why does ocd feel soo real?

[Nickieb03]

HOCD is getting worse and worse each passing day. I'm losing who I am..forgetting who I am. It's tormenting me and hurting me each day. When will I ever be who I was? Why doesn't God help me? I keep praying and begging for help and nothing. Does he listen? Does he have something against me?

 

[SoldierOfSoul]

I'm losing who I am..forgetting who I am

Or are you being changed into who He wants you to be? I know its hard to see right now but we must always trust in the Lord's sovereignty no matter what, He has our world in His hands, He has allowed this misery in your (and in mine) life for some reason that you may not be able to see at the moment.

Saying that though probably doesn't help too much right now in your cloud of misery, but just don't stop trusting that the Lord has you in His hands, He will not forsake you, you may be tried by fire, as all of us will be, but when you come out of it you will be like gold to the Lord. Purified by suffering, with a true faith in Him that cannot be rocked.

You will be able to trust in God like Job did, trusting in Him for who He is in Himself. Job did that, and we have even more reason to trust in Him, not only for who He is but for the show of love He displayed for us on Calvary. We can know that no matter what, whatever He allows in our life will be ultimately for our eternal good. Blessed are those mourn and suffer who know the Lord Jesus on earth. We must remember this.

 

[shelovesChrist]

i don't know. it made me feel evil , it made me hate myself. but when i realized others suffered, it felt good to know iwasnt alone. and it feels even better when you began to realize that God is so proud of you, rather than feeling like He is angry. were showing Him that were following Him even when it hurts, even when we can't feel Him, even when we want to give up. and He loves us so much. read the story of Joseph if you have time. look at all he went through, but look at how everything that tried to destory him never prevailed, and how he still reached his destiny. and even with this upon you, you will reach yours. everyday ifelt iwas falling, but now, now they have no power over me. they try, but i regroup and remember Gods love for me. and He understands our heart. praying for you, keep your eyes on Jesus, and on what He can do, and not what you can't. okay. hope i helped some.

 

[Nickieb03]

It just feels like God is trying to teach me a lesson or something. It's so annoying like there is no tomorrow. It feels real and my doctor said it's because I've let my OCD untreated me whole life. Why did I leave it untreated? because I thought EVERYONE had thoughts like this and EVERYONE had compulsions like this. It's just hard sometimes.

 

[shelovesChrist]

God does not wish bad on His children. He didnt create us for us to suffer and have hard times. But He uses all that comes up against us to make us strong, and to let us know that He is God. Yes, God could have let this pass. He could have took them away. But as much as it feels wierd saying this, im glad i had them. im glad He didnt take it away from me. I learned true faith, not based off of feelings, but based off His word. i learned to trust Him even when it didnt feel right, and it all made me stronger. I also learned alot about Him, because I clung to Him, and His word, and He manifested so much in my life. I know that it's rough, but God has thoughts of peace toward us. Meditate on Jeremiah 29:11. We cannot question what He does and why He does it. But we just have to trust Him and press forward. Meditate also on Jeremiah 1:18-19. We're a defenced city. We're protected. They shall not prevail against us. i know it may be hard, because even when i read the word during this trial, blasphemous thoughts and doubts came left to right and it made me not even want to read. but pray and ask Him for the strength, and spend some time in His word, there is power in His word. the more you know the truth, the less you'll fall for lies of doubt in the mind. God is a good God, He is our Father, our provider, He wouldnt never have any intentions of hurting us and thinking evil, that's the devil. God is our Father, and we must trust in Him. and everyday you wake up, every time you pray through this, everytime you read the Bible , and praise Him , His glory is manifested in you. because it shows that no matter what, even with thoughts tryign to get you to turn away from Him, you still are going forth in Jesus name. and He is so proud of you, for loving Him even when it hurts. God seeks that kind of devotion, He delights in it, it makes Him happy, and He will not let this take over you. you will have power over this and you will stand on top on this, keep the faith, you are in HIs hands and cannot be plucked. He loves you, Jesus loves you so much.

 

[shelovesChrist]

and all Christians go through doubt. the thing with the thoughts is that the individuals tends to obsess over it. i know for me at least, everything thought i had i tried to correct it. i felt so bad and it replayed over and over and over again in my head. it made me feel bad, evil. but now they dont have no power over me. i know who i am and whose i am and i know that God is greater than any little thing that runs in my mind. no matter what they say or try to tell us, we are children of the light, we are in His hands, and its not me just saying this to ignore anything, but this is based off scripture. and not off feelings, because if we give into feelings, man, it will have us so messed up. when you see you the way God sees you, and not the way the thoughts make you seem it becomes so much more freeing man.

 

[EternalMoment]

It just feels like God is trying to teach me a lesson or something. It's so annoying like there is no tomorrow. It feels real and my doctor said it's because I've let my OCD untreated me whole life. Why did I leave it untreated? because I thought EVERYONE had thoughts like this and EVERYONE had compulsions like this. It's just hard sometimes.

you answered your own question....you just thought that everyone had the same thinking process. now that you have a map to your brain, you can take steps to get help.