Why have I changed......

[jacquidube]

Why have I changed from a person who truly loves and feels the Lord to a person who doesnt want to know anymore. I feel so lost. Where is God. Why is He not there like He was last week. I feel very angry and I am very irritable. Ok my mum was buried on Friday just gone and I think maybe that is why I am struggling with love and wanting God in my life. My mum suffered for being here on this earth. She suffered along time too. Why such punishment, why such hurt. I am not the same person since she was laid to rest. I want my mum back, guess that is normal. But what is normal. We live to die so why should i be angry, after all I knew that we all had to die someday. How are we to cope with this. I lost my dad a few years ago. I lost 5 babies through miscarriage.....big deal, oh yeah my gran died 2 months ago and I have lost dear friends too. Why am I still here, if God knew I was gonna suffer through other people dying why didnt He take me first. Life is complicated and nobody knows how I am feeling. Nobody except you guys. My mum is in a place where I want to be. She should not be there but sin put her there. I feel sad that she went through hell to get there.
I am just so sad and confused. I feel bad that I had to come on here to tell you guys but I feel a relief too. aint gonna bring my mum back though. One day I will understand what it is what God is asking from us and why He allows us to go through so much heartache and pain.
Lord I want you in my life. Do not allow me to beg. I need to feel you. I need you to hold me by the hand and help and guide me through this difficult time.
I hear you grieve with us Lord and today I apologise if i have misunderstood you and your ways. I pray Lord you will help the ones who grieve and hurt through losing someone you gave us to be a family with.
I pray this in Jesus name, Amen.

 

[Im-revived]

Hi Jacqui, its Jane (Im-revived)
Ive been hoping I could catch up to you. Firstly God is still with you although you feel all presence has gone. Now reading this after giving you time to concentrate on your mums death, believe it or not youve been more open, know how you feel, and reality has hit. Your actually now at a normal bereavement point of Why this, Why that, Why the other, but noticably every Why question relates to death, bereavement, loss, even to the point of questioning why should you continue.
I can also see now properly why your struggling harder than just one bereavement. Because youve not properly accepted the other bereavements also, even though at the time you think you did. Loss after Loss when not coped with properly or talked through each one, bottles up till finally one of the greatest losses, your mother tips you into doubts. I'm going to leave you with that for now, but please PM if you want, you need to work through them all, to feel whole again, then start accepting and feeling Gods presence again. At present your angry, but there are ways of getting through this.

Im-revived

Why have I changed from a person who truly loves and feels the Lord to a person who doesnt want to know anymore. I feel so lost. Where is God. Why is He not there like He was last week. I feel very angry and I am very irritable. Ok my mum was buried on Friday just gone and I think maybe that is why I am struggling with love and wanting God in my life. My mum suffered for being here on this earth. She suffered along time too. Why such punishment, why such hurt. I am not the same person since she was laid to rest. I want my mum back, guess that is normal. But what is normal. We live to die so why should i be angry, after all I knew that we all had to die someday. How are we to cope with this. I lost my dad a few years ago. I lost 5 babies through miscarriage.....big deal, oh yeah my gran died 2 months ago and I have lost dear friends too. Why am I still here, if God knew I was gonna suffer through other people dying why didnt He take me first. Life is complicated and nobody knows how I am feeling. Nobody except you guys. My mum is in a place where I want to be. She should not be there but sin put her there. I feel sad that she went through hell to get there.
I am just so sad and confused. I feel bad that I had to come on here to tell you guys but I feel a relief too. aint gonna bring my mum back though. One day I will understand what it is what God is asking from us and why He allows us to go through so much heartache and pain.
Lord I want you in my life. Do not allow me to beg. I need to feel you. I need you to hold me by the hand and help and guide me through this difficult time.
I hear you grieve with us Lord and today I apologise if i have misunderstood you and your ways. I pray Lord you will help the ones who grieve and hurt through losing someone you gave us to be a family with.
I pray this in Jesus name, Amen.

