What's the hardest thing to Trust God with for you?

[Blessed2003]

I have been through some very trying times in the past 4 years. I thought I trusted God with everything until slowly but surely everything I knew seemed like an illusion to me. God has allowed my faith to be tested. I have even questioned my own sanity. I realized I did not trust God with my salvation! I realized that I (at one point in my journey) trusted my own (filthy) righteousness. I then began to realize that I am so sinful. It has been very painful to recognize all of the 'secret' sin I have harbored in my heart. I was going with the flow, attending church, feeding the hungry, crying with the broken hearted, doing everything I thought I was supposed to do, the whole while not realizing that I was self-righteous. God, (in His Great and Awesome Mercy) has been very kind and patient with me in sparing my life so that He could show me that any good deed I do is of Him. He has brought me to a place of total dependance on Him. (I am so thankful, I'd go through it all over again to get here too) I do find that I don't trust Him as much as I thought I did. I know Jesus died for the 'sinners' ofcourse, I know I am a sinner, but I have to admit, I have had a hard time accepting that God sent Jesus to die for me, (I mean this with all of my being) I am more sinful than most people I know, If Paul had not already coined the pharse "I am the Chief of sinner" I would say that, because I feel that way. The point I am getting at is that it is all about trust, Trusting that Jesus did die for ME, and that is enough, I will never be 'good enough' to earn what Jesus did for me, I have to trust every day that God is fatithful, even though I am not, and God's sacrifice of His only begotton Son Jesus Christ is the reason I will inherit the Kingdom promised by God Almighty. Please share with me what you all have to work at to Trust God with. Am I the only one who has questioned salvation by thinking that the blood of Jesus was not going to cover my sins. Please share your stories with me.
God BLess
B

 

[C.A.B.L]

Blessed,

I thank God so much for you! First off, the answer to your question for me "What is the hardest thing to Trust God with"? The hardest thing for me to trust God with is the strength to overcome my sin. Oftentimes, I try to go into the battle with no armor. I mean, Jesus defeated the power of sin and death, not us. And yet I always try to do it on my own power, instead of using the power of Jesus to help me. I'm sure Job realized that later in his life, and I think that's what his book was all about. Oftentimes, when I fail and give in to sin, I feel like I have betrayed God and He can never forgive me but often I am reminded of the verse that says "not troubles or tribulations, or angels or demons, can seperate us from the love of God; (paraphrased)" I learned two things very valuable things in my life during a difficult time. One was, if Jesus has already defeated sin then why do we still have to deal with it? and I realized that verse that says "God uses everything for the good for those who love Him; (paraphrased)" now if that is true, then sin can be used for good. And if you think about it, that's totally true! because without sin we could not be tried and tested to that refined silver that the Lord is pushing us toward, a lifestyle only described by the word "Holiness". Second, if Paul was the "Chief of sinners" and God forgave the most wicked of men, then there isn't anything I can do that He won't forgive me of.

 

[Blessed2003]

Thank you so much. Your posts are full of wisdom and always help me so much.
God BLess

 

[JulesM]

I think the thing I struggle to 'trust' God for is his timing. I'm so impatient, I want everything 'now' and I start to get concerned if things aren't moving forward as I would like them to.
BUT there are countless scripture that backs up that Gods timing is perfect, so I need to just trust that, and try to reliquish my control over things.

 

[Blessed2003]

I think the thing I struggle to 'trust' God for is his timing. I'm so impatient, I want everything 'now' and I start to get concerned if things aren't moving forward as I would like them to.
BUT there are countless scripture that backs up that Gods timing is perfect, so I need to just trust that, and try to reliquish my control over things.

Oh, that is so hard though, I know. Relinquishing control is hard for me too. I am use to being in control, after all, it is my life! (I thought it was anyway, LOL) Your right to say God's timing is perfect, Have you ever heard the serenity prayer? It goes like this, "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, The courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference" I have had to practice praying this prayer many times when I once again relinquish control, as if I ever had control in the first place. ha. thank you for your post.
God Bless

 

[Mary_Magdalene]

me too julesm! I am also a very control minded person. i like to take charge and get things done my way. This is a struggle every day! Praise God-He is so patient with me.

