Wait

[defenderinfaith]

Waiting…We spend all this time waiting. Waiting for a sign. Waiting for someone else. Waiting for something to happen. Just waiting. If only this would happen so that I can…; If only this person would make the first move…; If some sign would appear, then I would change. Waiting for an entire lifetime. We seem to always be waiting for someone else to do something before we do anything. All those “if only”’s that we hold near and dear. Wewait because we have always waited, we say if because we have always said if. We learn early in life to wait, and as we grow we learn more waiting and eventually pass it on to the next generation. Waiting, watching, if only. If only God would send me a sign, I would repent and change my ways. If only they would fire Bob so that I can be promoted. If only the other car had stopped, we wouldn’t have been in the accident. If onlyI had moved that vase, it wouldn’t have fallen. Every time wewait, every time we say if only, something passes us by. Well I still have half a tank of gas; I’ll just wait until the next exit. If onlyI had put more gas in the car we wouldn’t have broken down in the middle of nowhere. We wait and see, wait and watch, wait, and wait and wait. So we are forever in a circle of waiting and if only’s. So why don’t we take that first step? Why don’t we make the first move? Why are wewaiting? We see a round hole and a round peg, but instead of completing the puzzle wewait and see what everyone else is doing, and when someone else does what you didn’t, it becomes if onlyI had done that. We are afraid to make the first move because we might get it wrong. We are afraid that we will fail and those around us will think less of us, laugh at us. Afraid to be wrong, so wewait. Yet so many times when we have a moment of bravery and stop waiting, weather because we are fed up with waiting, of our hand is force, do we fall? Do we fail? Of course we do, of course we will land on our faces, cry our tears and of course it will get done. We spend so much time waiting that we forget what it is to fall, to fail, to actually try. But then some strange miracle, uncharted, unseen, unknown happens that is so shocking that the world would stand in awe, ifthey weren’t waiting. You get back up. Here you reached to the highest branch on the tree of life, you failed to reach it, you fell all the way down to the rocky earth below, and without thinking you stood up. This time, you fell, you are bruised, blood, and maybe partly broken, but you stood up again. You may have cursed up a blue streak, made threats and thrown fists in your pained anger, and you forget that you’ve stood up. You took a beating, life has solidly kicked your butt, and out of instinct you stood up. You do not know your own strength, and through the pain you now know what not to do. You do not have to be a leader to make the first move, but once you move and stop waiting, stop saying if only, things happen that blow your mind. Take a breath, move your foot, just stop waiting. You have no idea of what you can do if you keep waiting. You do not know the power that is within you, in your life, ifyou say if onlyI could get, if only this happened, if only… Yes you will fall, you will fail, you will be hurt and scared, and yes it will be unpleasant at first. But what you don’t know, what you haven’t seen yet, is that as broken as you believe you are, you are still standing. You are alive, you may not have moved far, or done much today, but you are still alive, your spirit, no matter how broken it may appear, is still standing. That is a power that no one can take away from you. That is something that is so hard to find, to see, that you almost believe it doesn’t exist. But you are reading this, and that is all the proof you need. That is the proof that you are still standing, if you weren’t then you would not be here, on this earth.