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Godislove94
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After wondering why I wasn't hearing from God and thinking of possible sins to repent of so I could, God whispered to me one night as I laid in bed trying to fall asleep.
"*my name*...stop hating yourself."
I was emotionally abused growing up and felt like it was my fault, so I grew up thinking I was repulsive and that I would be liked more if I were someone else. Consequently I would punish myself in the nastiest ways...starving myself, cutting, pulling hair out, hitting myself until I had bruises, etc. Once I was saved and realized my sin it only made it worse. Since then I've been stuck in a pattern of nasty treatment to myself. Not believing it was God, I didn't listen until a few days later at work I started bashing myself and all I heard was "STOP IT."
"God, is this You?"
"HE WHO LOVES ME KEEPS MY COMMANDMENTS". I felt love and peace pour over me and felt like crying.
"*my name*...stop hating yourself."
I was emotionally abused growing up and felt like it was my fault, so I grew up thinking I was repulsive and that I would be liked more if I were someone else. Consequently I would punish myself in the nastiest ways...starving myself, cutting, pulling hair out, hitting myself until I had bruises, etc. Once I was saved and realized my sin it only made it worse. Since then I've been stuck in a pattern of nasty treatment to myself. Not believing it was God, I didn't listen until a few days later at work I started bashing myself and all I heard was "STOP IT."
"God, is this You?"
"HE WHO LOVES ME KEEPS MY COMMANDMENTS". I felt love and peace pour over me and felt like crying.
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