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Why did he? I am nothing more but a disappointment in life and at life.... I pretty much failed at everything to make myself better. I am never good enough for anything. Also I think God ignores my prayers or at least that is how I am feeling like. I don't think there is an upside anymore. I see my peers doing well and I get doors slammed in my face or get cheated on while my friends are married. My car is done while everyone else has a new car..... The list goes on and on. I feel bad. Nothing to show for my life right now
 

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God loves everyone, and nobody does anything to "earn" it. Throughout the Bible, he often looks at people of lowly status, people who look like failures, and find the greatness in them. And God made you for the same reason why he made everyone else: out of love.

It's often difficult to find an "upside" when you're depressed--I know that firsthand. But you still have a life ahead of you: things can change. I often have to remind myself of that.
 
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Praying for you, brother.
You can't 'make yourself better' - that will always make you feel a failure.
I know it's a cliche, but try to give it all to God and let him do it all.
He does have a plan - depression makes it very hard to see that, I know, but it is still true. You are loved and valued - please don't give up. :hug:
 
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It's hard to see the light at the endof the tunnel. I've been depressed, still get depressed sometimes. God loves you, he created you to learn how to love, to love god and love yourself, love all the people around you. love heals your wounds. You are not a failure. God lifts up the weak and humble. Cling to the Lord, and he will save you and bring you out of the valley. Jesus walks with you in the darkness as well as in the light.
 
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everything is dung without God. who cares what happens, if you are not clinging to the only one who matters? may we all be miserable until we let go of the lies this world offers to us. we are all children of God, but we reduce ourselves to thinking we are something when we have certain things? this is folly. God is the upside and the only thing that really matters in this world is to fellowship with and get closer to God. if you feel cut off from God and are hurt by it then you know that you are already on the right path since you desire God and so keep on going. the main thing that matters is to bare many children with God. much fruit of the spirit must grow in you so that you and God together may rejoice. the kingdom of heaven is inside of you, the Holy Spirit wants to burn all the things that chain you down so that you and he may be free in this world together. everlasting joy in the here and now is what God offers you but sin is a veil that blinds us from reality. to completely trust God in the times of darkness is something that only very saintly people do perfectly, but God will grow us up and then we shall stand is the deepest of darkness.

Isa 58:6-12 (YLT)
Is not this the fast that I chose--To loose the bands of wickedness, To shake off the burdens of the yoke, And to send out the oppressed free, And every yoke ye draw off? Is it not to deal to the hungry thy bread, And the mourning poor bring home, That thou seest the naked and cover him, And from thine own flesh hide not thyself? Then broken up as the dawn is thy light, And thy health in haste springeth up, Gone before thee hath thy righteousness, The honour of Jehovah doth gather thee. Then thou callest, and Jehovah answereth, Thou criest, and He saith, `Behold Me.' If thou turn aside from thy midst the yoke, The sending forth of the finger, And the speaking of vanity, And dost bring out to the hungry thy soul, And the afflicted soul dost satisfy, Then risen in the darkness hath thy light, And thy thick darkness is as noon. And Jehovah doth lead thee continually, And hath satisfied in drought thy soul, And thy bones He armeth, And thou hast been as a watered garden, And as an outlet of waters, whose waters lie not. And they have built out of thee the wastes of old, The foundations of many generations thou raisest up, And one calleth thee, `Repairer of the breach, Restorer of paths to rest in.'


it is basically talking about how we need to walk in the Spirit of God and be a light in the world, not being conformed to the world but being conformed to the image of Christ who is already inside of us, we just have to fast from wickedness and the light shines unhindered. Jesus yoke is light even though it seems very heavy at first, concern yourself with being spiritual rather than what happens with other people. don't let evil thoughts dictate who you are. Christ is inside of you, that is who you are, do not believe the outer darkness, believe that God is salvation and do what you think God wants you to do. trust that He will lead you. your life does not have to be grand, your life can seem like nothing to anyone but it is you and God working things out together.

