whats the point

[baby030306]

Ive been really really depressed for a long time sometimes its not as bad as other times but i am very rarly happy or even close to being happy. I know I sound like I am just feeling sorry for myself but sometimes people just dont really understand what someone else is going threw and whats the worst about my depression is I feel like ive brought all my problems on myself I cant seem to let go of things I have been depressed for prolly 4 years but major depression showed up about 2 years ago and it just wont shake loose, and i have SERIOUSLY have tried EVERYTHING I could think of to do to try to get better nothing so far has worked oh and threw it all I feel like God doesnt care or some times I feel like He isnt going to allow me to be happy and the more i feel these things the worst it makes me feel and the worst it makes me feel like God is not going to give me the things I want because of my thoughts/feelings

I hate feeling these things I just feel so ashamed and worthless I dont know how to fully trust God I dont know how to feel any different then the way I feel I dont feel any hope I just feel like my life is dead.


I really want to be happy I really want to want God I really want to trust God but im so confused right now I cant tell the difference from up and down there is so much more but Ill have to talk about it on a pm or something because i dont feel comfortable writing it here I really need someone to talk to so I can get somethings off my chest and some advise and opinons

 

[nb_christseeker]

i was just about to do a post called 'why do i even bother'. but then i saw yours with 'whats the point' and i can totally identify with your pain. seems like everything i try just ends up in failure. is it my overly high expectations or really a low yield of results when it comes to people? what exactly DO i expect from my friends? and how can i change my expectations if theyre simply unreasonable?

 

[baby030306]

I just dont know what to do to get better or to feel better

 

[Amin]

Hi, baby 030306, I think one of the first things to remember is,God isn't going to react in the way you mentioned. God is faithful, and he wants nothing but good for you. I suffer from depression&anxiety, and you have to know it's depression that causes our mind to think things
about God, that just are'nt true. I can't explain it all, but i know for me it comes down to, am i going to believe myself, that's very prone to making mistakes, and wrong choices, or am i going to believe what i know is true from Gods' word. Depression causes us to think and feel things that just are'nt true. I have some of the same feelings you do, and it's very hard to feel one way, while God is telling us differently. Try to rest in the fact that Gods' Word is true, regardless of how you think God is
thinking. I know one of my biggest questions is, God, how can you even care about me when i feel, and act, and think like this? It makes me feel very distant from God, and that He does'nt even want to look at me.
Somehow, someway, we have to remember that God
knows why we're thinking like this. He knows more about us than we do. It's one of the hardest things to do,
Thinking thoughts as we do, and yet, try to know that it isn't the way God sees' things at all. It's not easy, but,
God does'nt give us a false hope, and somehow, we need to see thru the clouds of depression, and trust God
at his word. I hope i've helped somewhat. Feel free to
PM, or e-mail me any time. Amin.

 

[heatherq17]

Ohhh I feel the same way as you do. I feel like no one whats to hear my problems anymore so I dont ever talk about them. Message me sometime!!

 

[GodlySoul]

Ive been really really depressed for a long time sometimes its not as bad as other times but i am very rarly happy or even close to being happy. I know I sound like I am just feeling sorry for myself but sometimes people just dont really understand what someone else is going threw and whats the worst about my depression is I feel like ive brought all my problems on myself I cant seem to let go of things I have been depressed for prolly 4 years but major depression showed up about 2 years ago and it just wont shake loose, and i have SERIOUSLY have tried EVERYTHING I could think of to do to try to get better nothing so far has worked oh and threw it all I feel like God doesnt care or some times I feel like He isnt going to allow me to be happy and the more i feel these things the worst it makes me feel and the worst it makes me feel like God is not going to give me the things I want because of my thoughts/feelings

I hate feeling these things I just feel so ashamed and worthless I dont know how to fully trust God I dont know how to feel any different then the way I feel I dont feel any hope I just feel like my life is dead.


I really want to be happy I really want to want God I really want to trust God but im so confused right now I cant tell the difference from up and down there is so much more but Ill have to talk about it on a pm or something because i dont feel comfortable writing it here I really need someone to talk to so I can get somethings off my chest and some advise and opinons

The best advice I can give you is don't seek advice on the Internet. Find a real friend in the meat world and talk talk talk. Good luck and cheer up!

 

[baby030306]

what do u mean maet world?

