The dysthymia I have had since 1998 has reared its ugly head. I know it is a cumulative effect of the past two years of my life which were negatively highlighted by almost getting evicted while at the same time my ex-wife sided with her family in their betrayal of me, and wanting a divorce. (Next month will be one year the judgment came in from the court.) I also have long-standing career discontentment and often feel frustrated, discouraged and lost.
To counter this, I have been pouring over and praying over several scriptures (along with seeking a therapist.) The most prominent one I would like to share with us divorced folks.
1 Corinthians 2:5King James Version (KJV)
That your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.
An interpretation from another Christian site of this verse, which I love, is:
Lord God, help me to have faith in You, regardless of what I might see,
think, or feel. Help me to completely put my faith in You
and trust only in Your power.
I have cried and cursed my "why?'s" to the Lord...about my divorce, my continuous lack of career contentment, the equally continuous delay of business aspiration, and other things. I probably will continue to cry and curse my questions...though now I am learning to abide by this scripture and the interpretation. I am starting to learn to trust more in God, rather than in what I feel, hear, or see. It's not easy, especially with my personality. Yet, Joyce Meyer has/had a similar personality as mine and I recall her saying "I don't know why, but He knows. And that's good enough for me."
I hope this helps you.
God's timing (and humor?) happened this morning with what I got in yesterday's mail. There was a notice for durable medical equipment for my ex-mother-in-law. This and what to do with it abruptly interrupted my saddened and anxious state. I came up in the elevator with my super who knows about my divorce and I showed him the envelope and wondered whether I should forward it or trash it. I did not openly ask for his opinion (though I hoped he would offer it.) He just laughed and said that it was for me to decide. I jokingly acted dejected and said, "I was hoping you'd give me your opinion."
So, I could
a) Throw it out or shred it
b) Write on it "Return to sender" and send it back
c) Return it to my ex (who I haven't had any contact with almost two years and who also didn't give thanks when I returned her Virgin Mary picture during the difficult period in 2012) without a note.
d) Return it to my ex with a brief note, asking her to make sure her mother's medical records are correctly addressed
e) d) with the following additional bit in the letter. "This will be the last time I return anything of yours or your mother's. You showed no gratitude when I returned your Virgin picture in 2012. I also recall your abandonment of me in my hour of need for your family and will thus abandon any further mailings to the garbage bag.")
To counter this, I have been pouring over and praying over several scriptures (along with seeking a therapist.) The most prominent one I would like to share with us divorced folks.
1 Corinthians 2:5King James Version (KJV)
That your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.
An interpretation from another Christian site of this verse, which I love, is:
Lord God, help me to have faith in You, regardless of what I might see,
think, or feel. Help me to completely put my faith in You
and trust only in Your power.
I have cried and cursed my "why?'s" to the Lord...about my divorce, my continuous lack of career contentment, the equally continuous delay of business aspiration, and other things. I probably will continue to cry and curse my questions...though now I am learning to abide by this scripture and the interpretation. I am starting to learn to trust more in God, rather than in what I feel, hear, or see. It's not easy, especially with my personality. Yet, Joyce Meyer has/had a similar personality as mine and I recall her saying "I don't know why, but He knows. And that's good enough for me."
I hope this helps you.
God's timing (and humor?) happened this morning with what I got in yesterday's mail. There was a notice for durable medical equipment for my ex-mother-in-law. This and what to do with it abruptly interrupted my saddened and anxious state. I came up in the elevator with my super who knows about my divorce and I showed him the envelope and wondered whether I should forward it or trash it. I did not openly ask for his opinion (though I hoped he would offer it.) He just laughed and said that it was for me to decide. I jokingly acted dejected and said, "I was hoping you'd give me your opinion."
So, I could
a) Throw it out or shred it
b) Write on it "Return to sender" and send it back
c) Return it to my ex (who I haven't had any contact with almost two years and who also didn't give thanks when I returned her Virgin Mary picture during the difficult period in 2012) without a note.
d) Return it to my ex with a brief note, asking her to make sure her mother's medical records are correctly addressed
e) d) with the following additional bit in the letter. "This will be the last time I return anything of yours or your mother's. You showed no gratitude when I returned your Virgin picture in 2012. I also recall your abandonment of me in my hour of need for your family and will thus abandon any further mailings to the garbage bag.")
! Besides taking the high road, I decided I do not want to waist a stamp, envelope, time and energy with a dramatic reply. I am either going to toss or Return to Sender.
Olds.