Matt 5:3-9 (YLT)
`Happy the poor in spirit--because theirs is the reign of the heavens. `Happy the mourning--because they shall be comforted. `Happy the meek--because they shall inherit the land. `Happy those hungering and thirsting for righteousness--because they shall be filled. `Happy the kind--because they shall find kindness. `Happy the clean in heart--because they shall see God. `Happy the peacemakers--because they shall be called Sons of God.


be poor concerning everything except God. because he is the real life to have and we really have no clue what God will do with us when he is done preparing us. God will fill you more and more with Himself, just keep asking and do not let evil thoughts or feelings about yourself or other get a hold on you, just ignore them as best as you can. if when you pray you prepare yourself beforehand, try to always be in that kind of state of feeling and mind as much as you can. it becomes easier the more you pray. also i like the kind of prayer that some Christians fear, the prayer of quiet. I just try as much as I can to not think of anything but to have my heart reaching out to God in simple desire or to just be silent for the glory of God. or some people just say a simple word in prayer like if they are feeling sinful then they just meekly pray to God in desire in seeking him "sin, sin" as much as they feel the need to, like a sick puppy who needs it's mothers milk. or pray "Yah" or "God" or "Jah" or "Lord" all simple names for God, as long as your heart is in it God won't be able to resist your cries for long. those kinds of prayers are more to attempt to draw near to God and be humbled or various other attributes of His Holy Spirit which in time will be a lasting effect as you become able to more constantly understand that God never leaves you nor forsakes you. even if your hearts emotions are not in it, remind your soul that it is good to seek the Lord in prayer and that you in fact already are desiring God with your spirit because you feel cut off from Him which you do not like. I highly recommend that you pray to God to give you a taste of his sweetness so that you may be strengthened to cling to him more. praying does a ton more than the world thinks it does, but we are from heaven and not the world and we know how much God wants us to pray to him. also if you feel you can't help people around you at all, praying for them does help, because they often won't pray for themselves.
 
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Why did he? I am nothing more but a disappointment in life and at life.... I pretty much failed at everything to make myself better. I am never good enough for anything. Also I think God ignores my prayers or at least that is how I am feeling like. I don't think there is an upside anymore. I see my peers doing well and I get doors slammed in my face or get cheated on while my friends are married. My car is done while everyone else has a new car..... The list goes on and on. I feel bad. Nothing to show for my life right now


You need to focus on YOUR life and quit comparing yourself to others you know what i mean? Get your stuff together so you can work hard make money, buy that new car you always wanted. Just because a door slammed in your face, and maybe you missed out on an opportunity--don't give up look for new ones. Easier said than done actions speak louder than words. Stay strong, stay positive!

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So how does one "give it up to God?" It sounds odd when you can't touch him or see him?

detach the soul from everything but God so that nothing is in the way between you and God. you will start to see reality in a different way by the grace of God and you will know God is real and very intimate with you. you can taste God, you should keep seeking him until you have a taste of him, then it will be harder to resist his loves. you have to be willing to forsake what you think about him if it hinders you from him. chiefly God is love and mercy and your Father and your husband. you can experience God through his Holy Spirit which can at times burns your heart with a wonderful love that the world does not know. do not desire the feeling of feeling pleasure, desire that Gods pleasing will dwell in you so that you may touch him and see him with your desires and affections, with your heart you may know God. God made us with infinite desire and only Gods infinite love may fill and make us whole. so cast your cares on seeking God because God is always seeking you.

Rom 14:17 (YLT)
for the reign of God is not eating and drinking, but righteousness, and peace, and joy in the Holy Spirit;

Gal 5:22-25 (YLT)
And the fruit of the Spirit is: Love, joy, peace, long-suffering, kindness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law; and those who are Christ's, the flesh did crucify with the affections, and the desires; if we may live in the Spirit, in the Spirit also we may walk;


Phil 3:3 (YLT)
for we are the circumcision, who by the Spirit are serving God, and glorying in Christ Jesus, and in flesh having no trust,

there is a battle inside of us:

Gal 4:29 (YLT)
but as then he who was born according to the flesh did persecute him according to the spirit, so also now;

Gal 5:16-18 (YLT)
And I say: In the Spirit walk ye, and the desire of the flesh ye may not complete; for the flesh doth desire contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit contrary to the flesh, and these are opposed one to another, that the things that ye may will--these ye may not do; and if by the Spirit ye are led, ye are not under law.

Matt 13:45-46 (YLT)
`Again, the reign of the heavens is like to a man, a merchant, seeking goodly pearls, who having found one pearl of great price, having gone away, hath sold all, as much as he had, and bought it.