 

[hlaltimus]

Ive been really really depressed for a long time sometimes its not as bad as other times but i am very rarly happy or even close to being happy. I know I sound like I am just feeling sorry for myself but sometimes people just dont really understand what someone else is going threw and whats the worst about my depression is I feel like ive brought all my problems on myself I cant seem to let go of things I have been depressed for prolly 4 years but major depression showed up about 2 years ago and it just wont shake loose, and i have SERIOUSLY have tried EVERYTHING I could think of to do to try to get better nothing so far has worked oh and threw it all I feel like God doesnt care or some times I feel like He isnt going to allow me to be happy and the more i feel these things the worst it makes me feel and the worst it makes me feel like God is not going to give me the things I want because of my thoughts/feelings

I hate feeling these things I just feel so ashamed and worthless I dont know how to fully trust God I dont know how to feel any different then the way I feel I dont feel any hope I just feel like my life is dead.


I really want to be happy I really want to want God I really want to trust God but im so confused right now I cant tell the difference from up and down there is so much more but Ill have to talk about it on a pm or something because i dont feel comfortable writing it here I really need someone to talk to so I can get somethings off my chest and some advise and opinons

Our state of emotions is something which may or may not be correct while the Holy Bible is something which must be correct. There must be many issues in your life right now which will, in good time and industrious application, be resolved but take it from somebody who just found out that he had a senior discount available that he didn't know that he had: You will save a lot of time, trouble and pain if you just make that one Book your absolute and then just believe, fear and obey it consistently. You may not understand just how this can work, but it does work.

 

[missionary1]

Ive been really really depressed for a long time sometimes its not as bad as other times but i am very rarly happy or even close to being happy. I know I sound like I am just feeling sorry for myself but sometimes people just dont really understand what someone else is going threw and whats the worst about my depression is I feel like ive brought all my problems on myself I cant seem to let go of things I have been depressed for prolly 4 years but major depression showed up about 2 years ago and it just wont shake loose, and i have SERIOUSLY have tried EVERYTHING I could think of to do to try to get better nothing so far has worked oh and threw it all I feel like God doesnt care or some times I feel like He isnt going to allow me to be happy and the more i feel these things the worst it makes me feel and the worst it makes me feel like God is not going to give me the things I want because of my thoughts/feelings

I hate feeling these things I just feel so ashamed and worthless I dont know how to fully trust God I dont know how to feel any different then the way I feel I dont feel any hope I just feel like my life is dead.


I really want to be happy I really want to want God I really want to trust God but im so confused right now I cant tell the difference from up and down there is so much more but Ill have to talk about it on a pm or something because i dont feel comfortable writing it here I really need someone to talk to so I can get somethings off my chest and some advise and opinons

Hi baby030306,

What you are experiencing is very real and there are few answers that will satisfy you right now.

The trials that we go through in this life take the wind out of our sails and it is very hard to recover "at times".

Sometimes it is just hard to get back up after trying so very many times.

The one good thing about depression is that we become good listeners . We "hear" and "understand" very clearly those who are going through the same thing.

My heart goes out to you and my hope is that you will realize that there will come a day when you will pass from this stage of your life and enter the joy that is promised to all those who wait patiently on our Lord...

 

[baby030306]

I want to be able to be happy in this life time to I mean I am exspecting a baby in 13 weeks so i would like to be happy so i can help my baby to be happy

 

[TheCrimson]

yeah I feel the same way...

 

[baby030306]

Im constaintly feeling guilty for no reason and i cant figure it out

 

[itsgood]

I feel the same sometimes today I am a bit better

 

[baby030306]

Im feeling a little better

 

[missionary1]

Im feeling a little better

Wonderful! I am thankful that you doing better!

This is definetely an answer to prayer!

 

[baby030306]

I wish I knew what I could to feel all the way better
see yesturday I was feeling better but today Im feeling down again
there is just so many things on my mind and heart
I could use alot of prayers

 

[missionary1]

I wish I knew what I could to feel all the way better
see yesturday I was feeling better but today Im feeling down again
there is just so many things on my mind and heart
I could use alot of prayers

Our prayers are with you baby030306...

Continue to let us know how you are doing

 

[baby030306]

today I went to see a doctor and it looks like the road ahead of me is going to be hard but maybe some day ill get better

 

[missionary1]

today I went to see a doctor and it looks like the road ahead of me is going to be hard but maybe some day ill get better

We will continue to pray for you and be here for you if you want our help...

God loves you and so do all of us here!

Thank you for giving us this update...

 

[baby030306]

I went to see the doc again yestuday and it still looks like this whole thing is going to be very difficult and I am depressed today again