I'm at an odd time now-between jobs. My feelings seem to go from great to no so great when I feel I should just trust in God. I know feelings can be fickle so I try not to act on them too much but they are also there for a reason. This makes no sense...
I've recently graduated from professional school and the job I had counted on was not there at the last minute so when I scrambled to find another I found a saturated local market as my peers had made arrangements. Now I feel like the one left standing in a musical chairs game. This has given me time to study for boards and look for work, next week should pass boards and local work seems hard to find. My wife wants to stick around here but...see above... Jobs three to four hours away are plentiful and pay more. It looks like two months out or so jobs will open up in our area and my wife and I have the reserves to last farther out than that so there's no logical reason for me to worry or sweat it yet I do. It came on after this weekend where I was at a get together with family and friends where they asked about my work status which was a fair question but threw me off nonetheless. Then Monday and Tuesday my wife was miffed at me for everything until I showed her what I've been doing looking for work and explained how I planned things out. When my wife questions what I do it usually annoys me, as I feel God directs my path, but this time its different.
Now my wife is okay with things but I've got a nagging feeling that just won't go away. Its odd for me to feel this way. Maybe I'm way off in some area of my life and just don't see it yet? Who knows.
What do you all do when you feel such edgyness? I've been praying.
I've recently graduated from professional school and the job I had counted on was not there at the last minute so when I scrambled to find another I found a saturated local market as my peers had made arrangements. Now I feel like the one left standing in a musical chairs game. This has given me time to study for boards and look for work, next week should pass boards and local work seems hard to find. My wife wants to stick around here but...see above... Jobs three to four hours away are plentiful and pay more. It looks like two months out or so jobs will open up in our area and my wife and I have the reserves to last farther out than that so there's no logical reason for me to worry or sweat it yet I do. It came on after this weekend where I was at a get together with family and friends where they asked about my work status which was a fair question but threw me off nonetheless. Then Monday and Tuesday my wife was miffed at me for everything until I showed her what I've been doing looking for work and explained how I planned things out. When my wife questions what I do it usually annoys me, as I feel God directs my path, but this time its different.
Now my wife is okay with things but I've got a nagging feeling that just won't go away. Its odd for me to feel this way. Maybe I'm way off in some area of my life and just don't see it yet? Who knows.
What do you all do when you feel such edgyness? I've been praying.