John 17:1-2 (YLT)
These things spake Jesus, and lifted up his eyes to the heaven, and said--`Father, the hour hath come, glorify Thy Son, that Thy Son also may glorify Thee, according as Thou didst give to him authority over all flesh, that--all that Thou hast given to him--he may give to them life age-during;

1John 4:4-13 (YLT)
Ye--of God ye are, little children, and ye have overcome them; because greater is He who is in you, than he who is in the world. They--of the world they are; because of this from the world they speak, and the world doth hear them; we--of God we are; he who is knowing God doth hear us; he who is not of God, doth not hear us; from this we know the spirit of the truth, and the spirit of the error. Beloved, may we love one another, because the love is of God, and every one who is loving, of God he hath been begotten, and doth know God; he who is not loving did not know God, because God is love. In this was manifested the love of God in us, because His Son--the only begotten--hath God sent to the world, that we may live through him; in this is the love, not that we loved God, but that He did love us, and did send His Son a propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if thus did God love us, we also ought one another to love; God no one hath ever seen; if we may love one another, God in us doth remain, and His love is having been perfected in us; in this we know that in Him we do remain, and He in us, because of His Spirit He hath given us.


so cling to Christ and eat this scripture food to strengthen you that you may have joy in the Holy Spirit. praying to God is also good to strengthen your spirit to firmly cling to God instead of letting the flesh rule over you.

Jude 1:20-21 (YLT)
And ye, beloved, on your most holy faith building yourselves up, in the Holy Spirit praying, yourselves in the love of God keep ye, waiting for the kindness of our Lord Jesus Christ--to life age-during;

Luke 11:9-13 (YLT)
and I say to you, Ask, and it shall be given to you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened to you; for every one who is asking doth receive; and he who is seeking doth find; and to him who is knocking it shall be opened. `And of which of you--the father--if the son shall ask a loaf, a stone will he present to him? and if a fish, will he instead of a fish, a serpent present to him? and if he may ask an egg, will he present to him a scorpion? If, then, ye, being evil, have known good gifts to be giving to your children, how much more shall the Father who is from heaven give the Holy Spirit to those asking Him!'
 
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detach the soul from everything but God so that nothing is in the way between you and God. you will start to see reality in a different way by the grace of God and you will know God is real and very intimate with you. you can taste God, you should keep seeking him until you have a taste of him, then it will be harder to resist his loves. you have to be willing to forsake what you think about him if it hinders you from him. chiefly God is love and mercy and your Father and your husband. you can experience God through his Holy Spirit which can at times burns your heart with a wonderful love that the world does not know. do not desire the feeling of feeling pleasure, desire that Gods pleasing will dwell in you so that you may touch him and see him with your desires and affections, with your heart you may know God. God made us with infinite desire and only Gods infinite love may fill and make us whole. so cast your cares on seeking God because God is always seeking you.

Rom 14:17 (YLT)
for the reign of God is not eating and drinking, but righteousness, and peace, and joy in the Holy Spirit;

Gal 5:22-25 (YLT)
And the fruit of the Spirit is: Love, joy, peace, long-suffering, kindness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law; and those who are Christ's, the flesh did crucify with the affections, and the desires; if we may live in the Spirit, in the Spirit also we may walk;


Phil 3:3 (YLT)
for we are the circumcision, who by the Spirit are serving God, and glorying in Christ Jesus, and in flesh having no trust,

there is a battle inside of us:

Gal 4:29 (YLT)
but as then he who was born according to the flesh did persecute him according to the spirit, so also now;

Gal 5:16-18 (YLT)
And I say: In the Spirit walk ye, and the desire of the flesh ye may not complete; for the flesh doth desire contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit contrary to the flesh, and these are opposed one to another, that the things that ye may will--these ye may not do; and if by the Spirit ye are led, ye are not under law.

Matt 13:45-46 (YLT)
`Again, the reign of the heavens is like to a man, a merchant, seeking goodly pearls, who having found one pearl of great price, having gone away, hath sold all, as much as he had, and bought it.

