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seekHisMercy
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I'm going out on a limb here with what I am about to say.
I turned my life back over to God about 5 months ago. I was in bad shape. I sought the Lord's help with all my heart. I returned back to church after nearly 25 or more years of not going much, or at all. A day came when I found myself looking back in time at me and the person I was. I was displeased and ashamed.
About a month or more would pass. I had read of people being spoken by God and had written it off to only most favored and privileged. One day during prayer I was desperate for the Lord to enter my life in a means I could understand. I was waiting for a thunderous appearance with a loud authoritative voice to start talking. This wouldn’t come. Instead a small voice starting talking to me, in my head. I was almost in a trance during this prayer. We He started talking I asked right away, where is the loud voice? What about all this grand appearance stuff? The voice quietly said “Surprise!” with a chuckle. We chatted for a bit much like a father and son would. In a nut shell he said this had to kept brief and simple (indicating I was not ready for more yet). I was given certain instructions, about cleaning myself up and getting myself together and so on. Then we would talk some more. We talked a few more times after that through the next week. He told me some things that would and would not happen, but much time would have to pass to prove this.
Months of silence had gone by and I was worried about my Christianity even though I had been working hard for myself and God. I was desperate for his presence and conversation again. Well it’s just like the Lord to know all your weaknesses and sins and how to test a person, so he did. I’m a little nervous here, bear with me.
About a week ago (after praying for humility for a couple of days ) I was laying on the floor reading to my son and I put the book down and just closed my eyes. Suddenly I could feel a sensation like being lightened up weight coming off of me. I have the impression it was the holy spirit running through me. Again that voice came back. He told me something about now is the time ask and you shall receive. I’m a little foggy on this one and wasn’t able to record it after it happened.
So yesterday I was slammed. The Lord came to me again and started talking like a father to a son again right out of the blue. Thinking this is my mind playing tricks on me I try to fight it but the voice would not go away. Being a little convinced I’m ready for the funny farm now he said “don’t believe me “? And he showed me an image of a man on the phone I was talking to and had never met before, and said this is a picture of the man you are about to meet. In my head was an image of a man, a picture more or less. I went to meet the man and when I found him I must have looked like I had seen a ghost. He was the image the Lord had shown me in my head. This is all very strange to me as we keep talking in complete silence throughout my work day. I’m under the impression this only happens in utter silence during intent listening with all my heart or something. More over, why me? I went to a place I like to visit and get some chocolate from the candy dish, and the voice said loudly “don’t”! as I reached my hand into the bowl “never eat the candy from this dish again” I pulled my hand out just in the nick of time. “You can interpret it as the fruit Eve ate” Ok I said, you’re the boss. He said to trust in him on this one, have faith and don’t touch that candy dish again. I told him there was something I wanted to do after work, and he said “I wouldn’t advise it, on this day it would not be good to be late” I told him yeah but it will only be a few extra minutes he said something like trust me you can if you like but there may be a price to pay for it. I heeded the warning and went straight home and a good thing because 45 minutes later would be my first parent/teacher meeting at my son’s school. I had wanted to call my wife and ask her if it would be ok if I were late but the Lord said don’t and I didn’t, again with good reason because she gets fumed when I have to be told twice or 3 times on something. I’m into my 4th hour of God talking to me as I go about my day and the Lord keep proving to me his presence and with his telling of future events only moments away from happening. So at one point (being overwhelmed) I asked the Lord if I was a prophet and he said no. I felt relieved to be honest. He told me he talks to others like this too. But because my mind was so full of doubt of his talking to me the only way he could prove it was to show me future events only minutes before they happened. In return he has instructed me to be blindly obedient to him and to trust in him and all will be well. Around 8:00 I asked God if we could stop I was very tired and no longer rational, he told me it was fine and he understood.
This morning I woke up and there was silence again. But when I got to work he started talking to me again right out of the blue. He told me to come here with this name “seekHisMercy” and discuss what’s happened. At this point I feel like a lunatic.
I don’t really feel like I am the kind of person God would speak to on this level and while I’m grateful I am also afraid. I inquired with him on this and he explained why which left me with great hope. I ask you now, am I a nut or has this happened to you too?
