Janine said:
I am really struggling to be a Christian
We can't struggle to be Christians; we either are Christians or we are not.
"In reply Jesus declared, 'I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again." - John 3:3
"'I tell you the truth, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from to life.'" - John 5:24
Janine said:
I just feel so alone. I'm either going to be on fire for God or not at all. For me, being a Christian is really hard with today's temptations of the world. It's really depressing me, and i don't feel God helping me. I can't struggle on like this for the rest of my life.
It's good that you want to be holy. That's great! God is with you all the time,
whether you feel Him or not.
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." - 1 Corinthians 10:13
The beauty of this verse is that it shows us we can simply choose to obey. I know that sounds too easy. I have sin addictions myself and it is very hard to say no to those passions. But God is still with me.
"For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
As a father has compassion on his children,
so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;
for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust. " - Psalm 103:11-14