i think its pretty clear that God did die for me and he loves me, and if id have been the only human hed have still died.
but i think metal is right,
God isnt going to sacrifice his holiness or his purpose on the earth for all people, just to be with me.
thats why the bible says without holiness no man shall see the Lord, God is not a cellestial beggar, if i die and go to hell, God is not up there crying worrying about how to go on, he is not willing to sacrifice the holiness of heavon to have me there.
and God is also not willing to sacrifice his purpose in the earth, just for me.
moses rebelled and died, God didnt miss a beat, he stepped right over moses and went right on to Joshua.
he didnt just die for me.
God sees the big picture, and im just a dot.
yes God loves me and cares for me,
but i like to go to stadiums and malls and stuff, just to remember how many other people there are in the world, who dont know me and dont need to know me, and it reminds me that Lee Myers is not the pinnacle of Gods purpose, Gods doesnt love me anymore than any of them.
and if Lee Myers died and went to hell, God wouldnt miss a beat, it would only be a small ripple in the sea Gods purpose in creation, and Gods purpose would go on. thats why i must be humble, and submit and get in line, or God will allow me to fall away if i insist long enough.
i mean this kind of truth is realised in things like God telling you to sit down and shut up cus your not the important one in the church service. or God calling you to work in a large corporation, God not giving you special treatment over the rest. Or God calling you to serve in a ministry under another man of God, even though you think your real smart and super spiritual and should be the pastor and could do a better Job.
i mean, im nobody, God would go on without me if I chose it to be that way, and so would the world.
or like God calling you to do something, but you refuse, so God says "ok, i get this other guy to doit" and he moves on without you.
ya know?