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TrustAndObey
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I haven't sat foot in a church since December of last year.
I'm not proud of that.
I have been so mad at God for four months now that I haven't even picked up a Bible, and although I continued to pray (occasionally), it was not the same relationship that I've had with Him in the past. I was praying for someone that I love dearly, but I definitely wasn't talking WITH God.
I miss Him.
I realized today that I actually miss Him a lot.
I had an experience with road rage today. It wasn't my first experience with an angry driver that got mad for absolutely no reason other than I was in front of him and I wasn't going fast enough for his taste....but it was the first time I've experienced something like that with my two children in the car with me.
I felt that motherly instinct swell up and I have never felt so much adrenaline hit me so hard all at once. Then it dawned on me...even with all these emotions and this overwhelming instinct to protect, what could *I* do that would keep this guy from harming me & my children?
Nothing. There's nothing I could do.
I sent up my first genuine prayer in over four months. A true heartfelt "HELP ME PLEASE LORD, HELP ME!"
I'm happy to say that the whole experience ended on a happy note (at least for me it did), and a cop just happened to be coming around the corner as this guy was passing me in a no passing zone.
God didn't turn His back on me and I feel like a dope that it took something like this for me to finally realize it.
I'm just truly thankful this evening that God doesn't turn His back on us, even if we turn our backs on Him.
May every one of you feel the same kind of blessing I feel right now. May you have an experience where you KNOW He's watching out for you, even when you don't think He's around.
God bless,
~Lainie
I'm not proud of that.
I have been so mad at God for four months now that I haven't even picked up a Bible, and although I continued to pray (occasionally), it was not the same relationship that I've had with Him in the past. I was praying for someone that I love dearly, but I definitely wasn't talking WITH God.
I miss Him.
I realized today that I actually miss Him a lot.
I had an experience with road rage today. It wasn't my first experience with an angry driver that got mad for absolutely no reason other than I was in front of him and I wasn't going fast enough for his taste....but it was the first time I've experienced something like that with my two children in the car with me.
I felt that motherly instinct swell up and I have never felt so much adrenaline hit me so hard all at once. Then it dawned on me...even with all these emotions and this overwhelming instinct to protect, what could *I* do that would keep this guy from harming me & my children?
Nothing. There's nothing I could do.
I sent up my first genuine prayer in over four months. A true heartfelt "HELP ME PLEASE LORD, HELP ME!"
I'm happy to say that the whole experience ended on a happy note (at least for me it did), and a cop just happened to be coming around the corner as this guy was passing me in a no passing zone.
God didn't turn His back on me and I feel like a dope that it took something like this for me to finally realize it.
I'm just truly thankful this evening that God doesn't turn His back on us, even if we turn our backs on Him.
May every one of you feel the same kind of blessing I feel right now. May you have an experience where you KNOW He's watching out for you, even when you don't think He's around.
God bless,
~Lainie
