. It took me a lot of prayer, forgiving, and loving to get to where I am at today. The enemy will still try to get you to live in the past but don’t let that discourage you.

God told me “It happened because Satan wanted to destroy you. You were meant to change millions.” At first I was like WHAT? Millions impossible. Then I thought about that movie Pay it Forward, When the kid dedicated doing really nice things for three people and they would have to do it for another set of three. Dominoe effect! You will be surprise by showing love you can change millions. I know I can, and I know you can because you were meant to change millions, like Mother Teresa. Her love inspired ma ny people.

You are beautiful, intelligent, extraordinary, and your are full of the gifts of God that very few posses. You might not think I know you but don’t let bitterness destroy your beauty. I know your beautiful inside out and Satan hated you because he knew that you’re a powerful woman of Christ.

Those who did this to you, love them. Its hard too but pray for God to change your heart and He will. The people who hurt you, was hurting immensely. Pray for their salvation, pray for those who went through the pain too, and believe in God to heal your wounds. He will, because He needs you just as much as you need Him. He made you for His purpose and He needs you.

Satan thinks he destroyed you but prove him wrong.

 

[Texanna]

Beautiful, Krysstian. Thank God it didn't take you 45 years to get to that point. Just always remember the Lord does love you, He has your name engraved on His hand, and every tear you cry, He saves in a bottle. He will turn your mourning into joy and give you beauty for ashes. He remembers your pain, and He died to give you freedom from the memories, from the anger, from the helplessness, from the self-loathing and guilt.

 

[BrokenForHim]

 

[Krysstian]

Thank you

 

[UnitynLove]

Not only beautiful and also full of understanding!

 

[ladybuelah]

thank you so much! finally some one who understands

 

[jesusxchick]

That's beautiful and very moving. It's full of truth and love. Thank you for sharing it with us.

 

[eoj]

I know this thought may have crossed your mind every time you think about the horror you’ve endured. Wondering why someone could be so evil to destroy your heart and to misuse your body. Every second of pain you feel creates an eternity of hatred towards the man who took advantage of what is precious to you. You may feel empty, unloved, or oppressed. You may feel so horrible to the point you never knew you could be in this amount of sorrowfulness. Just imagine, how many children, young girl, and women feel?

When it happened to me I never knew that I would witness so much torment. I was at the ages of 5,6,9, 12, 15, 17 and 19. When it happened I asked God, WHYYY? WHYYY did this happended to me? I went through the point of blaming myself and hating myself to let this happened.

I’m 21 now and God answered me. He wanted me to reveal it to others. You may not believe this but its only for those who do believe. I know a simple “They were just bad people” is not good enough. It took me a lot of prayer, forgiving, and loving to get to where I am at today. The enemy will still try to get you to live in the past but don’t let that discourage you.

God told me “It happened because Satan wanted to destroy you. You were meant to change millions.” At first I was like WHAT? Millions impossible. Then I thought about that movie Pay it Forward, When the kid dedicated doing really nice things for three people and they would have to do it for another set of three. Dominoe effect! You will be surprise by showing love you can change millions. I know I can, and I know you can because you were meant to change millions, like Mother Teresa. Her love inspired ma ny people.

You are beautiful, intelligent, extraordinary, and your are full of the gifts of God that very few posses. You might not think I know you but don’t let bitterness destroy your beauty. I know your beautiful inside out and Satan hated you because he knew that you’re a powerful woman of Christ.

Those who did this to you, love them. Its hard too but pray for God to change your heart and He will. The people who hurt you, was hurting immensely. Pray for their salvation, pray for those who went through the pain too, and believe in God to heal your wounds. He will, because He needs you just as much as you need Him. He made you for His purpose and He needs you.

Satan thinks he destroyed you but prove him wrong.

God bless you for this forum and for preaching God's Love.

Peace
EOJ