When Times Are rough.

[LostChildinTheMidst]

My worst fear is going to hell. Last year I was a religious OCD freak, now I'm a careless sin wallowing lazy hag. I was born and raised in a Christian home but about last year I was building my relationship with Christ, but of course that was in the summer and when school started I was on a boat ride on and off with God. I used to be super scared when I sinned now I only worry about some sins. HEBREWS 6:4-6 scares the life out of me and that part of the Bible is the reason why I stopped reading the Bible. It's almost as if I'm mentally ill. I don't want to cease sinning while I'm in highschool because I don't want to keep falling into sin and repenting it's just confusing. I want the truth. But it's as if God cares so much about other people than me, because he protects so many people even ones who hurt him so bad. But it's like if I mess up he's going to cast me away. I really don't even think he listens to my prayers anymore. I don't even know how to be sincere
He sees right through me. I wish I died as a baby so I could automatically go to heaven. Now I rlly don't know.

 

[Solomons Porch]

We all mess up and make mistakes, quit being so hard on yourself. Seek the Lord and pray, I pray you find peace in Jesus name. God knows your heart and aint that a good thing? God bless ya

 

[LostChildinTheMidst]

We all mess up and make mistakes, quit being so hard on yourself. Seek the Lord and pray, I pray you find peace in Jesus name. God knows your heart and aint that a good thing? God bless ya

But I have a bad heart

 

[faroukfarouk]

Hi; good to see you; John 14 and John's First Epistle can be instrumental in giving a lot of assurance to the believer.

 

[Godlovesmetwo]

I really don't even think he listens to my prayers anymore. I don't even know how to be sincere
He sees right through me.

Just be quiet in prayer and try to listen to Him as well.
Pray for more sincerity.
He sees through all of us. Don't see yourself as a unique sinner undeserving of God's love. We are all undeserving.
Get some advice on that Bible quote. It shouldn't be ruining your life.

 

[Solomons Porch]

But I have a bad heart

We all have bad hearts that's why Christ died to save us from our-self