What's the point?

[Ace99]

Why in the middle of everything, do I feel God taking everything away from me, I asked God to take away my fear of not being in a relationship,
and it's nearly all gone, I asked him because of pornography,( in my life before being a christian) to lower my sex drive, for a while so I can be healed,
because I was looking at women and images from films and magazines kept popping into my head and was very disturbing when I looked at women and that's not the way I want to look at them.
He's taken it all my drive away, so hopefully I can heal and I'm hoping he will give me it back, things seem to be going the right way but tonight I woke up, prayed about this girl I really liked I felt such a love in my heart for her when I was praying then I felt God steal all I felt for her and now it's gone and I felt he said brother,
which I'm presuming he means be her brother, I want to be married and hopefully have children, God is doing amazing things in my life but he is letting me in on none of it.
I feel like I'm being used as a puppet, God does amazing things then tells me nothing, I have no idea what's going on in my life, I know nothing, this isn't a relationship it's him doing some great things for me, telling me nothing, I have always had a huge desire for a wife but I was thinking about it all the time so it was like idolatry,
it was getting obsessive. He helped me but I feel even the desires going, so why did I have such a huge desire in the first place didn't he give me it, and why take this girl away from me,
I felt a love for her that I've never felt before it wasn't a lust I wanted to sit with her and read the bible and talk, sure I liked her I thought she was attractive and I would want to kiss her, but I didn't want to sleep with her, I would have wanted to save that if we got married. I didn't really know if she liked me, but I could have found out,
I really feel like everything is being done behind my back and I'm being told nothing, so what's the point. What's the point in giving me thoughts and feelings if I'm not allowed to express them, why give me a heart for a wife, if it's pretty obvious he wants me single, of course I don't fully know as God never speaks, what's the point in all if this.

 

[Pal Handy]

When you pray as you have a prayed, a prayer of surrender, you must trust that
where God leads will be much better than where you are now.

You sound like to me that you are having second thoughts on God intentions and
goodness as if He is leading you into a dark pit.

I would say that from all that we have seen in the Bible, God is preparing
you for blessing and not condemnation or misery.

God is good and whenever He asks us to give up anything, He always replaces
what we give to Him with something better, greater and more blessed in everyway.

God knows how to give His children good gifts.

Sure it is painful now to obey God and let go of a person you think
would make you happy but God isn't trying to make you happy but to
bless you with His love, joy and good gifts that He has for you that will
surpass your idea of "happiness".

God is leading you to Himself first so that when He gives you what He has for you,
you will not forget about Him and end up worse off than when you began.

It is hard when God begins to deal with us and reduce us down, hedge us in and sequester
us in a very limited and confined place where it seems like all else is gone except for God and
your relationship with Him.

Such is the life for a time or season of anyone who seeks to go deeper in God.

Moses had his exile.
The Israelites had their desert.
Joseph had his prison.
David had his escape and exile from Saul.
Jesus had His desert.
Paul had his Arabia.

When God separates a man unto Himself it is not an easy process because so much needs to
die off or die away from our lives before God can bring all of the fullness of His blessings into our lives.

You prayed and God resonded so make the determination in your heart that you are not going to
turn around and run but you are going to go foward in God no matter what because God is good and
God loves you and so whatever He has for you is far superior to anything you could desire for yourself.

 

[joey_downunder]

Quick response from itablet:
So you're saying that you were praying regarding this girl and you felt God steal these feelings from you....
Why are you so quick to assume it was from God? In theory it could have been from stress or even Satan (positive healthy feelings towards a woman attacked). Going on feelings alone as the barometer/road map is a very risky approach to the Christian life.

Pal Handy has said some great things to you. Like he says God wants you to keep you focused on Him.
I pray that you grow in your faith in God that He knows what is best for you.

 

[Aijalon]

Yes, don't be so quick to assume that you are feeling what God wants because in truth often we project our feelings onto God. You have a seriously mixed up set of emotions right now.

God wants you to stay away from sin. Do you feel the best way to do that is alone? My guess is that God would want you in a relationship with a loving caring and PATIENT wife.

Your past pron and thought life addictions are good to recognize and pray against those urges. It will take time.

Now lets talk about your trust and faith in God.

I really feel like everything is being done behind my back and I'm being told nothing, so what's the point.

It is hard to live in faith isn't it. But what is more to the point is that it would seem by your comments that you really do not trust God to do the right things in your life. As though God is just blindfolding you and spinning you in circles for fun. Do you think God is a cruel tyrant that wants you to suffer?

 

[Ark100]

Sounds like you are the one thinking all these things in your head. The fact that God does not speak sometimes does not mean He does not know what is happening or going on. Even a lot of people assume god is telling them to do things that He absolutely did not.
People think so much stuffs in their head and assume so much. They assume God say this, says that, thinks this, thinks that. Even some prophets claim they hear from God when God has not spoken to them.

Your post is so mixed up that it makes me think you are not too sure what you want yourself. God is not the author of confusion and all i see in your post is confusion as to what you want and where you are going. Why would god send someone then take them back away from you. How do you know it was God who sent the person in the first place.

If someone is praying for a wife/husband and a day or two later they meet a nice and lovely person who shows interest in them. They shouldnt automatically assume that is the person God destined for them. You pray, God answers but it doesnt mean the first person or the nice perosn that shows up is the one. Some people make this mistakes in some areas of their lives. They rush ahead into things immediately not clearly seeking God's face, and then when that thing 'kabooms' in their face, they end up blaming God. Meanwhile God's best for them hadn't arrived before they had jumped into the first thing that appeared.

This is a very important message for you that I think you need to take seriously and pray to God about. Don't blame God for the confusion you are going through. God is not the author of confusion. When He says it, He will do it, but at His own time, and with patience and not giving up hope, you will see He will do it. But don't assume some things are from God because they appear instantly before you, beware of deceit. So that when it doesnt work out, you don't blame God

 

[parsley]

I see this as a very practical progression of events. You have met a woman that God asked you to treat as though you were her brother. That does not mean you should drop her, necessarily. In the most direct form, it means you need to clear out all your prior clutter and purely treat her as a brother, before you're ready to move into anything else.

That is not just what you need, but what she needs.

There was a scene in the movie The Family Man
where Nick Cage -- who is living an alternate reality of his own life, and joins up with a family he didn't have in his earlier life... well I'll just show you.

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What's already in your head needs to be replaced and renewed with good things... and that takes time. It will be fine.