 

[thirsty]

I have been through some very trying times in the past 4 years. I thought I trusted God with everything until slowly but surely everything I knew seemed like an illusion to me. God has allowed my faith to be tested. I have even questioned my own sanity. I realized I did not trust God with my salvation! I realized that I (at one point in my journey) trusted my own (filthy) righteousness. I then began to realize that I am so sinful. It has been very painful to recognize all of the 'secret' sin I have harbored in my heart. I was going with the flow, attending church, feeding the hungry, crying with the broken hearted, doing everything I thought I was supposed to do, the whole while not realizing that I was self-righteous. God, (in His Great and Awesome Mercy) has been very kind and patient with me in sparing my life so that He could show me that any good deed I do is of Him. He has brought me to a place of total dependance on Him. (I am so thankful, I'd go through it all over again to get here too) I do find that I don't trust Him as much as I thought I did. I know Jesus died for the 'sinners' ofcourse, I know I am a sinner, but I have to admit, I have had a hard time accepting that God sent Jesus to die for me, (I mean this with all of my being) I am more sinful than most people I know, If Paul had not already coined the pharse "I am the Chief of sinner" I would say that, because I feel that way. The point I am getting at is that it is all about trust, Trusting that Jesus did die for ME, and that is enough, I will never be 'good enough' to earn what Jesus did for me, I have to trust every day that God is fatithful, even though I am not, and God's sacrifice of His only begotton Son Jesus Christ is the reason I will inherit the Kingdom promised by God Almighty. Please share with me what you all have to work at to Trust God with. Am I the only one who has questioned salvation by thinking that the blood of Jesus was not going to cover my sins. Please share your stories with me.
God BLess
B

I could easily write the same thing. I feel the same way sometimes and know where you are coming from. The devil likes to put lies in our heads. He trys to tell us God does not hear our prayers, we have sinned too much or done something so terrible that God will never forgive us. These are all lies from the father of all lies.
When you have these thoughts you know where they come from and rebuke them. I am learning to do this also. Keep looking to the Lord and He will bring you through what ever you are facing. Peace.

 

[Rie]

I have the hardest time trusting in the Lord to provide for me! I keep telling myself I'm going to trust in the Lord this time but always at the very last minute I give in to my own desires and push foward. That's the most difficult for me. Plz pray for me learn to trust in the Lord.

 

[rainbowprism]

This probably going to sound silly, but the one thing that I have a hard time trusting God with is when/if ever He is going to bless me with a future spouse!!! (blushes)

 

[Bartimaeus]

Oh, that is so hard though, I know. Relinquishing control is hard for me too. I am use to being in control, after all, it is my life! (I thought it was anyway, LOL) Your right to say God's timing is perfect, Have you ever heard the serenity prayer? It goes like this, "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, The courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference" I have had to practice praying this prayer many times when I once again relinquish control, as if I ever had control in the first place. ha. thank you for your post.
God Bless

Boy, do I ever relate to the two of you. I felt like I was reading about myself here.

I know the serenity prayer very well. Sometimes I feel like an actor who wants to control the whole production,: lights, set, music, props, etc.

That's why my biggest trust issue with God, ironically, is the small stuff. I mean the daily decisions I should be asking His guidance on. I either assume that my decision came from God, or that He won't mind the dicision I made.

I really do need to give that over to Him, and not take it back.

 

[Blessed-one]

the hardest thing to trust.. trust that he has heard my prayer and WILL answer. I know His answer might not be the answer i want, but sometimes.. uh no, most of the times especially when they're big things, i hold the attitude that if nothing happens, then nevermind. If things happened, good. So i don't know whether i'm really trusting in Him or not. It doesn't seem like trust, it feels more like resignation..