I turned my life back over to God about 5 months ago. I was in bad shape. I sought the Lord's help with all my heart. I returned back to church after nearly 25 or more years of not going much, or at all. A day came when I found myself looking back in time at me and the person I was. I was displeased and ashamed.
About a month or more would pass. I had read of people being spoken by God and had written it off to only most favored and privileged. One day during prayer I was desperate for the Lord to enter my life in a means I could understand. I was waiting for a thunderous appearance with a loud authoritative voice to start talking. This wouldn’t come. Instead a small voice starting talking to me, in my head. I was almost in a trance during this prayer. We He started talking I asked right away, where is the loud voice? What about all this grand appearance stuff? The voice quietly said “Surprise!” with a chuckle. We chatted for a bit much like a father and son would. In a nut shell he said this had to kept brief and simple (indicating I was not ready for more yet). I was given certain instructions, about cleaning myself up and getting myself together and so on. Then we would talk some more. We talked a few more times after that through the next week. He told me some things that would and would not happen, but much time would have to pass to prove this.
Months of silence had gone by and I was worried about my Christianity even though I had been working hard for myself and God. I was desperate for his presence and conversation again. Well it’s just like the Lord to know all your weaknesses and sins and how to test a person, so he did. I’m a little nervous here, bear with me.
About a week ago (after praying for humility for a couple of days ) I was laying on the floor reading to my son and I put the book down and just closed my eyes. Suddenly I could feel a sensation like being lightened up weight coming off of me. I have the impression it was the holy spirit running through me. Again that voice came back. He told me something about now is the time ask and you shall receive. I’m a little foggy on this one and wasn’t able to record it after it happened.
So yesterday I was slammed. The Lord came to me again and started talking like a father to a son again right out of the blue. Thinking this is my mind playing tricks on me I try to fight it but the voice would not go away. Being a little convinced I’m ready for the funny farm now he said “don’t believe me “? And he showed me an image of a man on the phone I was talking to and had never met before, and said this is a picture of the man you are about to meet. In my head was an image of a man, a picture more or less. I went to meet the man and when I found him I must have looked like I had seen a ghost. He was the image the Lord had shown me in my head. This is all very strange to me as we keep talking in complete silence throughout my work day. I’m under the impression this only happens in utter silence during intent listening with all my heart or something. More over, why me? I went to a place I like to visit and get some chocolate from the candy dish, and the voice said loudly “don’t”! as I reached my hand into the bowl “never eat the candy from this dish again” I pulled my hand out just in the nick of time. “You can interpret it as the fruit Eve ate” Ok I said, you’re the boss. He said to trust in him on this one, have faith and don’t touch that candy dish again. I told him there was something I wanted to do after work, and he said “I wouldn’t advise it, on this day it would not be good to be late” I told him yeah but it will only be a few extra minutes he said something like trust me you can if you like but there may be a price to pay for it. I heeded the warning and went straight home and a good thing because 45 minutes later would be my first parent/teacher meeting at my son’s school. I had wanted to call my wife and ask her if it would be ok if I were late but the Lord said don’t and I didn’t, again with good reason because she gets fumed when I have to be told twice or 3 times on something. I’m into my 4th hour of God talking to me as I go about my day and the Lord keep proving to me his presence and with his telling of future events only moments away from happening. So at one point (being overwhelmed) I asked the Lord if I was a prophet and he said no. I felt relieved to be honest. He told me he talks to others like this too. But because my mind was so full of doubt of his talking to me the only way he could prove it was to show me future events only minutes before they happened. In return he has instructed me to be blindly obedient to him and to trust in him and all will be well. Around 8:00 I asked God if we could stop I was very tired and no longer rational, he told me it was fine and he understood.
This morning I woke up and there was silence again. But when I got to work he started talking to me again right out of the blue. He told me to come here with this name “seekHisMercy” and discuss what’s happened. At this point I feel like a lunatic.
I don’t really feel like I am the kind of person God would speak to on this level and while I’m grateful I am also afraid. I inquired with him on this and he explained why which left me with great hope. I ask you now, am I a nut or has this happened to you too?
