Where do I start?

[Holiday]

My dh is a nonbeliever. He has lied so many times and the last several years has had issues with porn, chatting online and texting with women etc.

It's been really hard to stay as I grow in my relationship with Christ, I fill like I'm constantly fighting the enemy inside of him. The porn, the violent video games, the lying and so on. Lately he has been acting distant and noncaring (we have been thru some major stuff lately and I've being dealing all alone with no help or care from him)
Now I found a picture he lifted and saved off of myspace with a woman we went to school with. The picture is really very sleezy and I will spare you the details.

I told him I was done. I just couldn't live like this anymore and I would be moving out. He didn't beg me not too, or show any emotion. In fact he stopped talking to ME! Like he has the right to be angry?

I'm a sahm to 4 kids. The youngest a newborn with major medical needs. I have no clue what the first step is?

Do I go to the welfare office and sign up for something? How will I make it? I have zero money and no income. I don't know if I could even find childcare for a baby on medications and oxygen tank? She also has compromised immune system. I don't want to be away from her. I have no clue what to do or where to even start??

 

[ido]

I'm so sorry you're dealing with so many issues all at once. I will be praying for you. I would suggest that you contact both your church office and Legal Aid to see if they can help you with resources.

 

[ddisciple]

goodness, you are in a tight spot.

Would there be any worth or value in trying to talk it out. I know you are having a hard time with talking to him, and he has given you the cold shoulder, but is there any hope for him to realise his wrongdoing and for you and your family to keep together?

reason i ask is its going to be really difficult for you with kids and especially one that needs constant medical attention.
If your not able to get assistance from somewhere else (friends, family or welfare) then maybe things might be too tough for you out on your own.
Could you try getting him to attend marriage counselling? i know its difficult in your shoes, but sometimes a soft approach can yield much sucess.

sorry to hear things are tough, always remember that all things happen for the good of those who love the lord. It will be a tough road no matter what direction you travell, but the lord is with you all the way (dont loose your faith under any circumstances)

 

[Autumnleaf]

Stop the fight and turn it over to God. Love your husband and trust in God.