I've been up all night and my mind is racing so watch out for a wall of text. (probably should have proofread)
Hi. I 30 years old (31 in May). I was born into a Catholic family and baptized Catholic in a small town. I went to C.C.D. growing up and Confirmation classes in high school, but I was never Confirmed. I can't really remember how it went down because it was so long ago. I think it was something weird because I was the only one left in my class or I was supposed to find a sponsor, but or else the whole thing never happened for some reason because there were just so few kids. I was also elected as the Representative of the Interfaith Youth, it was like all the church kids in town and I don't really remember my duties other than showing up for the meetings.
I'm pretty much a recluse in a somewhat larger town than I grew up in. I'm a disabled schizoaffective under outpatient commitment, so I have to take meds or get EPC'd (like arrested, but to a hospital). I'm really looking to start going to church more often again. I was going every Sunday with my brother and his wife, but he moved to a different city in 2013 and I felt too odd to go alone (also I have to walk all the way there). He was never Confirmed either for the same odd reason I wasn't, but in those years he was taking adult Catholic classes at the church in this town with his wife and I think he was finally Confirmed in an adult version of the ceremony (I can't remember what, maybe just Confirmation). Anyway I think church will help get me out of this dark bubble of isolation and help with my life. I was much more happy and creative when I was hanging out with my brother.
I can also always go to the mental illness clubhouse (in fact I was even ordered to go at a time in my life), but when they aren't going bowling on Friday it's pretty much just sitting there waiting for the bell to ring. Nobody talks.
I've been spending a lot of time on the internet my whole life. I've got a associates degree in web design, illustration, and computer arts. I had a volunteer job walking pound dogs, but I'd rather be on my computer writing scripts, making web comics, and sharing them on my blog. One of my Tumblr scripts on Greasyfork has over 1000 installs, so I like to tell myself that debugging that script and keeping the userbase pleased is a much more fulfilling volunteer job, and I don't have to pick up dog duty with a grocery bag.
However, leaving me alone all week long with a computer and an internet connection is also dangerous. I've been doing the forums thing for 100% of the social activity need for most of my life and 3 out of 3 of my past therapists said that's a NO-NO. My personality on a forum is so much not the real me because I can let any of my random thoughts fly out at innocent anonymous strangers and I get in trouble a lot. It's mostly in topics about race, gender, politics, religion, all those kind of button topics, ect. I usually post really stupid things because I have no real opinion one way or the other and I just post whatever instant thought I think sounds good. I don't mean to become a jerk, it's just that when I want to post something I really take no time to articulate the thought out. Or else, just any type of plain topic, if I'm in the zone for replies, I find myself trolling when I don't even mean to.
I've been posting on anime forums, flash cartoon forums, gamer forums, forums of adult content where the users are ironically not very adult acting, ect. It usually comes down to: I open the browser and without even thinking, I'm at the forum again and I didn't even realize it, like a bad relationship or drug addiction, and so far what I've been doing is literally asking the admins of those forums to ban me so I can't come back. I've been request banned from three forums, and have lost interest in the inactive ones.
This is my first Christian forum. My goal for joining a Christian forum is to be among content that's (not to stereotype but) down-to-earth and mature wholesome content, so I won't be overstimulated and hyper and turn myself that forum troll guy who stays up all night posting every other day.
Hi. I 30 years old (31 in May). I was born into a Catholic family and baptized Catholic in a small town. I went to C.C.D. growing up and Confirmation classes in high school, but I was never Confirmed. I can't really remember how it went down because it was so long ago. I think it was something weird because I was the only one left in my class or I was supposed to find a sponsor, but or else the whole thing never happened for some reason because there were just so few kids. I was also elected as the Representative of the Interfaith Youth, it was like all the church kids in town and I don't really remember my duties other than showing up for the meetings.
I'm pretty much a recluse in a somewhat larger town than I grew up in. I'm a disabled schizoaffective under outpatient commitment, so I have to take meds or get EPC'd (like arrested, but to a hospital). I'm really looking to start going to church more often again. I was going every Sunday with my brother and his wife, but he moved to a different city in 2013 and I felt too odd to go alone (also I have to walk all the way there). He was never Confirmed either for the same odd reason I wasn't, but in those years he was taking adult Catholic classes at the church in this town with his wife and I think he was finally Confirmed in an adult version of the ceremony (I can't remember what, maybe just Confirmation). Anyway I think church will help get me out of this dark bubble of isolation and help with my life. I was much more happy and creative when I was hanging out with my brother.
I can also always go to the mental illness clubhouse (in fact I was even ordered to go at a time in my life), but when they aren't going bowling on Friday it's pretty much just sitting there waiting for the bell to ring. Nobody talks.
I've been spending a lot of time on the internet my whole life. I've got a associates degree in web design, illustration, and computer arts. I had a volunteer job walking pound dogs, but I'd rather be on my computer writing scripts, making web comics, and sharing them on my blog. One of my Tumblr scripts on Greasyfork has over 1000 installs, so I like to tell myself that debugging that script and keeping the userbase pleased is a much more fulfilling volunteer job, and I don't have to pick up dog duty with a grocery bag.
However, leaving me alone all week long with a computer and an internet connection is also dangerous. I've been doing the forums thing for 100% of the social activity need for most of my life and 3 out of 3 of my past therapists said that's a NO-NO. My personality on a forum is so much not the real me because I can let any of my random thoughts fly out at innocent anonymous strangers and I get in trouble a lot. It's mostly in topics about race, gender, politics, religion, all those kind of button topics, ect. I usually post really stupid things because I have no real opinion one way or the other and I just post whatever instant thought I think sounds good. I don't mean to become a jerk, it's just that when I want to post something I really take no time to articulate the thought out. Or else, just any type of plain topic, if I'm in the zone for replies, I find myself trolling when I don't even mean to.
I've been posting on anime forums, flash cartoon forums, gamer forums, forums of adult content where the users are ironically not very adult acting, ect. It usually comes down to: I open the browser and without even thinking, I'm at the forum again and I didn't even realize it, like a bad relationship or drug addiction, and so far what I've been doing is literally asking the admins of those forums to ban me so I can't come back. I've been request banned from three forums, and have lost interest in the inactive ones.
This is my first Christian forum. My goal for joining a Christian forum is to be among content that's (not to stereotype but) down-to-earth and mature wholesome content, so I won't be overstimulated and hyper and turn myself that forum troll guy who stays up all night posting every other day.
Welcome to CF! 