John 17:1-2 (YLT)
These things spake Jesus, and lifted up his eyes to the heaven, and said--`Father, the hour hath come, glorify Thy Son, that Thy Son also may glorify Thee, according as Thou didst give to him authority over all flesh, that--all that Thou hast given to him--he may give to them life age-during;

1John 4:4-13 (YLT)
Ye--of God ye are, little children, and ye have overcome them; because greater is He who is in you, than he who is in the world. They--of the world they are; because of this from the world they speak, and the world doth hear them; we--of God we are; he who is knowing God doth hear us; he who is not of God, doth not hear us; from this we know the spirit of the truth, and the spirit of the error. Beloved, may we love one another, because the love is of God, and every one who is loving, of God he hath been begotten, and doth know God; he who is not loving did not know God, because God is love. In this was manifested the love of God in us, because His Son--the only begotten--hath God sent to the world, that we may live through him; in this is the love, not that we loved God, but that He did love us, and did send His Son a propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if thus did God love us, we also ought one another to love; God no one hath ever seen; if we may love one another, God in us doth remain, and His love is having been perfected in us; in this we know that in Him we do remain, and He in us, because of His Spirit He hath given us.


so cling to Christ and eat this scripture food to strengthen you that you may have joy in the Holy Spirit. praying to God is also good to strengthen your spirit to firmly cling to God instead of letting the flesh rule over you.

Jude 1:20-21 (YLT)
And ye, beloved, on your most holy faith building yourselves up, in the Holy Spirit praying, yourselves in the love of God keep ye, waiting for the kindness of our Lord Jesus Christ--to life age-during;

Luke 11:9-13 (YLT)
and I say to you, Ask, and it shall be given to you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened to you; for every one who is asking doth receive; and he who is seeking doth find; and to him who is knocking it shall be opened. `And of which of you--the father--if the son shall ask a loaf, a stone will he present to him? and if a fish, will he instead of a fish, a serpent present to him? and if he may ask an egg, will he present to him a scorpion? If, then, ye, being evil, have known good gifts to be giving to your children, how much more shall the Father who is from heaven give the Holy Spirit to those asking Him!'

What if you keep on knocking and no one answers the door?
 
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Success in life

the chief thing to pray for is the Holy Spirit. seek the kingdom of heaven first as the bible says. success in life or failure are both tools God uses to lead people closer to him. also Gods success in life looks differently than what the worlds looks like since human beings have a veil of sin over their face when they do not abide in Christ they can not see reality as good as God can. honestly, being closer to God is the highest success in life you can have. I don't know what your idea of success in life is compared to Gods idea of success in life is but if you prayed for it God might have already given it to you and you don't even notice that you have it. maybe God has set up your life in a way that it will be more successful than you can grasp, and that might include you going through this part of life you are in. seeking the kingdom of heaven first is success. don't judge yourself according to human standards, they do not measure up to the goodness of God. have faith in God that he is giving you exactly what you need rather than doubting him since heavenly faith is good and earthly doubt is evil.

also sometimes God deprives us of certain things because if he gave them to us we might very well run away from him. so both having and not having are both the work of God and he does it in his love which is not based on anything in creation but on his immutable nature and his purpose he purposed for you before any age or world was created.

I can't explain to you the reasons God has allowed you to be how you are right now. he considers so many things that it is at times impossible to understand what is your greatest good that he is always leading you to, though the greatest good is himself. faith is very important, it gives a higher view of things though it may not see clearly at first. God makes all our paths straight in the light of the unity of us with his Holy Spirit. you do not have to listen to thoughts of doubt or anything evil that is holding you back from having success in life. it is hard but with God you can do it. the only thing is that you must go hand and hand with God on your seeking of success. don't hold on to evil and only hold on to good and it will strengthen you.

God is not to be prayed to for advantage. he does not have an advantage in loving you and you should have none when you seek him ( God will bring you to this point, it won't be a burden, it will be joy for you ). you can not let go of God just because things in your life are darkness right now, God has to get all of us past this point. God is not your enemy, he desires to make you perfect and unshakable. God is leading you on to increase your love and forgiveness and all spiritual attributes. he manifest to us many things like our displeasure for certain things we go through, so that we may more clearly see what weeds he wants to pull out of us. the less weeds we have the more mustard plants can grow and heavenly joy is greater than earthly joy. we can experience heavenly joy in the here and now too. we only need to be spiritual and it is ours. being spiritual is not a burden, it is a great relief. the burden is the evil in the world, the burden is the false reality blind humans have created for themselves. God does everything for us for our highest advantage.
 