 

[Blessed2003]

I thank you all so much for your sharing with me what you have a hard time trusting. I know that one way or another what ever we lack in, God will complete the good work in us that He started through His Son.
I pray for all of us, I pray that God will show us how to trust Him for everything.
In the name of Jesus

 

[songz777]

Blessed I think all of us have doubted our salvation etc,,,i did it was horrible but God pulled me through and now 21 yrs later Im here to say to you, HE WILL BLESS YOU beyond all your dreams really!!! Just hang in there girl. dont give up, coz Jesus aint gonna give up on you..bless you John

 

[Blessed2003]

I have to say that my feelings sometimes fluctuate as much as a leaf blowing up and down in the wind, and I am learning not to listen to them all of the time. Praise God, May He give me patience! Anyway, I wanted to say that I am learning to trust, even since I posted this! It has been revealed to me, and I am pretty certain, not based on myself, ofcourse, (that should go without saying, but for the benefit of one who may not know) that I will receive the gift of salvation. Jesus is calling me to know him more, (Thank God) and I do trust that I am one of His own. He used scripture to speak to me about His salvation. I have not laid hold of it yet, but I am forgetting the things that lie behind me, and pressing on to the things ahead! (in the famous words of Paul) In this process I beg for constant forgiveness, there is not one day that goes by that I do everything as I should. I am sorry God, but I know it is OK today.
God Bless
B

 

[Nessie]

The hardest thing for me to trust God with would actually be two things... and I find my trust being tested every day.

One, my health. Not only do I have chronic migraines, but I have a blood disorder as well. These problems seem to get better at one point, then all of a sudden, WHAM, they're back and ten times worse.

Secondly, I have a problem with losing people--whether it be through death, having to move, or abandonment. Sometimes I wonder if God has abandoned me.

I just have to remember that God promises to never leave me. And sometimes that takes having friends to help me remember, which is why I thank God for letting me find CF.

 

[Redeemed 39]

Same with me "Blessed-one"...especially when it comes to prayers that involve healing...and I hate to say that...I'm working on it really hard...

 

[BlestVessel]

My Sweet Blessed!
How I love your honesty and openness! I pray that none would judge you or condemn you for your human emotions and willingness to share them.

I think God draws our doubts to our attention so we can surrender what we don't know, don't understand or don't fully believe, and He'll use that weakness to show His strength there! "Oh ye of little faith" becomes "Well done, thou good and faithful servant" by His grace.

I doubt where I should just ask confirmation. God speaks to me and I sometimes doubt what He tells me, to the point that I'll ask every believer what THEY think, then by the time I'm thoroughly confused by their responses, I FINALLY run to Him and give it up. If He wants ya to know and you want to know, you will. It's so simple yet a bit of a challenge when His words are sometimes so unexpected, unfathomable! The same thing happens when He asks of me to do what is FAR beyond my understanding, to step out in faith and just do it without taking an hour to analyze the possible consequences-which I need to learn to hate doing! Thankfully, He rewards our faith leaps one way or another, even if the outcome isn't what we want. Example: in speaking to someone as commanded, the recipient may despise us rather than falling to their knees in worship and recognizing that they need the Lord...... but we don't know what seed He's planted by our obedience. His reward then, is to come when we get home and is also in the peace and contentment and comfort He provides in following suit. Trusting is knowing He never fails, and somehow or another, we'll come to that belief in fullness, in everything.

Love to You in our Lord,
April

 

[BlestVessel]

if Jesus has already defeated sin then why do we still have to deal with it? and I realized that verse that says "God uses everything for the good for those who love Him; (paraphrased)" now if that is true, then sin can be used for good

Just to clarify, Christ did defeat sin, yet we do not constantly live in Him, but also in our flesh which is sinful. Daily, we surrender all in us and all we do up to Christ in order that He shed this dead skin and live through us. It is our desire to live in the dead skin that creates a dilemma. That state of "not Christ, but I" is the only way we can fall. While it is true that God can use anything for good, this in no way condones sin and it shouldn't be acceptable to us as we continually aim to "sin no more." I know you didn't mean to say that we should just go ahead and sin, but in that context, it could easily be received as saying that God's okay with sin, even enjoys it so that He can use it. He does joyfully make all things new out of Love for us, and few things are more precious to cling to! Didn't mean to be picky about it, it's just important to me that the full Truth be there.

Much Love,
His April