What Do You Seek In A Man?

[Antari Zephyr]

Note that I'm not asking for someone to date, just for opinions.
I have wondered this for most of my life. That picture is of a rare moment when my face isn't covered in a terrible rash. I'm small, 5' 3", and due to my bad health, I've barely any teeth and can't gain weight. I used to be very socially awkward, but overcame it, then my health went bad. I lost my short term memory, mobility, and a lot of my speech since my brain doesn't relay what I'm thinking to my mouth. That causes me to stutter or use the wrong words.
So, to me, what I seek in a woman has nothing to do with her appearance, health, money, etc., nothing like that. Sure, pretty women are nice, but being pretty is nothing compared to being a woman of God. I look for women who are devoted to The Lord, a woman who if she were to marry me, would actually love God more than me.

So, women, what do you look for. I don't judge people, so you can just be honest. I am a cripple, with many health problems and I cannot express my feelings well due to my brain being damaged. I'm not asking if you'd like me, but would you actually be able to marry a guy like that if he were devoted to The LORD?
I ask because right now, I feel like I'm incapable of ever finding love. I've only dated once, and it was long distance, so I'm not even really sure how to act. I even live with my parents since I'm poor due to being unable to work because of my health. In this world, this society's view, I would be a "loser." However, I doubt God would see someone the way society does.

Anyway, thank you in advance for anyone who answers.

 

[Swords&Sunflowers]

Hey, i noticed no one replied to this thread just yet...imo, those desires you have are legit and it is good to have them, despite the many challenges you mentioned, there might or might not be someone out there for you, but it is good that you know what characteristics you are looking for. I say, continue to surrender your desires to God, and don't let it consume you. Always remember that no person can give you identity, purpose, and acceptance...only God can do these things.

I agree with a preacher who said that 3 things women need in a man is security, affection, and communication. For me, I see how a guy loves God, himself, his family, and those around him, and it is important that I sense chemistry and compatibility (and humor). I have a lists, just so I can keep myself in check because I'm the type who can overlook people's flaws too easily, and find myself with the wrong crowd or person. But the older I get, the more I long for a spiritually mature man, someone who can compliment my personality and serve God with me.