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the chief thing to pray for is the Holy Spirit. seek the kingdom of heaven first as the bible says. success in life or failure are both tools God uses to lead people closer to him. also Gods success in life looks differently than what the worlds looks like since human beings have a veil of sin over their face when they do not abide in Christ they can not see reality as good as God can. honestly, being closer to God is the highest success in life you can have. I don't know what your idea of success in life is compared to Gods idea of success in life is but if you prayed for it God might have already given it to you and you don't even notice that you have it. maybe God has set up your life in a way that it will be more successful than you can grasp, and that might include you going through this part of life you are in. seeking the kingdom of heaven first is success. don't judge yourself according to human standards, they do not measure up to the goodness of God. have faith in God that he is giving you exactly what you need rather than doubting him since heavenly faith is good and earthly doubt is evil.

also sometimes God deprives us of certain things because if he gave them to us we might very well run away from him. so both having and not having are both the work of God and he does it in his love which is not based on anything in creation but on his immutable nature and his purpose he purposed for you before any age or world was created.

I can't explain to you the reasons God has allowed you to be how you are right now. he considers so many things that it is at times impossible to understand what is your greatest good that he is always leading you to, though the greatest good is himself. faith is very important, it gives a higher view of things though it may not see clearly at first. God makes all our paths straight in the light of the unity of us with his Holy Spirit. you do not have to listen to thoughts of doubt or anything evil that is holding you back from having success in life. it is hard but with God you can do it. the only thing is that you must go hand and hand with God on your seeking of success. don't hold on to evil and only hold on to good and it will strengthen you.

God is not to be prayed to for advantage. he does not have an advantage in loving you and you should have none when you seek him ( God will bring you to this point, it won't be a burden, it will be joy for you ). you can not let go of God just because things in your life are darkness right now, God has to get all of us past this point. God is not your enemy, he desires to make you perfect and unshakable. God is leading you on to increase your love and forgiveness and all spiritual attributes. he manifest to us many things like our displeasure for certain things we go through, so that we may more clearly see what weeds he wants to pull out of us. the less weeds we have the more mustard plants can grow and heavenly joy is greater than earthly joy. we can experience heavenly joy in the here and now too. we only need to be spiritual and it is ours. being spiritual is not a burden, it is a great relief. the burden is the evil in the world, the burden is the false reality blind humans have created for themselves. God does everything for us for our highest advantage.

I feel like giving up a lot of times. All of my peers are so far ahead of me in life that it is a shame. No matter if I try to do better and or pray, the same comes out of it. Same cycle along with the sin repent sin repent cycle too. I knew that my prayers are probably not being heard. I am going through over a decade of the same old stuff. I feel like I have let people down and myself down.
 
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how do you give up? it seems to put you in an even worse state the more you give up. i know about the seemingly endless circle of sin and repent, seems like each time a speck more of you gets chipped off. each person is unique, only God knows the proper things to put you through to make you come out perfect in the end. for a long time I did not realize that i can simply reject sorrow and doubt. it's poison. if you understand that God does not change then you can see that it is we who change. it is we who perceive God in a better view or a worse view. we also do this to ourselves. i have given up many times and even in those times God was still there helping me even though i could not see it at the time. maybe part of your problem is that you have a lot of negative thought patterns? if you rejected all the negative thoughts how would you feel if you only accepted good feelings and thoughts? it is very hard at first to reject the negative because it can get to the point of being automatic. but hope, trust, and love can become automatic too.

listening to positive music can help you along your path if you like music. try to find positive things in your life to help build your hope up and be thankful that it is God blessing you with such things. reading some of the saints has really made a good impact in my life as well, maybe they can help you out too?
 
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how do you give up? it seems to put you in an even worse state the more you give up. i know about the seemingly endless circle of sin and repent, seems like each time a speck more of you gets chipped off. each person is unique, only God knows the proper things to put you through to make you come out perfect in the end. for a long time I did not realize that i can simply reject sorrow and doubt. it's poison. if you understand that God does not change then you can see that it is we who change. it is we who perceive God in a better view or a worse view. we also do this to ourselves. i have given up many times and even in those times God was still there helping me even though i could not see it at the time. maybe part of your problem is that you have a lot of negative thought patterns? if you rejected all the negative thoughts how would you feel if you only accepted good feelings and thoughts? it is very hard at first to reject the negative because it can get to the point of being automatic. but hope, trust, and love can become automatic too.

listening to positive music can help you along your path if you like music. try to find positive things in your life to help build your hope up and be thankful that it is God blessing you with such things. reading some of the saints has really made a good impact in my life as well, maybe they can help you out too?

I think life is going to suck for me in the future...... There is no hope. Nothing ever goes my way. No matter how hard I pray or try. Even the so called prayers other have prayed for me fail to work also. Sometimes I feel better not praying at all. At least I will not be hit with disappointment.
 
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