walk out...

[Atha]

i live in my parents house, and need to take medicine or its like im attacked by the darkness... i lived with it for couple years before the pills... but i want to get onto the path of life... fallowing the Lord.... its hard cause i wont be able to take enough pills.. for the whole life time journey im willing to live... i think i could do a lot of good... and that i wouldnt need anyone taken me down, cause i just want to help those of the light... i know i know, start in the dark... and make the light, like the Lord Jesus Christ... but i wouldnt be too stable... and well last night was the first time i thought that priests were actually fallowing the Lord, cause they havent really supported me... its just with so many they have to love its hard to show it or something... but would disciples be priests? i think they would be more walking out priests... cause well they are supposta teach everyone.. should i go, or try to be a priest, the thing is they probably wont even let me, but i need to serve the Lord... we all do...