 

[CordieLaLa]

Why have I changed from a person who truly loves and feels the Lord to a person who doesnt want to know anymore. I feel so lost. Where is God. Why is He not there like He was last week. I feel very angry and I am very irritable. Ok my mum was buried on Friday just gone and I think maybe that is why I am struggling with love and wanting God in my life. My mum suffered for being here on this earth. She suffered along time too. Why such punishment, why such hurt. I am not the same person since she was laid to rest. I want my mum back, guess that is normal. But what is normal. We live to die so why should i be angry, after all I knew that we all had to die someday. How are we to cope with this. I lost my dad a few years ago. I lost 5 babies through miscarriage.....big deal, oh yeah my gran died 2 months ago and I have lost dear friends too. Why am I still here, if God knew I was gonna suffer through other people dying why didnt He take me first. Life is complicated and nobody knows how I am feeling. Nobody except you guys. My mum is in a place where I want to be. She should not be there but sin put her there. I feel sad that she went through hell to get there.
I am just so sad and confused. I feel bad that I had to come on here to tell you guys but I feel a relief too. aint gonna bring my mum back though. One day I will understand what it is what God is asking from us and why He allows us to go through so much heartache and pain.
Lord I want you in my life. Do not allow me to beg. I need to feel you. I need you to hold me by the hand and help and guide me through this difficult time.
I hear you grieve with us Lord and today I apologise if i have misunderstood you and your ways. I pray Lord you will help the ones who grieve and hurt through losing someone you gave us to be a family with.
I pray this in Jesus name, Amen.

I know exactly how you're feeling. When everyone said that my baby has gone to a better place I wanted to be with him too.

Looking back I think these experiences are given to us to draw us nearer to Him. I really do.

 

[seekingpurity047]

Why have I changed from a person who truly loves and feels the Lord to a person who doesnt want to know anymore. I feel so lost. Where is God. Why is He not there like He was last week. I feel very angry and I am very irritable. Ok my mum was buried on Friday just gone and I think maybe that is why I am struggling with love and wanting God in my life. My mum suffered for being here on this earth. She suffered along time too. Why such punishment, why such hurt. I am not the same person since she was laid to rest. I want my mum back, guess that is normal. But what is normal. We live to die so why should i be angry, after all I knew that we all had to die someday. How are we to cope with this. I lost my dad a few years ago. I lost 5 babies through miscarriage.....big deal, oh yeah my gran died 2 months ago and I have lost dear friends too. Why am I still here, if God knew I was gonna suffer through other people dying why didnt He take me first. Life is complicated and nobody knows how I am feeling. Nobody except you guys. My mum is in a place where I want to be. She should not be there but sin put her there. I feel sad that she went through hell to get there.
I am just so sad and confused. I feel bad that I had to come on here to tell you guys but I feel a relief too. aint gonna bring my mum back though. One day I will understand what it is what God is asking from us and why He allows us to go through so much heartache and pain.
Lord I want you in my life. Do not allow me to beg. I need to feel you. I need you to hold me by the hand and help and guide me through this difficult time.
I hear you grieve with us Lord and today I apologise if i have misunderstood you and your ways. I pray Lord you will help the ones who grieve and hurt through losing someone you gave us to be a family with.
I pray this in Jesus name, Amen.

Do not worry, for Christ is with you and all those who believe on Him. He will never part from you, and He will forever hold you.

Why do things happen? This is a difficult question to deal with, but in reality, everything happens to the glory of God. It may not be noticeable right now, but it is the most loving thing that God could do, to glorify Himself. Take the example of Lazarus and his family. Lazarus was desperately ill, and Jesus wouldn't heal him because the sickness was "not unto death, but it is for the glory of God." Two days later, Lazarus died, Jesus wept, and so did Lazarus's family. Jesus, later, raised Lazarus from the dead. Glory to God for this. It is a depiction of us. When we are not believers in Jesus Christ, Jesus will raise those who are "dead in their tresspasses and sins" from the dead, and allow us to live in Him and with Him, to His glory. This is the same for death. If I died tonight, I know that I would be raised from the dead spiritually to be with Christ forever in eternal bliss.

Trust that God will continue to work in you, and will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ (Phil. 1:6). God will never let you go.

To the glory of God,

Randy

 

[cassyrode]

Ive heard the crying of your heart. I have seen the searching of your soul. I know how deeply you have desired the truth In pain you have cried out for it. When I see you I am overewhelmed with tears and wish to hold you close to me. Go ahead now, Ask me anything. Anything. I will speak to you if you listen. The words to the next song you hear, the information in the next article you read, The story line of the next movie you watch, The chance utterence of the next person you meet. Or the whisper of the next river. The next ocean. The next breeze that carresses your ear. All these devices are mine. I will come to you if you invite me. I will show you then that I have Always been there...

Always.