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This question is directed to those with a year or more of sobriety NOT in a 12 step program and whose HP is Jesus.
I went to treatment last year (for the third time) and stayed clean by going to a halfway house and going to AA six nights a week. At five months clean I relapsed. Then I stayed clean another month. After that it's been a roller coaster of sobriety and relapses.
I just don't care for AA. It bores me to tears. I hate sitting in a room for an hour. I need interaction.
I had been confused as to why I kept relapsing but then on Sunday during and after church, it came to me: My addiction was beaten when Christ died on the cross. He suffered so I don't have to. I guess I always thought I should suffer, but in reality, I don't have to suffer. I don't have to struggle against the devil and his lies because he's defeated already.
My mom is totally negative about this. She calls herself a christian, yet she doesn't believe the Christ alone can heal me from addiction. Seems hypocritical. I told her if she didn't believe that I didn't want to listen to her go on and on bout how I need to do this and do that. No human power (psychologist, psychiatrist or group) can save me. Only Christ can.
I need support in this.
I went to treatment last year (for the third time) and stayed clean by going to a halfway house and going to AA six nights a week. At five months clean I relapsed. Then I stayed clean another month. After that it's been a roller coaster of sobriety and relapses.
I just don't care for AA. It bores me to tears. I hate sitting in a room for an hour. I need interaction.
I had been confused as to why I kept relapsing but then on Sunday during and after church, it came to me: My addiction was beaten when Christ died on the cross. He suffered so I don't have to. I guess I always thought I should suffer, but in reality, I don't have to suffer. I don't have to struggle against the devil and his lies because he's defeated already.
My mom is totally negative about this. She calls herself a christian, yet she doesn't believe the Christ alone can heal me from addiction. Seems hypocritical. I told her if she didn't believe that I didn't want to listen to her go on and on bout how I need to do this and do that. No human power (psychologist, psychiatrist or group) can save me. Only Christ can.
I need support in this.