Earlier in life, way earlier I got into worship music. I even mentioned the name Jesus to a friend, and tried to enter a church. Was denied. I then continued to try and focus on Jesus and listen to worship music.
I was torched in the end, fell into oblivion.
I later believed that christ has poured his spirit onto me years earlier almost making it impossible to not follow him because God was so loud in me it was impossible to mess up, other than sheer rigorous intentional disobedience.
I'm now trying to learn more about Jesus and call on him. It just feels a slap in the face the way things happened earlier in life. Why didn't he hear me when I called upon his name? And also tried with best of intentions to follow him. So many bad things happened after that.
Was I supposed to show some sign of humility, or maybe word my verbal callout different? It's driving me crazy lately.
I'm so sorry to hear about your sad story.
You are not alone. Millions are, and have faced the same collapse.
Some have stopped trying all together. Hundreds are now atheists.
The sad story repeats itself throughout the world.
The
cause is the same, and there is only one
solution.
However, the
conditions differ with each person. If the condition is favorable, the solution can be applied. If not, the
result will always be the same, or worse.
This probably sounds like a riddle, so I will explain.
So, you are standing on a platform, and suddenly it collapses. The platform is weak, even though it was thought to be strong.
The Titanic was thought to be unsinkable. It sunk.
The Cause
Millions of churches are seen as having God's approval. Do they.
Their teachings are seen as helping one get to God... but do they?
If I think I am being spiritually nourished, but I am being fed junk, what will eventually happen?
I will collapse, because I am spiritually malnourished.
That is the cause.
What's the solution?
The Solution
One needs to be fed spiritually - food at the proper time.
Matthew 24:45
“Who then is the faithful and wise servant, whom the master has put in charge of the servants in his household to give them their food at the proper time?
That question... I want to know the answer. Why?
I want to receive this food, and at the proper time, because it comes from the master.
It will nourish me spiritually, because it's not watered down, adulterated junk, coming from an illegitimate source.
The Condition
One's heart condition must be right.
That person must want the truth. Not have itching ears for what they want to hear - the watered down adulterated teachings. 2 Timothy 4:3, 4
That person must have a heart that is moldable. Not hard like stone, unyielding. Ezekiel 11:19 A heart that allows them to be teachable. James 4:6; 1 Peter 5:5
If these conditions are right in that person's heart, they will be drawn by God, and be fed by the faithful and wise servant, whom the master has put in charge of the servants in his household to give them their food at the proper time. John 6:44, 45; Matthew 24:45
If the condition of the heart is not right, that person will be fed by the
lawless one accompanied by the working of Satan, whose work with of
every wicked deception is directed against those who are perishing, because they refused the love of the truth that would have saved them, and God will send them a powerful delusion so that they believe the lie, in order that all those not having believed the truth but having delighted in unrighteousness should be judged.
2 Thessalonians 2:9-12
That is the condition.
The Result
The results will be either one of peace, or one of misery. Isaiah 65:13
If this is what you really sincerely long for - the solution, and its result, then go to God in sincere prayer, asking that he help you to get to know the truth - the unadulterated truth.
Pray about this continually Romans 12:12, until you get it, and remember to thank God afterwards. Colossians 4:2
I'm available if you need further assistance, or have any further questions.
All the best.
