This has been my experience with this dreadful form of ocd.
I think the terror that a person has become appostate is a dreadful form of ocd (scrupulosity)..Cause when a person is terrified that they are unforgivable it can be very very difficult to overcome because they think as long as there is a chance that they have become appostate or unforgivable that the promises in the bible no longer apply to them because they are appostate now and nothing can be done.The terror seems to confirm it all as well and causes the mind to become clouded with confusion and hopelessness.
This is such a horrible and tormenting form of ocd because it focuses on a person's eternal destiny and makes the person think they have lost safety in Jesus and can no longer call on Him.
It makes the suffering person think His wrath abides upon them forever.Therefore coming to Jesus can be terrifying since a person thinks that Jesus is furious with them and His wrath abides on them and that they have forever insulted Him and that they themselves must therefore be very evil and that their sins cannot and will not be washed away.
The terror and anguish and torment of this kind of ocd seems to either be confirming those thoughts or else causing those thoughts.A person with this type of ocd has a very hard time accepting that it is ocd because it all seems so very real and the scriptures appear to back it up through their distorted thinking which the torment in their mind causes with extreme confusion and inability to focus or feel God's grace.This has been my experience with ocd.Has anyone here had similar experiences to this?
The way I am learning to deal with this is to keep meditating on God's Word and the promises and nature of Jesus.It is only through the grace of Jesus that I am beginning to heal from this.
Jesus said His words are truth and they are life.They are life to them that find them.Jesus also said come to Me all ye that labour and are heavy laden.So I am coming to Jesus with my ocd.Prayer is very powerful because Jesus hears and answers prayer and said to come to Him as little children and to seek and ye shall find.Jesus promises that when we ask Him for something good He will give us the good thing we ask for.
Jesus is teaching me the difference between the ocd fears and the truth as I come to Him even with my terror and fear and ocd.
Jesus said said He came to heal the broken hearted and set at liberty them that are bruised and to heal the broken hearted.He said that a bruised reed He would not crush and a smoking flax He would not snuff out,these are some of the promises He makes to us.I am beginning to realize that Jesus is protecting me through all this.
I have also began seeing a very kind counselor who is also christian and prays for me at the end of each session.It was very hard for me to not have anyone to talk about my feelings with before.This ocd forum has also helped me immensly.The people here are all so supportive and understanding and caring.Many people have found the different ocd therapies very helpful too and medication.The thing is that this horrifying form of ocd is possible to beat , or at least become manageable I think.
Does this make sense at all to anyone , or have other people had similar experiences with religious ocd or (scrupulosity)? or have your types of religious ocd been very different?Do you think each kind of religious ocd has a root fear or do the fears keep changing and morphing into different fears?Have you beaten it or has it beome manageable?If not do you think it can be beat or become manageable?
Jesus Bless
annrobert
I think the terror that a person has become appostate is a dreadful form of ocd (scrupulosity)..Cause when a person is terrified that they are unforgivable it can be very very difficult to overcome because they think as long as there is a chance that they have become appostate or unforgivable that the promises in the bible no longer apply to them because they are appostate now and nothing can be done.The terror seems to confirm it all as well and causes the mind to become clouded with confusion and hopelessness.
This is such a horrible and tormenting form of ocd because it focuses on a person's eternal destiny and makes the person think they have lost safety in Jesus and can no longer call on Him.
It makes the suffering person think His wrath abides upon them forever.Therefore coming to Jesus can be terrifying since a person thinks that Jesus is furious with them and His wrath abides on them and that they have forever insulted Him and that they themselves must therefore be very evil and that their sins cannot and will not be washed away.
The terror and anguish and torment of this kind of ocd seems to either be confirming those thoughts or else causing those thoughts.A person with this type of ocd has a very hard time accepting that it is ocd because it all seems so very real and the scriptures appear to back it up through their distorted thinking which the torment in their mind causes with extreme confusion and inability to focus or feel God's grace.This has been my experience with ocd.Has anyone here had similar experiences to this?
The way I am learning to deal with this is to keep meditating on God's Word and the promises and nature of Jesus.It is only through the grace of Jesus that I am beginning to heal from this.
Jesus said His words are truth and they are life.They are life to them that find them.Jesus also said come to Me all ye that labour and are heavy laden.So I am coming to Jesus with my ocd.Prayer is very powerful because Jesus hears and answers prayer and said to come to Him as little children and to seek and ye shall find.Jesus promises that when we ask Him for something good He will give us the good thing we ask for.
Jesus is teaching me the difference between the ocd fears and the truth as I come to Him even with my terror and fear and ocd.
Jesus said said He came to heal the broken hearted and set at liberty them that are bruised and to heal the broken hearted.He said that a bruised reed He would not crush and a smoking flax He would not snuff out,these are some of the promises He makes to us.I am beginning to realize that Jesus is protecting me through all this.
I have also began seeing a very kind counselor who is also christian and prays for me at the end of each session.It was very hard for me to not have anyone to talk about my feelings with before.This ocd forum has also helped me immensly.The people here are all so supportive and understanding and caring.Many people have found the different ocd therapies very helpful too and medication.The thing is that this horrifying form of ocd is possible to beat , or at least become manageable I think.
Does this make sense at all to anyone , or have other people had similar experiences with religious ocd or (scrupulosity)? or have your types of religious ocd been very different?Do you think each kind of religious ocd has a root fear or do the fears keep changing and morphing into different fears?Have you beaten it or has it beome manageable?If not do you think it can be beat or become manageable?
Jesus Bless
annrobert
